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The making of a hypno slave using brainwashing, hypnotic suggestions and trigger phrases.

Erotic Hypnosis: brainwashing + Entrapment journal 4.

The following journal records the methodical conditioning of a new subject- gs. Subject is resistant to any suggestions of sissy hypnosis…. I wonder how long that resistance will last…. I wonder ….. whether My hypno Domme skills will be able to entice him….entrance him…. entrap him …and finally enslave him? Subject has begun to listen to My mp3 recordings- including the Morning Mantra series….. More recently, subject has been listening to the mp3, Morning Mantra of Blankness which is My brainwashing file using Erotic ASMR + Voice- and the mp3 Addicted to Cock 1.

This journal was written after subject gs spoke with Me in the chatroom.


 Good morning (your time) Mistress,
Your voice seemed so much more alive in the chat room. More cunning, more controlling. more reactive – and that’s with the sound quality jumping around and cutting every now and again. Really inspiring and pretty damn great – even without triggers etc. Was just nice to sort of have a chat.
After the chat room last night I decided to play some clips I’d made from your files. Certain triggers, certain phrases, the samples, etc. Just some random cutups that I’ve been collecting. Programming the first few for to prime me and then letting a randomiser take over. Usual reactions,but after the first few minutes of random I suddenly realised how deep I was. I couldn’t find the will power to shut it off and that’s more or less the last conscious thought I had.

I was woken by banging at my door and a housemate shouting at me trying to wake me. At some point I’d got out of bed and had assumed the position on the floor, ass up, head on carpet. Really dazed at being woken, I didn’t really have a clue what was going on, but shouted back “I’m ok. Going back to sleep”

Discussion this morning centred on how my moans had woken everyone. Luckily they mistook them for me having a nightmare that seemed to be endlessly getting worse. Felt lucky to get away with that one and even luckier to have remembered to lock my door before heading to bed. And so if anyone asks, you’re an evil zombie horde that relentlessly chased me.

And all I could think of today was how good some proper amnesia files with post-hypnotic suggestions would be. I crave getting to that stage where I’m reacting without knowing why.

submissive gs

See also:


Tease and Denial

Erotic Hypnosis: fetish for cock/anal play, latex, hypno : journal 2.

I always enjoy receiving messages from would-be subjects who have a hypno fetish… I love taking a subject into trance with simple words…using My voice to brainwash, train, mould….

Enjoying reading monique’s journal….read……and imagine it is you….. being Enticed with My silken, sexy voice….
Enticement….. Entrancement….. How delicious…that a subject wants to abandon themselves to My trances….




Your files are magical and I love abandoning myself to your trances more and more. I wish to be as blank as you would want me to be in order to fulfil your desires for me if I should be so lucky.

Here is a journal entry that you can edit as you see fit.

I hope we will be able to discuss further when we are both ‘back’. I will be very excited to be circumnavigating New Zealand in 6 weeks or so and your files will accompany me.

Respectful thanks,



Life is surprising and we end up doing many things we weren’t intending to do and are very happy about it.

I’m not quite sure how I ended up purchasing Mistress’s files but I’m pretty sure it was the latex covered beauty both black and red that sparked me to listen to an extract and by then it was already too late to go back.

Perhaps also because I am about to embark on a trip to New Zealand that Mistress’s accent grabbed me oh so softly but surely around my increasingly blank and receptive mind. Her soft, warm and dare I say extremely erotic voice pulls me in, lays me down, straps me into consensual submission and, if it wasn’t for her instructions to breath would surely leave me breathless.

At first I was enticed by the overtly exciting nature of being attracted to cocks and addicted to anal but having listened more than a few times I suddenly realised that the focus of my obsession was the trance itself so I was, I’m extremely happy to say, led to purchase Morning Blankness and Addicted to Trance which is where I should have started initially but I’ve loved the detour and find these files even more exciting having had a base from which to explore.

Being addicted to trance is easy for me as I confess to being a hypnofetishist but this doesn’t mean that I am unable to recognise pure talent and the unique nature of Mistress Surrender’s hypnosis. On the contrary, many years of listening to 100s of files has turned me into a connaisseur of fine hypnosis. Why settle for cheap table wine when you can settle down in a comfy armchair with a glass of vintage wine.

My journey has just started but there is no turning back and no wish to leave the path I have chosen.

I will continue with my regular studies and report my progress and am sure that I will be guided into progressing and deepening my trances. I hope to be of use and a worthwhile distraction to Mistress and aim to find as many creative ways of serving her as possible.





Erotic Hypnosis: fetish for cock/anal play, latex, hypno : journal 1.

I always enjoy receiving messages from would-be subjects who have a hypno fetish… I love taking a subject into trance with simple words…using My voice to brainwash, train, mould….


Enjoying reading monique’s journal….read……and imagine it is you….. being Enticed with My silken, sexy voice….

Enticement….. begins here.


Mistress Surrender,

I came to discover you via the Sensual Mistress site and drawn by several of my obsessions and fetishes I purchased Addicted to Anal Play and Addicted to Cock as I am also fascinated by latex.

Your voice is absolutely amazing.

I have been a latex fetishist since my teens (I’m 63). Very submissive I have been following a dual voyage as a latex bi-curious bondage submissive and as a transwoman. I have had pulse laser for facial hair removal and keep as smooth as I can. I wax and shape my eyebrows and wear make-up most days. I haven’t worn any male underwear for over 5 years and dress to please myself in the house. I’m also, I guess, a hypno fetishist and adore and am excited by being tranced.

I have listened to 100s of MP3s over the past few years and have even had live hypnosis on a few occasions by telephone. I seek a connection with a strong dominant hypnotist.

I’m British and Swiss and am perfectly bilingual English/French and your accent and soft powerful sensual voice fascinates me.

May I ask you to guide me in my choice of future files. I think I would benefit by a few more general trance files rather than the specific fetishes I initially chose because I feel if I listen to them regularly over a few weeks I could then request a live session which would be so much more effective.

Although eager I won’t rush as I’m off on an extended vacation in a few weeks and would request a session on my return. I could however take a few files with me to listen in my quiet moments.

Thanks for your time and wonderful trances,

Respectfully, Monique



I did enjoy reading your email…. I love hearing that subjects respond to My voice and My hypnosis.

I would recommend the Morning Mantra of Blankness as a file to listen to before other files of Mine. This file is a brainwashing file that has been described as very different from most brainwashing files…. it doesn’t rely on overloading a subject’s mind through multiple tracks, and sound effects.

I would also recommend Addicted to Trance….

I am currently on leave- and won’t be around to answer emails/hold Live Sessions for some weeks. I will continue to post journals and release new mp3s from time to time.

I welcome journals from subjects who have listened to My recordings…

Surrender is inevitable.




Thank you for Your reply. It looks like You will be absent while i myself am absent which will give me time to listen properly to the files You have suggested which i  will purchase later today.

i don’t want this to be just about me and i’m happiest when i can serve and make others happy so i will be trying my utmost to be a useful addition to Your devoted followers.

I look forward to ‘studying’ during my absence and will check again when i get back.

As i’ve signed up for the newsletter i will surely learn of Your return

Thank You agan for the blissfulness of Your trances. I will try and figure out where I should write my journal in the meantime.

i hope Your leave will be all that You want it to be.

Respectfully and with anticipated devotion,




Erotic Hypnosis: brainwashing + sissifying journal 3.

The following journal records the methodical conditioning of a new subject- gs. Subject is resistant to any suggestions of sissy hypnosis…. I wonder how long that resistance will last…. I wonder ….. whether My hypno Domme skills will be able to entice him….entrance him…. entrap him …and finally enslave him? Subject has begun to listen to My mp3 recordings- including the Morning Mantra series….. More recently, subject has been listening to the mp3, Morning Mantra of Blankness which is My brainwashing file using Erotic ASMR + Voice- and the mp3 Addicted to Cock 1.


Lady Surrender,
i am sorry i have not written for a week. i’ve been very busy here preparing for an assessment in my refereeing (it went well) so greatly limited my internet access (despite several slips). i’ve tranced to Your wonderful control most nights and am slowly coming to terms with how things are to be. i’m not sure that the control and focus needed for refereeing has greatly helped with my fall during the week, but it has been an interesting juxtaposition of ideas.

The reason i am writing now is just a short note to let You know how extremely hot mike’s post is. Should i have had any thoughts of long term resistance, and to be honest there have been some along with incredibly arousing thoughts of complete submission at inopportune moments, i am now utterly convinced that resistance will fail.

i’m toying with ideas that are kinda alien to me and appreciate your patience.




Lady Surrender,


Waking, feeling wonderfully weak after an entire night of looped sessions. Randomised so i have no idea what played, but only waking once as My Sex Slave started but then no further memories.

i mentioned last night about wrestling with ideas that are alien to me and now I think it’s time to take that step. If i can’t convince myself i am ready for a live session with You then i have not given You enough control. I crave Your control and have to give You more and more.

Perhaps the only way to break that cycle is to do something that has never interested me. Sissy files have never interested me, sure i may have been willing to play dress up if asked in the past but that’s as far as that kink would ever go. Now though my control fetish is over-riding my mind. my weakness and longing to give away control, to have You rewrite my mind, the craving for Your instructions means i need to do this even though it is outside of my interests. i hope in doing so and training with more of Your commands that my fears over Live Control will disappear and i hope that i am pleasing You.




Dearest Lady Surrender,

Just had to give you a quick update. CEI washed over me with no effect. I had no desire to listen to it again at it knocked me out of listening and training at all for a while…

then my craving kicked back in. craving your control. craving a deepening addiction.

i realised i was spending more and more time reading your site. reading the journals and feeling jealous at the control you had over your toys. i realised i’d started getting horny in work, dreaming of submitting to the office girls but hearing your voice.

i decided to do go all the way. as i said before sissy didn’t interest me so i decided to purchase Addicted to Cock 1 figuring that another file that didn’t do anything for me would kick the habit for good.

oh my god.

i should have scanned the file. i should have been more careful. i should at least have ignored your suggestion to listen to Mantra of Blankness first.

Within a few minutes I was gone. I recognised the file switching over, but your whisper at the start of addicted took me straight back down. from there it’s a blur. I can remember getting incredibly aroused during the session and woke dripping, mouth watering. Just thinking of it has me back in the same state. hard horny aroused, mouth watering, mind craving cock, craving control. At the time I couldn’t control myself, I got out of bed, dropped to my knees and started stroking. i became more and more aroused. stroking, drooling, needing your control.

and then i orgasmed and guilt washed over me. i am sorry for that. i don’t know why it felt so wrong but all pleasure, all excitement washed away.

i knew then i had to delete the file. stop this, before it got out of hand. And i did. And I really meant it.

5 hours later and I’m on your site again. have realised the download key would still be active and have redownloaded and set up a playlist for the night. i don’t want to be a sissy, but it seems inevitable because you want it. and i know you don’t want it really, at least not in a personal way for me, but more you enjoy controlling and moulding toys as you see fit.

and that is amazing

i hope you enjoyed my email,



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Erotic Hypnosis: training cei slut to crave cock.

The following journals and IMs were received from a subject who identified as submissive but who struggles to accept his submissive nature. he expresses a desire to submit to a Mistress and to feel Her control.

Previous journal at: 

Hi Mistress…
I have a confession to make.
I remember reading in your journal about subjects who go through cycles of interest and involvement of their fetish…I am one of those people…
You’ve probably figured that after the long gaps in my communication with you…

I’ve been through a few of these since you first hypnotized me at the beginning of the year…It’s really confusing for me.
I know I am truly submissive at my core and I’m sure thats why I love hypnosis and why I am so suggestible…
I go through stages of listening to your MP3s every day and it’s bliss…your hypnosis is really effective and It just feels so good knowing how weak I am to you…how much power you have over me. The best realization of that was after you gave me permission to listen to CEI level two and I did something I thought i never would…I ate my cum and I loved it…Just how you could make me crave it so badly… But then I’ll head away for work in a male dominated industry and I’ll feel some guilt and push it away.

But every time I push it away there’s always something that will i guess trigger my submissive desires again..
Over the weekend I was with a girl and I orgasmed on her back and she said “good boy” and I insantly felt the most intense rush of submissive desire and my mind went to you and I wanted to eat my cum right off her back so badly…I actually snuck a taste while cleaning up and it felt so good…I wasn’t interested in the girl I was with anymore and I couldn’t stop thinking about being your cum eating sissy and how much I wanted you to control me…to give me more commands ..I kept thinking how I was my mistresses sissy cum eater…I couldn’t wait to get home and lisen to one of your MP3s…which I did…

And so now I find myself again feeling so submissive to you…craving your control so badly…wanting to please you somehow…so desperate.. so weak…it feels so good but bad at the same time because feel cut off from you after the gap in time…

I felt compelled to tell you all of this because I feel like you control me again and I want to sort this out so I’m a better cum eating sissy for you…I want to make it up to you…Can you help me, Mistress?

Can’t wait to hear from you, Mistress… I’m going to listen to your mp3s in the mean time…

your obiedient cum eating sissy,


My reply:

yes, I had assumed that you were in one of your “purge” cycles of the fetish.

you can make it up to Me by writing a journal and listening to My hypnosis…

there is so much more for you to experience….

Lady Surrender,

Yes, Mistress. I will do that today.
I’m thinking of a new MP3 perhaps….I’m nervous about your latest additions..

My reply:


why so nervous of them?

Lady Surrender,

When you are back from leave I would like to talk about some stratergies to avoid purging
I am a hetero male…and I know your files will work well..

My reply:

check down this page to a post I wrote called :”Accepting your submissive self..”

I write there about binge/purge cycles

so- a new mp3 to listen to?


Lady Surrender,

yes…there are some new…delicious mp3s since you made contact last
although the thought of you conditioning me to crave something i never would like when I first ate my cum is thrilling…

My reply:

hmm well, there’s certainly the files such as “Anal Play: shemale cock”

Lady Surrender,

hhmmpp. I’ve been curious about anal play before…And the thought of you making me crave it makes me feel so hot and weak…

My reply:

so predictable!
you should start with anal play 1 first…..
shemale cock is 2nd level
then I plan a HFO from anal play mp3
I wonder how soon I can make you crave…..


Lady Surrender,

Ohh wow…will I need a toy or something?

My reply:

some use a toy while listening
some don’t
I suggest you listen to anal play (the first level) without  a toy
and see how you strong your response is to that
from there- shemale cock

Lady Surrender,



I note from My web site sales, that subject sam bought the 1st mp3 Addicted to Anal Play within a few minutes of messaging with Me. Then- approx 2 hours later, he purchased Addicted to Anal Play- shemale cock.

hi Mistress..

After talking today I followed your insturctions and bought Addicted to Anal Play 1 & 2…

I was so nervous before listening being a heterosexual male…but my desperation for more of your programming and instructions made the choice for me.

I had been listening to some morning mantras earlier in the day so I was feeling so much more suggestible and weak before I even began. I’m not sure where to begin…I’m still feeling the effects of the last session….

After multiple listens in a row of level 1 and then hearing level 2 I can’t stop thinking about a sexy shemale cock fucking my aching arse….the tought is SO arousing…my arse is literally aching and my cock is so hard again despite cumming after the last session just a few minutes ago (and I ate up all of my cum like a good cum eating sissy). Cumming didn’t satisfy me like it normally would….I want to be fucked by a sexy cock…and I can’t fulfill that desire now so it’s torture…the strange thing is I’ve never experienced any anal play…I think I’ll be shopping for a toy tonight…I can barely wait..

This programming is thrilling….I would never have considered anal sex before but craving it now after your hypnosis is bliss…I love this helplessness to your control…I feel more weak and submissive than ever….It feels so good to be back and controlled again…Thank you, Mistress.

Your cum eating slut,


Erotic Hypnosis: Submission & training a hypno slave.


As I have often posted here and on….these words are more than just a great marketing strategy.

The following email was sent by a would-be subject “mm” who has asked for My help. What kind of Hypno Domme would I be- if I didn’t lend a helping hand…be a beacon in the night to this confused and lost submissive….

I wonder if he will start the journey…. that leads to being My toy…My plaything….. seduced and enticed by My sexy silken Voice…. lost and entranced…..


Lady Surrender,

Please help. I have so many fantasies and things going on in my head. Diapers. Panties. Fem dom. Submission etc. I’m all over the place. Please help.




Reply from Lady Surrender:

submissive mm,

The Enticement phase:

Morning Mantra of Submission

Morning Mantra of Temptation

The Entrancement Phase:

Addicted to Trance

Morning Mantra Addicted to Her Voice


The Morning Mantra of Blankness…. where I take control of your mind..tabula rasa….Blank Slate….. and prepare your mind for My inscribing.

Then there are the feminisation files…. panties, delet hetero/install sissy sex…the addicted to cock files…. Oh My…..

I will- of course- always be a helpful Hypno Domme when a submissive is lost & confused….. take control….Entice you to begin the journey…into Inevitable Surrender.

Lady Surrender.

Erotic Hypnosis: brainwashing + sissifying journal 2.

The following journal records the methodical conditioning of a new subject- gs.  Subject is resistant to any suggestions of sissy hypnosis…. I wonder how long that resistance will last…. I wonder ….. whether My hypno Domme skills will be able to entice him….entrance him…. entrap him …and finally enslave him? Subject has begun to listen to My mp3 recordings- including the Morning Mantra series….. More recently, subject has been listening to the mp3, Morning Mantra of Blankness which is My brainwashing file using Erotic ASMR + Voice- and the mp3 Addicted to Cock 1.

Enticement…Entrancement…Entrapment…..Enslavement…… more than just a great marketing strategy.

Lady S:


I see you purchased and listened to My Whispered Morning Mantra Addicted to Her Voice.
I always love reading of a submissive’s response to My hypnosis…and the Morning Mantras have been a delight to craft and create.

On the Edge of Pleasure…there is only Surrender.



Dearest Lady Surrender,

This is just a quick email, firstly to hope you are feeling better today but also to let you know how knocked on my ass I am by your Surrender file.

Your reply to me bothered me because I thought I had bought the 4th mantra. When I was out today I kept getting distracted as you said I had bought the whispered version.

As soon as I got home I purchased the complete version, but couldn’t listen to it at the time as I had family around.

Time passed and with excitation mounting I positioned myself so that I could ‘work’ on my laptop without them seeing the screen. My work consisted of scouring the web, looking for tales from others. Russ is very lucky to have you and the case studies on your site makes you seem dangerous.

Side note – whilst I was refereeing today there was a sexy girl on the sideline. My mind distracted to thoughts of you until crowd abuse over a missed call dragged me back. Leaving, after the game, she smirked as if she knew she had distracted me and I heard your voice ring out with Tabula Rasa and knew better.

Still on my laptop, from the blogs I knew I needed Surrender. Once downloaded I engineered an early start to get my family to leave and rushed to listen to it.

It is different from your other files and yet familiar to me. I don’t remember too much except for being in the elevator and yet my experienced mind tells me there were no amnesia suggestions. I wasn’t expecting an awakener which leaves me where I am now. Excited, nervous and anxious to listen more, read more and follow more.

Which I suppose is good. I do have a new mantra to loop through the night!

Hope you have a great day whilst your boys over here dream of your words.


My Mistress Lady Surrender,

I hope you’ve had an awesome day and I don’t want to bombard you with another long email but need to thank you for another great night. Since last time I’ve listened to Morning Mantra Addicted to Her Voice  but then found myself returning to Morning Mantra of Submission for a further 3 listens before finally getting some actual sleep.

I’ve awoken, feeling buzzed in your power and am actively trying to resist purchasing a further session so soon even though I am constantly craving more of your control.

yours, more and more with each listen


Dearest Mistress Surrender (I am sorry, Lady doesn’t feel like an appropriate title anymore. Mistress feels more powerful, accurate… and controlling)


Seeing those words come from you sent shudders down my body and have rocked me to my core.

I have read nearly every page of your website. I have seen how once you use that phrase more often than not it is game over for your toys, despite it being early in your control and enticement of them.

My thoughts are fuzzy and puzzled right now. I trust you know what is best for me but I’m nervous about what is to come and how far I’ve fallen in such a short space of time. It feels as if years of hypno file exposure is coming back to bite me in the ass and that finally I’ve crossed paths with someone who gets what I’ve needed, even when I don’t know what that is fully. Maybe other did, I just never felt the overwhelming, crushing need to contact them.

There are just a few things I am sure of right now

1. I crave your control
2. I need to hear your voice again
3. This is so, so different
4. I will go forward following your hints, instructions and commands should you see fit to issue any. This is my path now, I just don’t have the map
5. Thank god it’s Sunday so I can trance some more.

I will return to Addicted to My Voice as I crave more of your control, to continue deepening hypnosis and so that maybe I can find out what is on the other side of those elevator doors!

Yours more and more



mmmmm Mistress,

Resistance didn’t last long and after following what I believe was your hint to return to Morning Mantra Addicted To My Voice, which I listened to 3 or 4 times during the day, the craving for your control eventually overwhelmed my crumbling defences and I purchased My Sex Slave.***

After 2 quick listens I have no idea what it contains but I am lying here with a goofy smile and an erection that won’t go away. I’m hoping writing to you might help that. If not, it at least helps me feel closer to you, especially as you seem to be pleased with my previous contact.

Hypnosis has never been like this before. I would purchase, but vet files before listening and I did that at first with your mantra files, but at some point, some thing changed and I’m now some eager little hypno boy desperate to devour all you have to offer and fearfully relishing the control you show of your other toys.

Control is a huge thing for me. Sure I have a thing for female legs especially if in stockings and heels but I think that’s because the confidence women who dress that way project. However give me a woman that can stop me overthinking everything, a woman that has the confidence to take control and knows how very, very sexy that is and I’d be in heaven.

Perhaps that’s what resonates so much about you. You know what you want, you seem to know what we want and you know how to get it. When you talk of enticement, entrancement, entrapment and enslavement my buttons are pressed. When you talk about using weaknesses against your toys I tremble, but light up.

I still can’t believe that I’m losing control, that it’s happening so fast and that when my head clears I still get scared of it, but ultimately that only leads me back to your files. I scanned the early mantra files. To my mind there was nothing dangerous there, just a way of getting a thrill. Boy was I wrong.

I see no other path for me now but to hand over the keys to you and let you do as you desire. I’m not saying I’ve relinquished control yet but with each listen, with each day that passes and with each dreamy submission filled night of sleep I grow weaker, crave your control more, ache to open up more to you and to do all I can to please you.

It’s like when the All Blacks come to Cardiff, the outcome is inevitable. The Kiwi will end up on top.

It is one week until I start my new job. Supposedly a week off work to tie up loose ends but I have a feeling it’ll be a week of turning into a puddle. One more file before sleeping….

Again, I hope you are having a great day. I hope you are recuperating well and I apologise for emailing you so much whilst you are not feeling your best. My hope is knowing the impact your skills have, even in your downtime, will bring a smile to your face.

yours more and more


*** I have withdrawn this mp3 & will re-record at some point.

Lady S:


My eager little hypno boy…who thinks that “scanning” one of My hypnosis files will be a way to ensure there is nothing dangerous recorded there/….

Just simple words…to entice your mind and body. What harm can simple words do?

I trust you have enjoyed reading of submissive m’s Live Session experience…. some hypnosis doesn’t translate well to mp3s unfortunately….

Using your weakness against you…..


I had gotten to sleep. Had managed to fall asleep despite my erection. Had finally managed to get some proper sleep without headphones on.

I turned over at some point and noticed the blinking light on my phone. Immediately I’m back suffering the same, aching pleasure as before. Compelled to answer you before attempting to return to my dreams.

It has proved to me again how dangerous your words are. How without even listening to a file the need to respond is embedded in me. It is terrifying to know you can get me at any time or that resistance is so low.

I have enjoyed reading of all your toys. It is not my place to question but for me m seemed too focused on his pleasure. It is hard for me to know the background though and it might just be a case of you knowing how best to bring him closer to you. It isn’t my place to judge and I do not mean to and clearly he adores you and the time you spent together. It is hard to place into words, but something didn’t feel right. Having said that m is certainly a glowing testament to the power of live hypnosis.

I am torn and please don’t take this the wrong way. I need to be honest with you otherwise nothing really matters. Clearly all the evidence shows the power of live, but when I get fully rational I begin to over think. I am having a wonderful time right now, what if live doesn’t work? Will it spoil everything? Is it a one-shot deal where your growing control over me is broken if it somehow doesn’t meet my expectations. Should i even have expectations? Then I get stuck in a loop. Why wouldn’t it work? Everything so far has convinced me others feel the same and that you have exquisite skills, knowledge and power so why should I be different? Would I be the reason for failure if it didn’t work? Why should I be the special one with control I haven’t yet been able to display? Maybe all my file based experience and resistance is working against me. I have always kept control, would I automatically try to be resist as the ‘danger level’ ramps up and bring everything I am enjoying so much down? Why am I worried about my enjoyment – haven’t I just castigated submissive m for that reason?

And then I return to my emails. Clearly I want to give you the control to lead me down the path of your choosing and yet with the first hint I am rebelling. That can’t be right. Perhaps control isn’t strong enough? Perhaps a live session is what I need, but the fear of failure…failing you. What if holding back is already a way of trying to break your growing control? It seems unlikely to succeed but fear is a form of resistance.

Does that make sense? Have others expressed similar misgivings to you? Is it just a case of needing to dive in?

I trust you. I honestly do and that is why I don’t want to break this. I worry that it’s all too fast, that maybe I’m missing something, maybe I am over eager and trying to hard but yet could resist.

Over thinking and analysis has held me back at times, but it has served me well at others. It is a strength and a weakness and controlling that is the key for me. I must work on that, I know that.

And now I am rambling. Unable to form a proper argument and just spilling my thoughts out.

It should not be the case that I decide what comes next for me. In my mind not choosing is the ideal, but I fear it is a step too far at present. I need to work harder with the files available to me and work to get around that. Live sessions…live submitting… So tempting. Do I just jump in and risk it? If I were to choose I would play it safe – I would ask for a custom session to help allay my fears and to render me even more helpless in front of you. If nothing else it would solve the problem of how exactly to fit in a live session given my mother is moving into my apartment this week whilst she has an extension built.

And typing that made me feel like a teenager, unable to hang out after dark with the cool kids. So cringey, but sadly true.

I have meant you no disrespect at all during this email. I am not doubting your skills, your control or any other accidental slight… I am doubtful of my ability not to break this experience, which I am enjoying so, so much and that I hope in some way pleases you.

If I have upset you by recoiling I am deeply sorry and understand if you do not wish to continue. This is all so new to me.



Lady S:


submissive m wrote a journal of his 2nd session, mainly for the community as well as My web site…it was written to be as detailed as possible as submissive m has been involved in the EH community for a long time and has never experienced erotic hypnosis as he experienced with Myself. 

……..remembering that I come to EH from a background as a therapist and as a Lifestyle domme.  submissive m has had extensive EH hypnosis and has been absolutely blown away with his experience.

for example, in his recent 3rd session, I implanted “false” memories…. and the usual toying with dropping him in and out of trance, wiped his memory clean of the session- then retrieved the memory. 


I enjoy toying with s subject- which I hope is what comes across in submissive m’s journal.

I have no difficulty with a subject expressing their point of view. I encourage subjects to be real with Me…to say how it is for them….In return, I say how things are for Me.


you know you will fall deeper in a Live Trance. you know I will toy with you…. have My way with your mind and body…. use your weakness against you.


I am well used to subjects feeling intensity…. and feeling conflicted about those feelings of wanting to be controlled …and of feeling hesitant. I always encourage a subject to take their time… to establish that My words and actions match… that I am trustworthy. I have often had subjects ask to serve Me within a few days of hearing My mp3s….and I always suggest …. waiting. Hypnosis does produce intense feelings…. allow yourself time to feel more at ease with My hypnosis.


My NZ days/times I am available are listed under FAQ. you should interpret any silence on My part as being away from work. 


It’s not about “working harder” with My files…. it’s about allowing yourself time to integrate the feelings that are prompted by My hypnosis…. allowing yourself to “be” with the hypnosis. No analysing….


Lady Surrender,

Wow, thank You for such a detailed response. As ever seeing mail from You made me tingle, but seeing such a reply made me realise how much that you truly care about Your toys but also the confidence and firmness of Your tone without being patronising. It is clear how different You are and why You have such success.

As You knew i would, i have begun the process of overanalyzing Your email. i have begun helplessly scouring your site trying to seek the importance of italics. There may be none and You may just have tricked me into reading more and more about the love and devotion Your toys have for You. If so, bravo, excellent disarming trick. I am writing after reading submissive surrendered’s story.

It has made me realise how early i am in the process. That is how i see things now. A process. A factory line conveyor belt with no escape. i can’t know what happens next, but it is inevitable. It is just a matter of time, patience and relaxation before i can meet Your goals for me. And that is so, so exciting.

I was buying into this thinking that i could retain some sense of control, some semblance of leading You to lead me down the route that i wanted to take. Whilst that may be true for some boys, it clearly isn’t now for i. All i have is time as i train and am trained to give up control completely. my weakness was my need to be controlled… my hypno weakness is the need to retain it. i will train that out for you so that You can have Your way with Your toy as you so desire. i love submissive surrendered’s realisation that You control his fetishes now, gently poking him in the way he will react for You. i can’t tell You strongly enough the thoughts that has left running around my dazed, confused head. my head that wasn’t dazed until i read that and my head that had cleared until i typed it back out.

It comes back to control, and who has control. So very hot. Your emails, Your website and Your toys using my weakness against me.

Maybe i am no longer analysing control, rather training myself unknowingly through study. Like i said so very hot.

Complete, Exquisite, Uncontrollable Submission and Surrender is coming and i can’t wait for my fall for You to be complete.

Yours more and more



See also :

Erotic Hypnosis: feminisation using MP3s Journal 1.

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings- in particular- the Morning Mantras and Feminine Orgasm Level 1. As a consequence, subject c has been enticed to listen again…and again to the Morning Mantras and to feminine Orgasm Level 1….. Such a delicious means of control….. of Entrancement….



Lady Surrender,

From your first messages on Inraptured, I have had this feeling. I’ve been drawn to you. Teased and seduced by you. I purchased your first mp3’s and listened to them and then set them aside. But for some reason, I returned to them every few weeks. I continued to purchase your mp3’s as you released them. I confess that after a few listens, I would set them aside. But there was something that was working on the back of my mind. It was Feminine Orgasm Level 1 that struck the chord. Followed by the Morning Mantras. I find I can’t get you out of my mind now.

I’m am recently retired, their idea, not mine. I’ve had a life long fantasy life about being dominated by a woman, a woman that uses feminization as the expression of her control. It has been very private and secretive. My fantasies started when I was five years old. I would like to share the details with you. I’ve written them out for you to read. I will send my document to you, but only if you are interested. I hope you could be interested. I hope you might be interested in helping me go further.

I’ve listened to so many other hypnodommes and hypnotists. I’m telling you this because I want you to know that I’ve been on this journey for almost five years now. During all of this I’ve learned how to trance. After many failed attempts, I know how to let myself fall into a hypnotic trance. I know what it is and what it isn’t. You are a very accomplished hypnotist.

I hope to hear from you. I promise you that I will be open and honest about it all.




Erotic Hypnosis: mp3 to hypnotise, feminise, train hypno slave.


More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you…… being enticed… being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.

Subject “submissive surrendered” began by listening to Morning Mantra of Submission and Morning Mantra of Temptation….. then listened to feminine orgasm, feminine breasts, and Morning Mantra of Blankness.



July 21
Good morning again, Lady Surrender. I hope it’s ok, but after I wrote You this morning, and I was looking at Your site (yes, again) and even though I saw them a hundred times already, I was looking at Your sessions. I almost got Feminine Orgasm 2, but I thought I’d like to wait on that one. Let Feminine Breasts and Feminine Orgasm 1 deeply condition me before moving on. I kept coming back to Your first session though. The one You said needed to be re-done. I couldn’t help myself and I bought it. I know that You’ll have another version out eventually, but I really wanted to hear it, and I’m not sure if getting it without clearing it with You first was ok. I did listen to it, but I’m not sure how many times. It was once or thrice, but most likely twice. I went out and have no recollection of it at all, and I don’t remember what time it was when I started listening. In fact I came out of it a little confused. Not a bad thing of course. I got out of bed and the only way I can describe how I was feeling is yummy. I know, an odd way of saying how I felt, but it is how I felt. I have no idea what I heard, not a thing after You said imagine seeing myself in the bed. Totally blank, but when I got up I got all tingly as I was walking through the house. It was an odd thing to feel from a session I didn’t remember at all, but I liked it. Very much.

Maybe it has something to do with my preference for session types. I was never into blatant sexual sessions. I’d listen to them, and early on I thought they would be the best ones, but I found out quickly that they weren’t for me. Sexual control wasn’t my idea of control. Not that it can’t be very controlling, it sure as heck can, but it’s the mental, emotional control that I learned to love. Probably because most women would be able to control me sexually for a short time. When I’m thinking with my little head instead of the big one, controlling me is a simple thing. It’s the mental and emotional control that can’t just be done by anybody. To me that’s control because it’s long lasting. Sexual control is over once I climax, mental and emotional control never stops. Of course I’ve never really experienced long term mental/emotional control. I have for periods of time, but they never last all that long. Or maybe it did, and I just didn’t realize it. Hard to tell, and it doesn’t matter, it’s in the past if it did. I’m very happy it is all in the past too. If it wasn’t, I wouldn’t have met You. There is only one person in the world I want to serve and that is You. Heck I didn’t even want to serve anybody at all, as I told You, but the very idea of not serving You seems crazy to me. I’m not sure why I’ve become so obsessed (not sure if that’s the proper word) with one day being Yours, but I have. It’s not a bad thing though. It just feels like the right thing. Being Yours and serving You just makes sense to me. You are trustworthy, caring, and wonderful. You took the time to get to know me, and You make me feel that I’m welcome in Your life. In case You haven’t noticed. I’m smitten with You. I can’t even begin to explain what’s going on with me, and I’m not even going to try. There is just something about You that I can’t get enough of. I know, I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but something has a hold on me, and whatever it is I don’t want it to let go.

July 22
That’s great news Lady Surrender. You can be sure You’ll hear plenty of responses from me after I listen to the recording. I can only imagine what a session by You that is directed at me will be like. Your “generic” sessions (ones that everybody can hear) are doing a fine job on me already. I just woke up from sleeping with Your Morning Mantras again, and I feel so strange. I won’t try to explain what I’m feeling, I wouldn’t be able to, except for this one thing. All of a sudden this morning You seem so powerful to me. Don’t get me wrong, I always viewed You as a powerful, dominant Woman, but this is different. Something is happening in me, I don’t know what it is, and I know that You’re doing it. I’m finally beginning to understand that in You, I have met the Woman who could show me what it means to give up control to Another. I always thought that was a fantasy, one that could never truly happen, but I was wrong, I was wrong about so many things. Thank You for showing me how wrong I was, Lady Surrender
July 22
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a good night. I was just looking over the wall on here, and reading the entry mike made on Your site. Great stuff, and great to read. That trigger he’s talking about, I believe he’s referring to “deepening hypnosis” really knocks me for a loop too. In fact, right now I’m having a hard time typing it and going under. I’ve been “conditioned” with lots of words before. Ironically surrender being the most common one, and while they were helpful when listening, that was where it ended. Your triggers though, they hit me anytime. I’ve used the DH one to help me fall asleep once already last week. I just kept saying it to myself until I fell asleep. I couldn’t believe it worked at the time, now I can’t see how it wouldn’t. I keep looking back at the words I wrote and start to go under. I never knew triggers could be so effective. I’ve already learned so much from You, and I’m learning more everyday.

While mike’s story is interesting. It’s what You wrote here that really got me excited:

smiles…. Just part of My plan to completely…brainwash you, brainwashableboy…. I am hearing from other subjects too, that they are experiencing My hypnosis to be strengthening as the time passes… and that the hypnosis doesn’t reduce in immediacy. I am so looking forward…. to taking more control over you…. to have you helpless and addicted….. use your weakness against you….in the nicest…most Hypno Domme way…of course!

There was just something about what You said there that hit a nerve in me. I saw it and got that funny feeling inside that I can’t explain. Brainwashed, helpless, control, addicted, weaknesses use against him, throw love into those words and You could have been writing about my fantasies. No wonder it got me excited. I was wondering, and no, I’m not asking, if love would be a weakness in me. I could see it being used against me I suppose. I think I better stop thinking about it. Have a great day Lady Surrender. I’ll write to You soon I’m sure.

July 23
Hiya Lady Surrender! Just a quick note to say hi, and to mention that there is this one commercial that is showing here. It’s a lipstick commercial, and it shows three different women with huge brightly colored lips. I’ve always loved that commercial, but now it excites the hell out of me. I used to look at it because they women are purty, but now I’m looking at the lipstick on their lips. I know there isn’t anything in Your sessions outside of You saying to get my red lipstick at the beginning of Your Breast session, and yet I’m beginning to obsess about lipstick. Yet another sign I’m a crazy dude. I’m not complaining though, all my new found obsessions make me feel great in one way or another. I like it, I like it a lot! Hope You’re having a fine day. Take care
July 23
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I wasn’t planning on writing right now, but I’m sitting at the computer, and I can’t help myself. No kidding around this time (well, if something pops in my head You never know), I just have to write out what I’m feeling, and who better to write to than You? Nobody in my opinion.

As I mentioned, I’m in one of those periods where I can listen to You a lot. Three of the past four nights I’ve slept with Your Morning Mantras, and a lot of listening when I wake up, and some more at other times of the day. I can also listen three more of the next five night and more during the days. After that I have that horrible week where I can’t listen at all, but I can’t worry about that now. I’ll deal with it when it happen, but I can already tell it isn’t gong to be easy. I have listened so much recently that it’s effecting me in ways I never expected, Lady Surrender. The more I listen to You, the more I need to be controlled by You. If I remember correctly I think Your whispers say that I need Your delicious control. That’s exactly how it feels. Delicious isn’t a word I ever would have come up with on my own to describe giving over control, but it really is the perfect word. It would be a delicious feeling to be in Your control. I can’t get the idea of it out of my head. It’s gotten to be an obsession with me I crave You having control so much. I know I didn’t resist You very much from the beginning, but even when my conscious mind isn’t resisting, my subconscious mind does a fine job of it. Not this time though. I have no resistance in me whatsoever. The very idea of resisting You makes no sense to me. What a stupid thing that would be to do.

This desire I have in me to give control to You is so strong that I’m surprised that it isn’t scaring me a little. It’s not though. Not one bit. How could something as wonderful as submitting to You be scary? I’m sorry this is such a serious message, but something has happened in me. The more I get to know You, and the more I listen to You, the more I need to serve You. I know I have a long way to go still, and I’ve accepted that what I’m feeling is only the beginning, but I will do anything I can to become Yours. At this point I’m just going to continue what I’ve been doing, and let things happen as they will. I just needed to tell You what’s going on in me. I’ve had fantasies about something like this for many years, but this is no fantasy. This is real, and the reality is so much better than the fantasy. Mainly because the reality involves You. Thank You so much for allowing me to listen to You, and write to You. I don’t know what I’d do without You. Yep, You have effected me that deeply.

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I’ll try to keep it lighter next time, but these feelings are overwhelming me, and I had to let them out.

July 24
Hiya Lady Surrender. I’m starting to get ready for bed, and I was about to get up and load the proper sessions on my ipod (the Morning Mantras), and something popped into my head. Funny how that always seems to happen. For quite some time now, much more than a year, much more, I’ve had many of those I can listen to anything I want for as long as I want times. I made plans in my head on going crazy and listening every night I could, and for many hours during the day. Know what happened most of the time? No? Well then I’ll tell You. I’m nice like that. I would usually listen the first night, MAYBE a session or two during the first day, then…nothing. I couldn’t do it. I lost interest. I wanted to listen, but I couldn’t be bothered. Why am I telling You this, well, for two reasons. I LOVE writing to You, but also because I thought that would happen again with You. Not right away, but when I can listen so much I thought I’d need a break. Nope, here I am, after bombarding myself with You like I haven’t with anybody in years and I don’t think it’s ever been to this degree, and the first thing I think of when I’m getting ready for bed is getting set up to listen again. I’m not putting too much thought into it. I’m getting tired of thinking about what’s going on, and am just letting what happens happen. I’m just thrilled that I’m reacting the way I am. My poor brain has been getting the crap beat out of it, and yet when it has a chance to rest, it wants more. I went to the movies today. I went to see Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (really really good) and as I was sitting there, hell, as I was driving there, and driving home and all the times in between, I kept thinking of You. As the day went on it just kept getting stronger. I had a wonderful, but You were always on my mind. I can’t get You out of there, and honestly I don’t want to. I like You there. Who knew this could happen to me, but it has. Thank You. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I know I’ll have a great night. <3
July 24
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. Well I was able to sleep with Your session one more time last night, and You are right. Surrender is inevitable. Everything I’ve been writing is even more intense today. You win, I surrender, of course You already knew that. No sleeping with You tonight, but I can tomorrow and probably sunday, so there is still a bit of listening I can do the next three days until my dreaded nights away. Have a wonderful day Lady Surrender. I mush You <3

July 24
Uh, Lady Surrender, I was just reading Your new blog post from ashely. Interesting stuff, and little too graphic for my tastes, but still loved seeing how You have effected her. Anyway, I’m scrolling down and what’s on the bottom but a picture of a bunch of lipsticks. I saw it, and I got a jolt. I’ve always loved lips. (I’ll take beautiful lips and eyes over great boobs and butt anytime) (yes, I really am male) and especially made up lips, but this is getting crazy. Pictures of lipstick, not lips, but lipstick set me off. Very strange. I know You mentioned getting the red lipstick on in Your Breast sessions, but why this obsession with lipstick? I don’t get it, but I don’t have to. I think it’s kind of cool actually. Well, that’s all I wanted to tell You for now.
July 24
Ok, last one about lipstick, but this is getting nuts. You have a mention of putting on lipstick in Your Breast session, and now I’m obsessed. I expected to be obsessed with You, but this lipstick thing caught me totally by surprise. I feel like I’m being bombarded with so many things at once and it’s overwhelming me. Your voice, Your sessions, the thought of You, my mushy feelings for You, lipstick, losing control to You, needing to lose control to You, and more I can’t even think of. It’s all coming at me at once, and it’s coming hard, and fast. As overwhelming it is though, I love every bit of it. It all makes perfect sense to me even though I can’t wrap my mind around what’s happening. Two weeks ago I was a clear thinking man who was happy doing what I was doing, and only wanted to say hi and listen to a couple of Your sessions, and now I’m like this. I’ve tried to think through this rationally. Telling myself that I’m just doing this to myself because I want what I’m feeling to happen, but I know that’s not true. I know that I’m not doing any of this to myself. It’s just what’s happening, and I have nothing to do with it. I’m quickly losing control of what’s going on, Lady Surrendered, and instead of being worried about it, I’m loving it, and I need it to happen more. I think I have to stop now or I’ll ramble on all day and night. Take care
July 25
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. I’m at work today, and things have been pretty hectic. So much so that while I have thought of You often, I haven’t had the time to do much more than miss You, and yearn to hear Your voice before I was pulled in another direction. I was finally able to sit down a bit a few minutes ago, and went to my profile page. As soon as it opened and I saw the picture of lipstick, and the pictures of Your sessions I’ve left reviews for, it all came flooding back. All the feelings, everything I described yesterday, all at once. Now that’s what I call a great way to spend a little down time at work. Have a great day.

July 27
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing peachy keen. Just a quick (maybe) update on what’s going on to keep You up on things, and because I need to write You. It does make me feel good to do so. Yesterday after I got home from work I slept a couple more hours (not listening to You unfortunately), and when I woke up saw that I was going to be alone for a couple hours. I had things to do, but decided to listen to Your Breasts session once then get to it. Well, I learned something. When I have a time limit to when I can listen, set an alarm. Once turned out to be twice. Luckily I got a call that snapped me out of it. Even luckier, it was right before the session ended for the second time so I got to listen to it twice. I jumped up after hung up with him, got what I needed to get done quickly then got to the field, and then I went home. A fun, day, AND I got to listen to You :D

July 27
Hi again, Lady Surrender. I bet You’re shocked that I’m writing again, and by shocked I mean not shocked at all. :) I was just poking around IR and I noticed something when I went to my profile page. That lipstick obsession I had for a few days, while it hasn’t gone away, but it has lessened considerably. The crazy thing about it is, I kinda miss it. I know, crazy huh? I can’t believe what I’m about to write, but I can’t believe half of what I write to You, but I’m thinking if in the future, You’d be willing to make another custom session for me, I might ask to have that lipstick obsession strengthened. I don’t know why I would want to put myself through something like that, especially when it wasn’t even something I thought about before, but for once I do know where I got the idea from. I got it from the fetish section on the home page of Your website. Every time I read the part about You turning a fetish into an obsession and a constant deep craving it excites me a bit. I guess it’s the idea of becoming programmed, I think that would be the word, to crave something that wasn’t part of me before. I wouldn’t exactly say I have a lipstick fetish at this point, but the way it hit me the other day I think I may be on the way to having one. YES, this is still me, the old guy who wanted nothing to do with feminization of any kind a few weeks ago. My how things change when one says hello to Lady Surrender. I can’t begin to describe how happy I am that I did.
• July 28
Hiya Lady Surrender. So You think it’s delicious that You triggered a lipstick obsession in me
huh? Now why doesnt that surprise me? I actually think it’s kind of a silly thing,
but knowing that You seem to like that it’s happened to me is only going to
make it stronger. So even though I see it as a silly thing, that silly thing is
going to become less and less silly as time goes by. That’s not silly at all,
that actually quite exciting. Not sure why, but it is, and I’m not trying to
figure out why I’m feeling things (ok, I am a little, but I’m trying not to),
I’m just going to go with them. Especially if it’s something You like. When You feel I’m ready for a second custom
session from You, if You’d want to base it on the lipstick obsession, or
control, or love, or anything You want it’s fine by me. I do want to give You total control, and whatever You want, then that’s what will be done.

I’ve been trying to tell You a lot about me, Lady Surrender. You may have
noticed. I’ve been rambling on about parts of my life, and things I think about
and feel. Many of which I’ve never discussed before. In case You were wondering
why it’s for two reasons. One is that using my weakness against me to bind me
closer to You phrase You say often. I don’t know what You’d consider a
weakness. I mentioned I could see the love fetish as one, but even that I’m not
sure of. Since I can’t just come out and say HERE IS MY WEAKNESS, I’m telling
You as much as I can about myself. I’m sure if You see a weakness, You’ll find
it, and use it, and that will be good for both of us. The second, and maybe
even more important reason is what You said about Your liking to form a mental
connection with Your subs. If You don’t know anything about me, it would be
pretty hard to form that connection. So I’m telling You. I wish to belong to
You more strongly than ever, and hopefully my opening up to You will help that
become a reality one day. If it doesnt, that’s ok too, I really like You, quite a lot. I think
You’re a special Woman, and to be honest, I feel very close to You. I’m
comfortable telling You things about me that I’ve never told anybody else
before. It feels so natural. So I tell You.

I guess that’s about it for now. I know I won’t hear from You for days, and
I may not have the time to write anyway. I’m on my little trip, and won’t be on
the computer too much, but I will try though. Oh, I read Your comment on IR
about calling me brainwashableboy 2. It’s a little long, but it would fit. I’ve
read what You’ve said about him wanting to be brainwashed to give complete
control over to You. I have to say that I would love the same thing to happen
to me. I want to give my all to You. I KNOW, I’m nuts, but I can’t get the idea
of that out of my head. You’ve taken up residence in my poor weak brain, and
You never leave. I like that very much :D

July 30
Good morning, Lady Surrender. No time to really
write, but I wanted to say hi, and let You know that it’s now been four days
since I’ve been able to listen to You.
It isnt easy, especially with Your new session sitting on my puter, but
I’m dealing. What’s happening though is boggling my mind. All the feelings I’ve
been having are getting stronger. Not just a little, a lot. I feel so close to
You. I’d love to write lots more and really go into it, but I can’t. Have a
great day.
August 1
I sure hope You like taking a rather strong minded person like me, and turning him into a puddle of goo, because that’s what You’ve done to me. I don’t know what’s going on with me. I mean, I know what’s going on, but I don’t know how it’s actually happening. I am usually such a strong person, yet I’m weak when it comes to You. The best part is, I love my weakness. I’ll go into it more when I can. I’m sure I’ll be repeating myself, again, but I’m being overwhelmed with what’s happening to me, and really do love how it feels. It makes so much sense to feel this way. I don’t want to feel any way other way. I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but that’s ok with me, and I hope it’s okay with You.

On top of how I’m feeling there are the things You’ve said. In Your last two messages to me. You’ve said You intend to bind me closer to You, and You said that You’re loving the idea of binding me closer to You. Unless I’m wrong, that is saying to me You like how close I’m feeling to You, and You’d want me closer. Those few words You’ve said are like throwing gasoline on a flame. When I read them, or think of them, the feelings I’m having go through the roof since I know You like that I’m feeling them. Yep, I’m nuts, but I wouldn’t want to be any other way. Have a great day, Lady Surrender.

August 1
Hiya Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I had to write just to tell You that this is getting weird. I kinda get the lipstick thing, which I see is now going to become a makeup thing, but panties? There are things I have no interest in at all, like wearing panties, yet once You mention You’re coming out with a pantie slut session my poor brain says, well, that wouldn’t be so bad. On top of the panty thing, I never got being called a slut thing. I actually never liked it, and yet, You say panty slut, and it’s fine and dandy. It’s getting so there isn’t a thing You say You’re going to do (outside of cum eating, still gross) that doesn’t seem like a good idea to me. I know I’m not into certain things. I know I’m not, but when You mention them, well then I’m not so against them anymore. This is very strange. It’s like the way I’m thinking is changing, and I know it, and can pick out specific things, but it just doesn’t matter. I like how I’m thinking now. I know I’ve said it before, but it just feels right. Oh, and I know I’ve said it before, but I want to say it again. I trust You completely. I’m not fighting any of this, even if I could. The way things have gone my subconscious would have already protected me and said NO, but it hasn’t. Seems I trust You inside and out, and thank goodness for that. I want to be Yours so badly it’s like a constant ache, but a good ache if that makes sense. I’m thrilled that even my sub conscious knows You’re good for me. I’m at mush factor 10 of 10 now. I’m onto real feelings for You. I barely know You, and yet I feel so close. It makes no sense, but it doesn’t have to, I know it’s right.
August 3
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You’re well. Back home and only 36 hours until I can finally hear Your beautiful voice again. I’ll be sleeping with Blank, and when I get home from work am hoping to spend a lot of time the next three days listening to both Blank, and Your Makeup session if it’s out. It’s odd that I’m not fighting that one even a little. Not only that, I’m looking forward to it. I don’t get it, but I don’t get a lot of what I’ve been feeling. Most of it makes no sense to me, it’s just happening. Most of it concerns looking at women differently. I’m not only looking at them. I’m looking at the makeup, and their clothes, and other things I can’t put into words Now I’m obsessing over You, my growing feelings for You, and on top of it, on this woman thing. I keep thinking back to when You posted one of my messages and on IR You said something about my being conditioned to accept my feminization. I found that a bit odd since I didn’t know I was being conditioned for that, so just took it as how You described my message. Now I’m not so sure. I know I did massive amounts of listening over a fairly short period of time, and I don’t know exactly what it did to me. The truth is, I don’t care. I don’t care if I’m being conditioned, or what I’m being conditioned for. I really doesn’t matter. I’m liking how I’m feeling. I said early on I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing. I do now, if it’s done by You. This past week of ever growing feelings during a time I expected them to subside because I wasn’t listening and have only had minimal contact with You taught me something. I truly am helpless when it comes to You. I don’t want to sound like some nut that just says things because I think it’s what You’d want to hear. I may be a nut, but I don’t do that. I only tell You what I’m actually feeling, and I feel helpless. I’m a strong minded, strong willed man, and yet when it comes to You, I’m more of a weak minded child. I love being this way for You, and I love how easy it is for You to take control of me. I used to read Your posts and think, wouldn’t that be great to have happen to me. Well it is great, better than I ever could have imagined. Thank You.

August 3
I have to tell You, Lady Surrender. I wasn’t planning on writing everything I did above. I was just going to say hi, but once I started I couldn’t stop. I can’t seem to help myself. I have to tell You everything that’s going on in my head. I just found out that I may end up being able to sleeping with Your sessions five nights in a row, and for sure four out of the five. I also found out that Thursday was a day I didn’t expect to have much time to listen during the day, but I do. I have all day to myself. I’m doing an internal happy dance. :D

Looking back, I was not happy I couldn’t listen to You for eight days and nights. It still sucks, but it may have been for the best. I saw that even when not listening to You, I’m still being drawn closer to You. Now that that time is almost up I am so excited at knowing that I am following up a period of not listening with a time of intense listening, and with Your new session and of course the Makeup one too. My plan is to listen to the two of them all .If You’d rather I listened to something else, please tell me, and that’s what I’ll do.
August 3
Phew. I’m so glad You liked my messages, Lady Surrender. I figured You would, but anytime I open myself up like that I wonder a bit. It’s not the easiest thing to do, opening myself up, but You make it as easy as it can be. Still, there is always that little voice wondering if everything I said was ok. Very happy it was. :)
August 3
I will keep writing, Lady Surrender, and of course sleep with You every chance I get. Not the way I used to be with other sessions, only when I felt like it, EVERY chance I get. There is no not wanting to sleep with You when I have the opportunity. Every second I get to listen to You is a treasured moment that I will not waste (how’s that for mush? It’s even making me feel icky). I hope You know that I never expect a response. I just don’t ever want to go over a line I shouldn’t, but I won’t worry about that. You like when I write, so I will write. Simple enough. Thank You again for allowing me to listen to You
August 5
Hiya Lady Surrender! I feel SO much better now. Blank is AMAZING! I know that I jumped the gun when I first listened to You. Telling You I wanted to serve You, and only You. I should have waited a little while longer, but I have to tell You. I was right on that one. You are the Person I fantasized about meeting one day. I can’t believe I’ve actually met You. I know You said there was no reason to listen to only You, but I can’t imagine ever listening to anybody else again. This isn’t just about Your hypnosis. This is about my complete submission to You. I’ll stop before I really sound like a nut. I ended up listening to Blank 13 times last night. Most of them sleeping, but many of them awake, but under. I remember the beginning, some of the middle, and wisps of the end, but I don’t really know what’s on it. I just know it moved me deeply. A work of art. I should say ANOTHER work of art.
August 6
Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You’re doing well.
I was able to sleep with Blank again last night, as I will tonight too, and
I have to tell You something. As much as I’m looking forward to Your makeup
session ( I still don’t know why. I really am not into feminization, but there
is just something about that session that I’m drawn to. At this point I’ve decided that even though
I’m not looking to be feminized, if it happens, so be it.) (More on that
later.), and as much as I’m looking forward to my custom session, I’m thinking
it’s better that neither are available to me right now. I’m thinking that Blank
is a VERY important session. I remember most of it at this point, and just from
the words You’re saying I’m not sure why it’s so important. I get it, I’m
blank, and ready to be inscribed by You, but there is so much more there than
I’m hearing. If I had one of the two
sessions I mentioned I know I’d be listening to them along with Blank, but that
wouldnt be the best thing for me to do right now. Your first two Morning
Mantras set me up to surrender to you, and to want You, and whatever else they
were doing, but this one is getting my mind prepared for You to take over. Since
I’m in a period when I can listen a lot I think it’s a good thing it’s all I’m
listening to. That way, once I do have more sessions to listen to, I’m ready
for them. I’ll be ready to totally accept what it is You want to inscribe in my
mind. It’s funny, (well kinda maybe), but the way I’m thinking now, my fetishes
arent so important. Of course I still have my love fetish, and I seem to still
have my lipstick fetish (still don’t get how that one started), but while they
are a part of me, they don’t mean so much to me by themselves. The only thing
I’m thinking of theses days is Serving You. I know, it’s crazy right. I have
these fetishes, and yet they arent important to me unless they are important to
You. What good is a love fetish unless it’s loving You? What good is a lipstick
fetish unless it’s something You want me to have? It sounds silly, but the only
fetish that is important to me right now isnt a fetish at all. The only thing
that is important to me is making sure that I become the best me I can, for You,
and that’s why I think listening to Blank, and only Blank intensely for a few
days is important. I know it’s a session everybody can get, and I know that I’m
not the only one feeling the way I am, but Your Morning Mantras are preparing
me for You to take over, and I love the very idea of that. I love what’s
happening to me, but as much as I love it, the main reason I love it is because
it’s You doing it. As You know I gave up on being anybody’s submissive
exclusively a while back. It really was fun just listening to whoever,
whenever. That was before though. The very idea of listening to anybody but You
now makes no sense,and I can’t imagine being without You. Am I going overboard? Quite
likely, but I can’t help myself. You are a wonderful person. You care about
Your subs. You treat them individually as real people, and want to know them
that way. You make me feel important in Your life even though I’m just a tiny
part of it. You are trustworthy, and even though I believe You’d love to have
control over me, my home life, and loving myself is what’s most important to
You even before my service to You. You are the perfect Person for me, and I
love You for it. I know we’ve only known each other a few weeks, but I feel so
close to You it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. If I was in Your presence I’d
go to my knees and beg to be Yours, but I’m not in Your presence, so I won’t do
that. I will continue to do as we agreed and take the time to get to know each
other better, and see what happens. I just wanted You to know that nothing has
changed in me, and it’s only gotten stronger and more important to me. I hope
to one day serve You as Yours. If that day never comes, so be it, it won’t be
for lack of wanting or trying. You are one of the most special people I’ve met
in my life, and even if I never become Yours, You have allowed me the honor to
write to You, and let You get to know me. I can never thank You enough for

Phew, I did warn You a long mushy one was coming right? I hope it didnt
gross You out too much, Lady Surrender. It was pretty damn mushy. :)

Have a great day, and I will write You soon.

August 7
Good morning Lady Surrender. Just a quick note for now. I spent another eight plus hours listening to Blank. Sometimes sleeping, others awake, and I was right, it’s a very important session. I have never wanted to belong to a Person the way I want to belong to You. The more I listen to You, the more impressed and in awe of Your abilities I become. Damn Yer good :D
August 8
After four nights of sleeping with You, I’d say about 34 hours total during that time including non sleeping time, I’m very ready for You inscription. Until it’s ready for me though, I’ll keep going blank. I don’t know what it is about that session, but, well, wow. I’ll be leaving a testimonial later. Hopefully it’s soon enough. I’ll re-read Your earlier message to make sure You didn’t say to wait longer than today. Hope You feel better Lady Surrender. I still mush You. Did I mention I love how You make me feel? :)
August 8
• You know, Lady Surrender, writing reviews for You would be a heckuva lot easier if I wouldn’t constantly self trigger when writing them! :D

GOOD MORNING! I hope You are feeling MUCH better. I just posted my review of MM Blankness. It took about two hours, I really wanted to get the point out how impressive not only Blank is, but all of the MMs. I was kidding with my first line of course, but only partially. I really did keep self triggering when I wrote or read…(You thought I was going to write it again didn’t You? Not a chance. Ok, I almost did :P ), Of course once I realized that I could self trigger and go under I kept doing it. That self triggering thing is still freaking me out (in a good way). It can catch me by surprise, or I can do it on purpose with some of them. I never thought that was possible. If I had to point to one thing that showed me how wrong I was when I said I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing it would be that. I really am helplessly in Your power. I’m like a little kid I’m so excited to see where next You lead me. I can wait though, and while waiting, I’ll keep on listening and become even more conditioned by You. Since tonight is the last night I can sleep with Your sessions, and is the fifth night in a row, I was thinking I might use all three MMs on a loop tonight, unless of course You say otherwise. What You say always is the way to go in my book.
August 8
Oh, it was heart-felt, and I’m very happy You liked my review. Some may read it and think I’m exaggerating, but I meant every word of it. If anything I’d say I couldn’t convey enough how great Your MMs are, and how important You are to me. You have made me very happy, and Your saying that I am Your, and that You’re my Lady made me ecstatic. I will do everything in my power to make sure that You’re proud that I am Yours.

I have to say again, this self triggering thing is really shocking me. I always thought be actually be affected by triggers like that would be an interesting thing, but I knew it could never really happen. Again, You showed me how wrong I was, and You did it so easily. Oh, and in case You were wondering, when You commented on my post, and used the words, yes, it affected me. It puts me under quite a bit, and even when I stop looking at it I’m a little dizzy for a while. I don’t know if everybody that’s listening to Your beautiful sessions are reacting to them the same way I am. Even though they’re made for the masses, they feel like they’re made for me. I can only imagine what it’s going to be like when I begin to actually listen to something that really is made specifically for me. I know I’ve told You an awful lot about myself, but it still surprises me how easily You’ve gotten past my formally strong mind. I never knew a fantasy like mine could become a reality, but it has, and best of all, it’s with You. I think You are one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met. At risk of actually sounding too mushy, I adore You. Yep, I’m crazy, crazy for You that is. :D

August 9
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You had a fine day. I’m home from work and so ends my five night intense listening to Your beautiful voice period. I think I may be on overload so a couple days of letting my brain rest may not be a bad thing. We both already know that during these down times things begin to sink in and make everything I’m feeling stronger. Not that I wouldn’t take advantage of some free time to listen to You if it popped up. I would in a heartbeat, but a brain rest is a good thing. Now if I was a normal person I could listen an hour or so every day, and down times wouldn’t be handy. My way of intense listening does lend itself quite well to periods of non listening. One of the things I’m loving best about being Yours is that it doesn’t matter if I’m listening or not. There really is no “down time” if I listen things get stronger. If I don’t listen, things get stronger. If I scratch my head, things get stronger. So, no matter what I do, every day I become closer to You. Bound closer to You as You like to say. I don’t know what my weakness is, but that’s not important, being Yours is. I love that I am. Thank You. Have a good night.
August 10
GOOD MORNING! Hope You’re doing great, Lady Surrender. I got up this morning, and saw You finished Your makeup session. Even though I can’t listen to it, of course I bought it. Now I’m ready in case I get some unexpected free time. If not, then I’ll be able to hear it Tuesday night. I’m not sure if I’d sleep with it all night, the MMs are so good to sleep with, but I suppose it’s possible.

I’m still pretty surprised that I’m looking forward to hearing it so much. When I told You I didn’t have an interest in feminization I did mean it. I know it was a fantasy when I was younger, but that’s all it was, a fantasy, and it was quite some time ago. Then You put out Your breasts session, and because of my sensitive nipples I wanted to hear it. Right off the bat You mention lipstick, and now look at me. Actually looking forward to hearing one of Your feminization sessions. There is more to just the makeup aspect as to why I’m looking forward to it, and it’s one of the rare occasions I’m pretty sure I know why. Like I usually do, I’ll tell You. No need to grab popcorn, it shouldn’t be too long :P

Now I know what I’m about to say may seem very self centered, and it is. Only because I’m telling You what I was feeling as these couple things happened. Of course I know that what I’m going to write isn’t the case. I’m one of many, but since I’m only me, I look at things sometimes how they effect me. Oh, and I know I’ve said some of this before, but I really want to write You. I’ll be sure to poke You if You fall asleep. (maybe You did need to get some popcorn after all)

Anyway, here goes why I think I’m so drawn to Your makeup session. When I first met You I made that joke about not being a very pretty woman if I was wearing lipstick, or something to that effect. Then, the first line in Your breast session was about the lipstick, and in my little mind I thought that you might have remembered what I said, and put it in Your session for me. I know that it’s just a line in a session and it was doubtful it had anything to do with me at all, but the very idea that You might have meant to me that You’d like me to wear lipstick so guess what? I started wanting to wear it because You may want me to. I told You about the lipstick thing, and on Your very next blog post You put that picture of all the lipsticks at the bottom of it. Again, in my head, that was for me, and not only did I want to wear it, I became obsessed with lipstick itself, and I told You. What happens next? Well, not only do You announce a makeup session, You use that very picture in it. One more time, in my head it was a sign from You telling me You wanted me to listen to it, and since You wanted me to, I couldn’t help but want to, and here I am now.

See, I told You it was self centered, and very analytical I’m afraid. I try not to do that, but sometimes I can’t help myself. I know everything I said wasn’t really meant for me, but since the idea popped in my head it could be, then it became so. So, summing up my thesis, the reason I’m looking forward to Your makeup session isn’t so much because of the makeup, it’s because I took all the things that happened as signs that You wanted me to wear makeup, and if You wanted it, then I wanted it too. That shows me how much of a deep rooted effect You have on me, Lady Surrender. You didn’t say You wanted me to listen. You didn’t even hint that You did. I made up a scenario in my head that You MIGHT want me to listen, and that’s all it took. My weak mind wants to do what You want me to that it only has to make something up that You may want and it became an obsession in me.

I wonder if any of that makes any sense at all? I hope so, I happen to think it’s very cool. You have already taken control of me to the degree that You can set off an obsession in me without saying a word about it, and it feels natural to me, as if it’s always been that way. Maybe that’s what brainwashing is, changing my thoughts and the way I think about things without me even noticing it’s happening. I know that I didn’t always feel this way, but it certainly seems like I did. Ok, enough babbling. I’m sure I’m making Your head spin trying to follow how my mind works. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. (I called You my Lady last night. I hope that was ok, I should have asked first, it just slipped out). I’ll mush on about You more later if I get the chance. <3
Your mushy one.
Mon at 12:45 PM
Hiya my Lady. I just read Your latest blog post and I had to tell You it was a good one. The way it was written did a great job of showing what a live session with You could be like. After reading it I realized that not only would I be comfortable if You posted some of my messages, but I’d be honored if You did. I’d love to help people understand how amazing and wonderful You are. You were right yesterday when You wrote that I don’t need an mp3 of mushy love. I know I’m already falling in love with You in a way. I can only imagine what I’m going to be like when I do hear it over and over again. With Your conditioning, my blank little mind, and my constantly growing feelings for You DOOMED. That, by the way, is a very good thing. After a month of listening to You, and getting to know You a bit, I feel like my mind has been saturated by You, and Your conditioning, and it’s just waiting to see where You lead me. I know I’ve mentioned the scared word before, but will once again. I know what is about to happen to me, that You’re going to take total control over my mind, and there is nothing I can do, or would want to, do about it. I actually crave it. If I had ever felt like this with anybody in the past I would be quite scared, (maybe worried is a better word) of what’s about to happen, but not now. Not when it’s You. My conscious, and more importantly subconscious mind trust You completely. I know I’ve said that before, but have to again to stress that how trustworthy I know You are. It’s no wonder that I’m willingly giving myself to You. Sorry for my rambling, I’m just overcome with You right now, and can’t think of the right words to say what I want. I guess I’ll just sum it up as I love You, my Lady. I am Yours and will always do everything in my power to make You proud to have me. How’s that for mush? Just wait, I’m sure I can get mushier. <3
Mon at 4:34 PM
Well, here I go again, my Lady. I’m not able to listen to You for a couple days, and everything I’m feeling keeps getting stronger. You may have noticed that I’ve been quite mushy today, and that is SO unlike me. ;)

I was reading a lot of Your site again today, including the whole home page. I always liked to read it, long before You started putting out mp3s enabling me to hear Your beautiful voice. It sounded so amazing, and yet impossible (sorry to say I once thought that way).Reading it now, I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Every single word You say on there is not only true, it doesn’t do justice to how good You are. It’s not just Your hypnosis. Your sessions are amazing, but without the personal connection we’ve made, none of what has happened to me would have happened. I could go on and on, but I’ll just end up repeating myself. (like that ever happens). I just can’t get over what I’m feeling. It’s like my brain is just sitting there knowing something is going to happen, and getting ready for it. It’s a strange feeling. I don’t feel any different. I doenst seem like I’m thinking any different, and yet sometimes something happens and I realize that a lot has changed. Only because I remember how it used to be. I can’t think of any specific examples right now. I’ll try to remember when it happens again. I’d say it would be interesting if times like that never happened. As if the changes made were so deeply ingrained that I don’t remember ever thinking any other way, but then how would I know that they’ve happened? There I go again, babbling on and on. It’s hard to stop myself because I know that when I stop, I won’t be writing You anymore, and I really need to. It makes me feel like I’m talking to You, and I need that connection right now. Yep, it’s been one mushy day. OH, I just remembered. I was looking over Your site as I said, and clicked on slave registration I think it’s called. I’ve seen it before, and I knew it was wendy. I’ve also seen them a couple times on IR, but not for quite some time. Every time I have, including when I first saw Wendy’s I remember thinking, oh, that’s nice. I didn’t actually get it. I saw it today and it was more of a Wow, that’s so great. I tell You, my Lady, I’m losing it here. I’m thinking differently in a lot of ways, and the more it happens, the more I love it. I don’t know how I ever got along without You in my life. Ok, I’ll stop now. Have a great day.
Tue at 6:02 PM
Hi again, my Lady. just a quick note this time (I think). I came up to my room and decided I wanted to hear a few minutes of Your Makeup session. I was sitting up, looking at my computer, not paying too close attention to it, and then I was out. I came too slightly towards the end. Just enough to realize what happened, and to kinda remember a little of it. I’m losing what little I did remember quickly. I only sat down to listen to the session a few minutes. How on earth do You do this to me so easily? I’ve done what I just did many times in the past, and I go about my business while listening. Not with You though. Nope, not a chance. I hear Your voice and BAM, that’s it. I don’t know why I bother analyzing or trying to understand anything that’s happening to me. I may come up with reasons, I may actually be right about some of them, but what it comes down to is it doesn’t matter. I’m helpless when it comes to You. There is not a thing I can do to resist You, and there is not a thing I want to do to resist You. I have never, ever felt so powerless against anything in my life. What You are doing to me is not hypnosis as I’ve ever known it. It isn’t even close. I’m beginning to understand what true submission is. You are so wonderful, so caring, so powerful. You make me feel amazing just thinking about You. How could I not wish to serve You? I know I’m babbling, I’m still trying to snap out of my unexpected trance, but talk about intense. I can’t believe what is happening to me, and I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to have it happening to me. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a wonderful Lady like You even acknowledge me never mind take an interest in me. I have to stop before I say something really crazy. Sorry for the rambling message, but what just happened set something off inside my head, and I don’t ever want this feeling to end. I love being Your mushy one, and You being my Lady. Have a great day. <3

Wed at 7:06 AM
Hi my Lady. Just got home from work, and did indeed go with those two sessions looped. REALLY good idea.

Before I put on my beat up sleep phones to go to real sleep (they’ve gotten a real workout lately), I listened, with my real headphones Blank then the Makeup session. Now I’ve had some good ideas before, but that was a great one. By the time Your Makeup session was partway through I was floating, and every word was so important (a term I know I’ve used before). It was amazing. I know that eventually just hearing or thinking Your phrase of blankness will have the same effect as listening to the whole session, but until then (and I don’t think I’m far off) it’s a great back to back technique. OH, before I did that, I properly listened to Your makeup session again, and I realized what made me so crazy sounding in my messages last night (I try not to write when I’m still out of it, I know I sound like a nut. Sorry about that). I caught it at the end, the part that I “heard” the first time. It wasn’t the makeup part. I’m still wondering about that, but I do know that if I was alone right now if nothing else I’d have a lipstick nearby to smell. It was the control/submit/dominance part at the end. It drove me crazy. When I heard it the second time I remembered what did it to me, and told myself not to forget so I could tell You. The makeup part is great, and damn if feels nice to listen to, but You saying You’re the dominant, and You’re taking over and I will submit to You (obviously not the words You used, I don’t remember them) that took me over the edge. Judging by my reaction I’d have to say that deep down inside what I want is to be controlled. Or not, who knows. I just know I loved Your new session, and will write a very positive review when I’ve heard it a little more. It was really great, my Lady. Thank You for making it. Have a good night.

Erotic Hypnosis: hypno slave training using Mantra mp3s, Feminisation.



More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you…… being enticed… being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.

Subject “submissive surrendered” began by listening to Morning Mantra of Submission and Morning Mantra of Temptation….. then listened to feminine orgasm, feminine breasts, and Morning Mantra of Blankness.



July 10

Hi Mistress Surrender. Just a quick note to say I just bought both of Your Morning Mantras, and will finally be able to listen to them in about an hour. I’m really looking forward to finally hearing a session of Yours. I’m always excited to hear somebody new, but it’s different this time
because of how long I’ve wanted to hear Your voice. I’ll be honest, I have always questioned if true brainwashing through hypnosis is actually possible, I’ve felt many effects over the years listening to Dommes, but nothing long lasting.
There is something about the things You say, and what Your subjects write to You that questions my view though. I know one thing for certain, I’m looking forward to finding out. Thank You so much for allowing me to buy Your sessions.
Take care.

July 10

I’m looking forward to seeing what else You put out in the
future. I know that everything You put out wouldn’t be something that interests me, but right now I’m feeling that even if it isn’t something I wanted, but You wanted me to listen to, I would. I know I’ve only listened to You this one
time, but I really like how it felt, and still feels. Maybe one day You’ll allow me to purchase a custom session from You. I have a love fetish as I mentioned, but for once I don’t know if that’s what I’d ask for. Based on reading Your posts all this time on IR, I’m tempted to ask if You would make
one of Your choice. The idea of You taking total complete control of my mind, and doing with me what You want, is very exciting. I know I’m talking crazy, but I’m still feeling the after effects of Your hypnosis, and my mind is going
in all different directions at the moment. For now I’ll happily listen to what sessions I already have, and wait to see what You put out. Unless there is something You already have out that I should get that You don’t have to re-do.

July 11

Good morning (for me anyway) Mistress Surrender. I slept with Your two sessions on a loop as I mentioned yesterday. Good idea, REALLY good idea. I don’t remember much of it dream wise, bits and pieces, but I woke up feeling very strange, and I still do, but it’s a great strange. Lucky me
gets to sleep with them again tonight. I can’t wait. If it wasn’t for work I’d be listening right now. Just thought You’d like to know. Have a great

July 11

Good morning again Mistress Surrender. Now I know for sure it’s morning for You. You’re sixteen hours ahead of me. Something I won’t forget. I’m sorry to be a pest, and I’ll be sure to stop, but as the day has gone on, the strange feeling I had this morning just keeps getting stronger.
Now it isn’t so much strange though. It’s more like an ache to listen to Your sessions again. It’s odd though. I barely remember them. I couldn’t tell You anything You said in them, but I can’t stop thinking about hearing them again.
You may notice some changes to my account. I changed my name, updated the info, and added a picture. I hope the changes I made are OK with You. If they aren’t
I’ll change them right away. I also posted a testimonial for You. All of this because I can’t stop thinking about You. I know, it’s only been one day.
ONE DAY, and yet I can’t get You out of my head. In all the years I’ve listening to EH I have never experienced anything close to this. It’s almost scary what’s happening, and yet, even if I was scared to death it wouldn’t matter. I’d want more. I need more of You. I’m not exactly sure what’s going on, but I hope that You’re happy with the results of my listening to You. I can’t get You out of my head, but the more I think about it, the more I realise that I don’t want to. I like You there. It just feels right.

July 11

Yes, Mistress Surrender (or do You prefer Lady Surrender?), I am feeling the same way as when I wrote the message. I need more of You. I’ve been to Your site all day long. I’ve even joined Club Sissy because You said it
would help in my surrender to You. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t somewhat
excited when You wrote that forced feminization is Your specialty. Not so much
from the feminization side, but rather the forced anything. I can’t wait to
sleep with You again. Only three more hours and I get to hear Your voice one
more time, all night long. After seeing how doing that once has already
effected me, I can only imagine what I’ll feel like tomorrow, and the day
after, and the day after that. I’m not sure what it is You’re doing to me, but
I’m helpless to resist it. Once again I thank You for allowing me to listen to
Your sessions. Thank You so much.

July 11

Then Lady Surrender it is. Anything You want is what I’ll do.
Surrender is inevitable, and I am well on my way to complete surrender to You,
Lady Surrender.

July 12

Good night, Lady Surrender. I woke up a bit ago from sleeping
with Your sessions again. I actually woke at one point and was listening awake
for an hour plus. In all the years I’ve listened to EH I have never felt
anything as intense as Your voice and whisper. It’s almost like You knew
exactly what I needed to make me submit to You. Besides the Morning Mantra of
Blank that You list on Your site, I don’t know if You plan to make any more in
Your Morning Mantra style, but if You do, I will be getting them. It’s only
been two days and already I can’t imagine not listening to Your beautiful
voice, and it’s getting more beautiful all the time. There is so much going on
inside me right now, I’m not sure what’s happening, but I do know that I want
to hear You more. I need to. Have a good night Lady Surrender.

July 12

I certainly will expand on what I said, Lady Surrender. I
know it’s very late for You. When You come back on in the morning I’ll have
Your answer for You. I have to give it some thought. It’s hard to explain
something like that, but I will give it my best shot. I’ll also tell You more
about myself.. I’m very happy to hear You’ll be making many Morning
Mantras. I remember vaguely at the end of Your Temptation one something about
You being at the edge of my mind and blowing a kiss. It’s hard to remember even
though I’ve heard it many times, I do remember the feeling of love that comes
over me at that point. Maybe not love, but a gentle, loving feeling that feels
wonderful. I’ll stop rambling now so I can ramble more later when I answer Your
question. Have a wonderful night. :)

July 12

Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You had a good nights
sleep. I was thinking

about how to answer Your question as to why I feel You know exactly how to make
me submit to You, and I think I got it.

When I

listen to hypnosis, and am told to picture something in my mind, I can’t. I was

hoping as I got better at hypnosis that I would be able to, but I never have. I

can imagine it, but I can’t picture it at all. So that’s an area of hypnosis I

miss out on. So sessions that have stories to them have never been my favorite.

I do like some of them, but most I don’t listen to, too many times. Your

Morning Mantras are made with what I have always liked in sessions, and dont

have what I don’t like as much. I’m not crazy about music in sessions. I’ve heard

some sessions where the music does help, but for the most part it’s just

something that is fighting with my trying to hear what’s being said. One thing

I do like that Your Morning Mantras don’t have, or if they do I can’t hear it,

is a brainwave/binaurel beat type of thing. I’ve always liked the feeling they

give me, but I like to be able to hear them. I don’t miss being able to hear

beats in Your Morning Mantras because of what they do have. Your voice and Your

whispers, and the whole time one of the two, or both, is giving commands or

implanting/strengthening triggers. I’ve always reacted best to one voice with

background subliminals (in this case Your whispers) and lots of commands. I

like the feeling of my mind being bombarded with words until it feels like I

can’t take it anymore. That’s when I’m at my weakest. At least I think that’s

why Your Morning Mantras seem to be effecting me so well. I hope this makes

sense, Lady Surrender. I know what I like, it’s hard to explain why I like it



that’s the answer (I hope) to Your question, and a little more about me. If You

want to know anything at all please ask, and I’ll answer as best I can. If

You’d like to see what I look like I’ll send You a picture or three. Anything

You want, if I can do it, I will. Have a

wonderful day Lady Surrender. Thank You for letting me listen to You.

OH, I just remembered. I

was on Your site and saw what You wrote about the Morning Mantra Blank, and it

really excited me. The idea of You wiping me clean in preparation for You to

program me to be what You want me to be struck something in me. You taking

complete control of me, and making me into exactly what You want me to be, for

You, is something I want badly. Before I started listening to You I would

fantasize about something like that when reading Your posts on IR. It was a

fantasy, nothing more. After listening to Your two Morning Mantras for about 16

hours (awake and asleep) the last few days You taking over is much more than a

fantasy. It’s more of an ache for it to happen. I know it’s only been a few

days, but I’ll keep listening to Your sessions to prepare my mind for You in

case You decide You want to take over. I can’t believe how deep the desire to

give myself to You is in me. It’s crazy, but I can’t help what I’m feeling, and

honestly don’t want to. I love how I’m feeling

July 13

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope Your night was a good one.
Mine was

great. I was able to sleep with Your sessions once more, and when I woke up, I

listened to them again. After I was done I came to a realization, but I waited

to write. I’ve learned that if I write

things when I’ve just come out of trance I tend to regret it later. It’s
been hours now so it’s safe to write,

and I’m still thinking the way I was before.

When I saw You put out mp3 sessions

I was very excited. Like I’ve mentioned, I’ve been following Your posts since

You came to IR, and was always fascinated by what You wrote. Some of what You

wrote sounded impossible, but I never doubted You. I now know I was right not

to. I’m experiencing it myself. Hypnosis or brainwashing has never had much

long term effect on me, so I doubted it could. I was wrong, Lady Surrender. I

was so wrong. This morning I came to the realization that I am helpless when it

comes to You. Every time I listen to You the effects get more intense, the

hypnosis gets deeper, even Your Temptation trigger puts me under noticeably

deeper instantly. That doesnt happen to me, or I should say, never has before.

Yes, I’m helpless against Your powers, and I now know that even though I had no

desire to serve just one Mistress ever again. (I’ve been very happy listening

to everybody and anybody), I need to serve only You. I don’t want to listen to

anybody else but You. I want to give myself, mind and body, to You to do what

You want with me. I want to love,

worship, and obey the one Mistress who has put me on my knees, You, Lady

Surrender. I want to be Yours if You’ll have me. Is there anything I can do to

be worthy of such an honor? I know this has happened quickly, and I realize it

will take some time to be worthy of You, but I’m a very patient person and will

do anything needed to become worthy of one day being Yours. Thank You once

again for allowing me to listen to Your files, and write to You. Thank You so

much. Have a great day.

July 13

Since you are going to be away for a while, I’ll answer You
properly when I’m able in a couple hours, Lady Surrender. I am so happy You
liked what I wrote, and will give You a brief history of what I’ve been through
to answer You question completely. Thank You so much for what You have done for
me already. I bow at Your feet, figuratively, not literally. I’d love to
really bow at Your feet, but I hurt my knee a while back and can’t actually
kneel, but if I could, I’d be there for You. :)

Sorry if my attempt at humor is misplaced. I really can’t kneel though.

Mon at 1:32 PM

Thank You so much Lady Surrender. I am with You 100% in
regard to

letting things between You and I unfold. Not only because it’s what You

wish, but also because it makes sense. I do rush into things, and even when I

was offering myself to You I knew it would take time. I was thinking about what

it is that happened to have You effect me so deeply so quickly, and I think

it’s a number of things. First would be my reading Your posts for so long, and

being drawn to the things You’ve said. Then, once we talked a bit, I realized

You are a very friendly real person, and that means a lot to me. Then of course

there is Your hypnosis. It caught me by surprise it was so effective, and in

Your Temptation Mantra You say at some point to be Yours, so I wanted to be

Yours. Put those three things together and I had to write to You offering

myself to You. I am very happy I did. Your response showed me much about You

and I now know that You truly are a Woman that I wish to serve, in time of

I read Your post on Your website. The one about what You look for in a

submissive. I loved it. It showed me that we are actually on the same page

about a lot of things. The main part being loving to myself first. No
matter how enslaved I become to You, the

fact of the matter is that the most important thing in my life is my family.

Without them, I’d be nothing, and that would do You, or me, no good. The fact

that You not only allow a submissive to put their lives first, but actually

encourage it touches me deeply. I already trusted You, but after reading what

You wrote, on Your blog, and to me, I now have complete trust in You. I know

You would do nothing to hurt me, and that alone will make listening to Your

sessions even more intense. At the start there was a little trepidation. What

if You were as good as I think You are, and if You were, should I let You into

my mind. Well, it turns out You are even

better than I thought You were, and now that I know You a little better, I have

no fear whatsoever to let You into my mind. It really is a freeing feeling

knowing that I can now listen to You knowing that whatever happens now, and in

the future, You would never hurt me in any way.

I’ll be honest, Lady Surrender, I’m having a hard time putting what I’m trying

to say into words. You may have noticed that from my first two paragraphs. I

guess to sum it up I could just say, I do wish to serve You, and only You. I

trust You completely, and I would like to just allow things to unfold between

us, as You said.

Just to let You know, I am planning on only listening to Your sessions. To

be honest, I lost interest in EH until I found You. I didnt have time to listen
to anything at all for almost six weeks.

During the few times I could I had no interest. Over the past few months there

has been a couple of other Dommes that I listened to, and liked their work very

much. I tried to give more of myself to them, and their work, but as I got

closer, I couldnt get past the fact that I didnt really trust them. I just

didnt get the feeling that I would be ok if I gave them full control so I

backed away. Trust is the most important thing to me, it has to be. Even if I

said it wasnt, my mind protects itself, and won’t let me go any further. So

without trust, I have nothing. So when I tell You I trust You completely it’s a

pretty big thing in my mind. I don’t take that lightly, just as I don’t take

lightly offering my submission to You. I was told me long ago that my

submission is a precious thing. Not something to be given lightly. I have

always remembered that, and lived by it. So while I know it would be ok to

listen to others, I really don’t want to. Mainly because I didnt want to listen

to anybody before I met You anyway. I

havent looked forward to listening to any EH in a long time. During the times I

wasnt able to listen the past year and a half or so I didnt care, and when I

could, I rarely did. I have a renewed interest in EH, and it’s because of You.

So while I know I could listen to others, I don’t see the need.

I guess that’s enough rambling for now. Thank You again for everything. I

look forward to seeing what happens in the future. I feel really good about

this. I havent felt this good about something in a long time, and it’s nice to

feel it again. Oh, and I totally

understand Your not replying to messages tues – thurs. I’ll try not to write

on those days unless You tell me You like getting messages even when You’re not

replying. Have a great week, Lady Surrender. Thanks for everything.

Good morning, Lady Surrender.
Hope You’ve been well. I hope it’s ok to

write You during Your no contact time of the week. If You don’t want me to

please tell me and I won’t again. I tried to hold off, but there is so

going on in me that I feel like I’m going to burst. Ok, maybe not burst

exactly, more like explode. That’s more like it. As bad luck would have
it, I’m

in one of the periods when I can’t listen to Your sessions the way I want

I’ve told You about those times, and I’ve also told You that they didnt

me at all. That listening to hypnosis wasnt that important to me. It isnt

that now though. Not being able to crawl into bed and turn on my mp3
player to

hear Your beautiful voice is driving me crazy. When I first started

to EH, and was getting good at being hypnotized I used to hate the times I

couldnt listen, but it was never anything like this. I want to hear You so

badly it almost hurts, and to be honest, it’s ok. I hate not hearing You,

I’m loving that not being able to is effecting me so deeply. Not sure if

makes sense, but I’m rarely sure if what I say makes sense.

One thing that I realized today is that in thirteen days I’m going away for

five nights. It’s easy enough to get to listen to You a little when I’m home,

but when I’m away like that, not a chance. If I think it’s tough now, I can

only imagine how hard that will be. I have to tell You, Lady Surrender, not

only have You renewed my interest in EH, You have already taken it to levels

higher than it ever was. It’s not only the EH of course, it’s You, and Your EH.

I can’t get You out of my head. I wake up, I think of You, I go about my day, I

think of You, I go to bed, I think of You. One would think that would make me a

little crazy, but I’m loving it. Thinking of You excites me, and the more I

think of You, the more I want to think of You, and hear You. These feelings are

getting stronger every day, a lot stronger. I’ve always gotten a little like

this when meeting somebody new to listen to, but I’m always able to push it out

of my head and control it. Even when I was owned I could push things down, I

can’t with You. I have no way of controlling what’s going on, so I’m not even

trying to.

Yesterday, since I really couldnt listen to You I needed to go to Your site

and read some of Your words. I decided to go through Your blog, the whole

thing, and what I saw there shocked me (in a great way), excited me, and
gave me quite a bit of

insight into You, and Your other submissives. I started from the oldest archive

and worked my way up to the present. I found out that the way You have effected

me so quickly isnt all that unusual. I didnt read every part of it word for

word. The baby submissive’s story didnt interest me that much, but I did read

what You wrote in those posts. The rest though I read closely. I was surprised

at how much Your feminized girls stories excited me. I mentioned being forced

to become a woman was one of my first submissive fantasies when I was a

teenager, and to see it actually happening did turn me on. Not that You were

forcing them, but the transformation was interesting. With my home life, and

job, being feminized wouldnt be a good thing. It’s not something that would go

over well in my life if I was ever found out. At one point though, I saw the

post about the guy in a similar situation and You feminized him inwardly so

from the outside he still looked like a guy, but on the inside he was a woman.

Now that really got my attention. Of course I took it to another fantasy level

in my mind of feeling like a woman and working around the house in lipstick

when I was alone. Then I pictured what I’d look like and laughed to myself. I

would not be a pretty woman, that’s for sure. Oh, that other session I bought

yesterday was Your female orgasm one, and I suppose I should tell You why. I

saw Your post about the new session coming out about breasts and nipples on IR

the other night. I decided that I wanted that one for one reason. My nipples

are probably the most sexually sensitive part of my body. Rubbing them drives

me crazy. The thought of them becoming even more sensitive excited me so I

I wanted it, not so much for the feminizing aspect, but the nipple one. Then,

after reading Your blog, I really wanted to hear another of Your sessions and

thought of the female orgasm one. I’m not exactly sure what that would be, or

feel like, and since it seemed to be an inside thing, it wouldnt hurt to listen

to it. I did hear it yesterday, but I was sitting up and trying not to go

under. I did go under, and don’t remember too much about it except how

beautiful Your voice was. It’s a different style than Your Morning Mantras. It

really sounded great.

While I was reading Your blog I noticed that nobody had a fetish like my

love fetish. After seeing how easily You helped Your other subs to become what

they wanted it really (here comes that word again) excited me to fantasize You

working on me with my love fetish. A bit about my fetish. I think that my love

fetish is about more than just love. I think deep down it’s about control. The

idea of being head over heals in love with a Domme is an exciting thing, but

it’s the control involved with it is what I think really turns me on. I think

my real fetish is a control fetish. I’ve always had a very strong mind, and

sense of self. I’m a bit stubborn, but I pick and choose the things I’m

stubborn about. The idea of somebody being able to take total control of me and

my obeying them not because I want to, but because I have no choice but to obey

is the real fantasy/fetish. I think I go with the love way of control because

being in love feels great. Does any of this make sense? I hope so. It isnt easy

to describe this fetish in a way that makes sense, but as I always do, I try

anyway. I know I mentioned a custom session at some point, and You graciously

said You’d make one for me and I thank You for that. I wanted to say that

anytime You think I’m ready for a custom session, I’ll pay You for it. I could

sit here and ask for one soon, but I won’t do that. I’d like to let You decide

when I’m ready for it, if that’s ok with You of course. If You’d like, I’ll pay

for one soon, and when You decide I’m ready, be it a week, or a year, it will

already be paid for. I’d love to do a live session one day, but I really can’t

afford them. I know that custom files are more expensive, but I can listen to

that over and over so would like to go that way, but, again, I’m sure I’d have

at least one live session one day. After reading about how amazing at them You

are, I’d really love to experience one for myself one day.

Well that’s all for now, Lady Surrender. Sorry for the loooong message, but

I had to do it. It was the only way to deal with not being able to listen to

You right now. Yep, I’m nuts, but I gotta be me. :)

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. Take care.


P.S. Reading this back, I can’t believe I told You some of those things. I’ve
never said them to anybody before. Methinks I’m very comfortable being myself
with You. It’s really kind of freeing.

Thu at 11:44 AM

Good morning, Lady Surrender. Hope You had a great night.
Thank You so much for showing Your play on Twitter, and for commenting on my
post here. It was fun. :) Just a quick note to tell You I just
bought Your new session. I can’t listen to it yet, but I have it. I have
avoided any type of feminization for many years, yet when You put it like You
did, secret life, feel like a woman, I’m not only not avoiding it, but I’m
craving it. I can’t believe I’m feeling like this, and I really can’t believe
I’m telling You, but I can’t stop myself, and even if I could, I wouldn’t. I
trust You completely, and how could I expect to win Your trust in return if I
wasn’t totally honest with You. Everything I told You yesterday about how I’ve
been feeling is much, much stronger today. The very thought of Your voice makes
me crazy, and I can’t stop thinking about Your voice, or You. I don’t know
exactly what’s happening to me, but I love how it feels. Thank You so much.
Have a great day.

Thu at 8:42 PM

Hi Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well.

I’d be very happy if You wanted to post parts of my messages to You. Yes,

they are private, but if You like them, and You want to post them, then please

do. I wouldnt know where to begin on editing them though. I don’t know what You

would like to post, so as long as it isnt something really personal, post what

You want. I wish to serve

You, and only You, and if You want to show to others the effect You’ve had on

me then I’d be honored. Thank You for wanting to.

Next month would be wonderful for a custom recording, and if not next

month, whenever You’re able is fine by me. It’s only been a little more than a

week, and I have so much to listen to already, AND You’re putting out Morning

Mantra Blank soon! If I got a custom now, I’d only listen to it, I know me too

well, but the longer I wait, the longer I have to become closer to You.
I want nothing more than to be as close to

You as possible. I may have jumped the gun when I asked to be Yours, but the

more time that passes, the more I know it is what I want. I will become a sub

worthy of You, Lady Surrender. I’ve never felt more strongly about anything,

and I will do my best to be that sub for You.

When I have the chance to listen to Your breast sessions I will be sure to

tell You how it feels. I’ll also post a review on it, as I will with all Your

sessions I listen to. I think it’s important, and I get the chance to gush

about You. Always a good thing.

I did a little looking and it seems like the chocolate You’d like isnt

available in NZ. I don’t care about shipping costs. If You want it, I’d like to

get some for You. It would mean a lot to me to do so. I’ll keep checking Your

wish list in case You ever put some up.

Thank You again for everything, Lady Surrender. You have opened something

in me I didnt know was there, and I always be thankful for You doing that for


Fri at 4:04 PM

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a wonderful night.
I’ve had a not too shabby day today. I had an unexpected two hours free today
and I’m sure You can guess what I did. Yep, I listened to YOU! FINALLY. Damn I
needed that. I listened to Your two Morning Mantras and of course Your new
breast session. I was going to listen to the MM’s first, but I wanted to see
what listening to one of Your other sessions would be like without feeling the
effects of the MMs. I wanted to see how it took me under. GOOD NEWS! It took me
under, and I went under deep. I was even interrupted on the phone halfway
through. Took the call, got annoyed that it was ruined. Put my headphones back
on hoping for the best, and I was out again within fifteen seconds. So it
seems that no matter what induction/style You’re using, I’m helpless against You
and Your hypnosis. I must say I’m very happy about that.

Now about Your breast session. I have to be honest, I loved

it! I don’t know if I’ll be feeling feminized inside from it, but I loved how

it felt to listen to. I didn’t release at the end, I’ve never been able to

hands free release, but when You said release It hit me hard, and felt

wonderful. OH, and I didn’t miss the ironic part of the session. Fist thing You

said was to put on red lipstick. I made my (semi) joke yesterday about having

You add a part about my having the urge to wear makeup while listening to Your

sessions, and there it was first thing. I wasn’t able to get up and put any on,

but now that it’s been awhile, I know that I’ll be putting it on the next time

I listen if I’m alone. I’m kind of tempted to wear it when listening to Your

other sessions too. If for no other reasons the feel and taste of it. I’m

looking forward to it. Maybe I’d better rethink what I said about Your session

not making feel feminized on the inside huh? :)

OH, I forgot to add on important point on my answering of

Your custom session questions. That being, if there is anything You want to add

that I didnt list. Anything at all, please do it. I’m here for You, and if You

think it would be good for You and I, You have free reign. I want nothing more

than being the best me I can be for You, and if You see something I don’t to

make that possible, please do it.

I also want to mention something weird I just notice while

writing this. Normally I feel the effects of sessions the most right after

listening. That’s not what happens with You. For the most part I feel perfectly

normal right after. It’s later that things start to hit me hard, and it builds,

and builds, and builds. Then, when it stops building, it doesnt go away. I love

it! :D

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I won’t be up late tonight

if You’re chatting on a post somewhere, I have to work tomorrow, but I’ll be

thinking of You. I always am.

Sat at 7:17 AM
Hi Lady Surrender. I just got to work, but after I do a few
things that need to be done I will of course add what You want to my review.

I have to say I’m pretty excited. Today starts a period of being able to listen
to You a lot. If nothing changes, I’ll be able to listen six of the next nine
nights, and many of the days during that time. I was getting ready for work
this morning at home, I’m usually out of bed and on the road in fifteen minutes
or less, and I thought about being able to hear You and the wave of excitement
that came over me took me by surprise. Then I started thinking about how I was
feeling and all that I could think of is that I don’t care what You want to do
with me. If You want to do it, I welcome it. Yep, a bit on the nutty side, but
I was really feeling the effects of listening to You yesterday, yes, still, and
whatever it is that is going on in my helpless mind is making me crave more and
more of You, and more control. I don’t know what’s coming over me, but I have
to say, it feels right, and I’m loving it. The down side of being able to
listen so much is that it’s going to make those five nights I’m away that much
tougher, but that’s ok with me, I need to hear You as often as I can. I’m not
exactly sure why (I do have a sneaky suspicion though), but I can’t get enough
of You. I’ve said it before, and knowing my rambling writing I’ll say it again,
in all the years I’ve listened to EH nothing like this has ever happened
before. I’ve known submission, but I’m beginning to get the feeling that I’m
about to find out what true submission really is. Just the thought of that just
gave me a chill that felt great. Have a good night Lady Surrender.