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Erotic Hypnosis: brainwashing + feminisation. Journal 2

The following emails were received from subject “cm”, who recently messaged with an interest in My “Addiction to Makeup” mp3. I have recommended he begin his conditioning under My control with My “Morning Mantra of Blankness”. he writes that he is envious of submissive m’s experience in Live Session number 2 (see http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-multiple-orgasms-amnesia-regression-sexual-arousal-level/), and wants to know how he should prepare his mind further for a Live Session. I anticipate… some more…splaying his mind open for some…gentle conditioning….. before a Live Session.

 See http://www.hypnosurrender.com/home/mp3-recordings/ for reviews of My brainwashing file, Morning Mantra of Blankness which combines Erotic ASMR/voice.

Subject “cm” writes that he appreciates a long induction. As a hypnotherapist, I love using long inductions…. time to properly…explore that mind…. condition the mind…. entice…seduce… entrance….

Begin the whole delicious process towards…Entrancement…Entrapment….Enslavement….

 

 

1/9/14

Dearest “Mistress Commands”,
See: THIS is why i called You “Mistress” the other day, on Your chat page with “submissive” – but You scolded me and said not to call You that! i am confused… i will just obey, however: no need to explain.
Mantra knocks my socks off so bad that i have’t even graduated on to the one You see below from this letter (Addicted to Make-up mp3). Your style is singularly unique, and others certainly use repetition: ALL of them, if they are smart, but NOT the way You do: incessantly and mercilessly – until it amounts to brainwashing. Repetition is the simplest form of mind control, and You have demonstrated that multiple tracks and theta waves and subliminals, and NLP, and all the other effective and WONDERFUL accutriments of this art are… unneccesary when this power is wielded by the right hands… the right *lips* – and You have those beautiful, seductive, irresistible *lips*. You are… a very effective – and naughty – Hypno-Domme.
i will write this, and more, in a review for You of that Morning Mantra, if You would like. i have been terrified by the next selection (the Addicted to Make-up mp3), because it touches on a long time fetish of mine, one that is so powerful that i can’t even say the names of the cosmetics Women use out loud. i don’t fully understand that, but they are just too Feminine, too verbotin for me, a male, to know anything about. i am not to speak of them. Consequently; the sight of a Woman touching up Her makeup drives me mad with desire, and lipstick – which i am not comfortable even writing about – is the crown jewel of a Woman’s little bag of wiles and tricks for attracting, seducing, and drawing a man in for that deadly first kiss. THIS is the world ((i)) live in, where a cosmetics ad on TV is more powerful to my libido than a porn film. Makes it kind tough to stay undercover.
Now You are here, on the scene; a proven taker of mens minds, and i read the writeup You directed me to, where Your “breast” session led “submissive Surrendered” to become addicted to, obsessed with, fetish-level turned on by, and attracted to – a Woman’s lipstick. i am excited and terrified at the same time: a curiously DELICIOUS combination that leaves me breathing short, fast breaths, feeling high, sporting an erection – and fearful of where this is going. Lets face it: it is a very short hop between You feeding me the stuff of my fantasies, and feeding perhaps Your own: what YOU feel is best for me. i am not even going to continue or expound on that thought because now i am uncomfortable, yet still my cock is throbbing in my pajamas.
i know i am going to have to get on Skype and let You have Your evil ways with me. *L* i am joking about “evil”, but YOu know what i mean. i have to tell myself that, so i have plausible deniability that whatever happens from here was never actually my idea, or my idea alone. It was the Evil Female Hypnotist (EFH) that did it. SHE is the reason i… well: with You: i may not even remember WHAT i did, and either way: i will be powerless to resist once i let Your cooing, whispering mantras into my head to melt down my resistance, my conscious mind, then have at my unprotected inner self, reshaping and reformatting me to Your desires and tastes. Terrifying. When can we do it? *L* Seriously: i want to be maximum conditioned to You before i go there: i want You to have as fast and as deep an access possible to me in hypnosis to make this a fully effective – and devastating – session. Any advice?
PS: i am attaching a picture of myself so You can better envision he whom You enslave.
cm

1/9/24

i am so jealous of submissive m’s experience with You. i find myself wondering if i can go that deep for You: i have gone deep, total amnesia nearly daily, but never much really had to act out on anything – at least, not that i am AWARE of. His making baby sounds, being taken in and out of deep hypnosis, Your sexually exhausting him: Dear God, how hot! i have never given a hands-free session a try, but maybe i should master that before i do a Skype session with You? What can i do to be really, truly ready for You to have Your way with my mind, and take me to those incredible places only You can take me to? i am intensely excited by this.

cm

 

 

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Erotic Hypnosis: brainwashing & feminisation

The following emails were received from subject “cm”, who  recently messaged with an interest in My “Addiction to Makeup” mp3. I have recommended he begin his conditioning under My control with My “Morning Mantra of Blankness”. See http://www.hypnosurrender.com/home/mp3-recordings/ for reviews of My brainwashing file, Morning Mantra of Blankness which combines Erotic ASMR/voice.

Subject “cm” writes that he appreciates a long induction. As a hypnotherapist, I love using long inductions…. time to properly…explore that mind…. condition the mind…. entice…seduce… entrance….

Begin the whole delicious process towards…Entrancement…Entrapment….Enslavement….

16/8/14
Mistress,
Your Addicted to Makeup sounds like a real killer, and caught my… eye. Tell me: what would You have a new slave start with? i come pretrained, and i go deep, thanks to Nikki Fatale, who’s style i love. Your induction style sounds delicious and can’t help but take your subject all the way down to conscious disconnect. What would You say would be a good place to liquify my brain properly on You?
cm

 

submissive,

smiles….
I would recommend the Morning Mantra of Blankness as the place to acquire “tabula rasa”…… reviews are there on My web site as well as sensualmistress which is My on-line payment provider.
The Morning Mantras are being spoken of as “Art files”…. I use ASMR as well as spoken tracks for the Morning Mantras. The Morning Mantra of Blankness is also being used to clear the mind of trance remnants ….
I suggest you read the review from submissive m on the Morning Mantra of Temptation (My 2nd Morning Mantra file) as he records his experience of listening to My Erotic Hypnosis files, and his experience of being involved in EH for 20 years…..

in fact I will copy his review to here:

“How Lady Surrender restored my love for erotic hypnosis…

There have been many times in life where i have really begun questioning my love for trance. Many of us have different reasons we trance to hypnosis. Some of us for the eroticism of it. Some of us for the connection. Still others rely on hypnosis for meditation and a reset of the mind. My reasons for trancing have been many and varied throughout the years. I enjoy the loss of control. I love the feeling of helplessness. I want to keep going to that place in between sleep and awareness. My dream is to be conditioned by someone who really understands a submissives mindset. Someone who conditions so thoroughly I don’t even know what’s happening.

It’s just a dream however. This doesn’t happen in real life…. mcstories maybe, not in real life.

Then comes this file. Mantra of temptation. Suddenly everything I knew about erotic hypnosis has changed…

Everything.

If you listen to the sample for the file you may draw the same conclusion I did. What is this?? The vocals have 2 tracks that switch irregularly. Words seem to be repeated at random times. Whispers come in and out with no discernible pattern. The file does not even seem to have a standard induction. Most files I have tranced to have a dependable format that my brain seems to have gotten comfortable with. We all know the usual style… 10 minutes of inductions, 10 minutes of deepeners 10 minutes of teasing/orgasm. This file… throws the entire template away.

My first listen, I wondered if I was even in trance. The structure of this file was so different I didn’t quite grasp how my mind was changing.

Something was happening within me. Changing. At the time, I was oblivious.

The second listen, i was very buzzed after. Deliciously buzzed. Lady Surrender has a style that sneaks on you. Her words wrap themselves around your subconscious with the skill of a master hypnotist. She is a painter utilizing her words to create the most beautiful pieces of art. Make no mistake, this is a work of art. She is so skilled, it took multiple listens before my brain could catch up to how thoroughly the conditioning was working.

And it worked.

Why? Because this isn’t a fantasy file. This is not a file one listens to just for a quick fix and you’re done. This file is clearly written for the trancer looking for something different. Something non standard. A file rooted in real world conditioning knowledge.

What did i get myself into?!? I thought they were just sexy whispers…

6 listens so far and this session gets more tempting with each listen. Lady Surrenders words felt ALIVE. A sea of whispers surrounding me… drowning me with the temptation of surrender. This file has many layers. Multiple layers of complexity…Everytime I feel like I can grasp what is happening all it takes is a trigger word from Lady Surrender to melt me right out of logical thought. Right back into the arms of surrender.

I long for even more of Her words. More of Her control. More of Her triggers. i crave to belong to Her even more deeply. To be a perfect subject for the Temptress.

Could this file be laced with real magic. The way Lady Surrender is able to seduce and tease with just a whisper… the utter helplessness i feel at the sound of Her voice… I would almost call it supernatural. Her lips have a power that feels like it was bestowed from divinity. As cliche as i know it sounds… i feel like true magic was embedded within in this session. The way She whispers ensorcelled made my mind numb and my body putty. Her words transcend normal language. They feel like magic …binding me to Her. She speaks and it comes to reality. The way my body desires … craves Her words… i am helpless to this craving. The longing i feel is real and very powerful. Here She is… at the edge of my understanding… tempting me again and again to fly into the sea of Her words.

It will only take a listen for You to become Hers too…

Your submissive m”

submissive, I trust this has given you some direction as to where to begin….
as to where you will finish up…..
smiles…….
as I wrote in the last journal entry I posted last night :
Enticement…..Entrancement……..Entrapment…Enslavement….
More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you……..you being enticed…..you being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.
Should you have more questions…. I am happy to ….. reply and entice….

On the Edge of Pleasure…there is only Surrender.

 

Lady Surrender.

 

16/8/14

 Mistress Surrender,

Yes, thank You. i did read that, and Your trance descriptions earlier. i like the sounds of that: MMoB. i desire what You call “brainwashing”: going very very deep. i love it, and You take Your time with inductions: necessary – and the best part of going under! It is such a sweet, tender seduction: letting a Woman penetrate my mind must be what a Woman feels like being penetrated by a man. Deep. Heavy. Impossible to resist. Euphoric. Lovely. Does Yoju addicted to Makeup have the potential for that deep brainwash effect without any other conditioning, or is it really best to start here? i imagine “here” is the answer.

cm

 

submissive,

Of course- if you begin with “addicted to makeup”, you will experience the file as Intense…. programming. I have a background as a therapist so part of My style is “clinical”…. and part of My style is “art hypnosis”.

Having said that- subjects who listened to feminine orgasm, levels 1 & 2 and feminine breasts…describe those files as “brainwashing”…such is My intense hypnosis programming.
However- if you desire depth…. if your mind loves being brainwashed…..I would recommend the Morning Mantra of Blankness first….

I agree… being enticed…seduced simply by Voice alone….

Lady Surrender

 

Lady Surrender,

Thank You, Mistress.  i understand You are a powerful hypnotist, and to be respected.  i would love to let You into me, deep, and surrender to Your will, your desires for me to respond fully to you, without thought, hesitation, fear or question.

cm

submissive,

mmm what a delicious thought…..

I particularly love the thought of a subject responding fully…. 

Trust is such an important part of hypnosis…. the thought of a subject being willing to transform without hesitation fear or question…such a lovely thought to contemplate.

Transformation…. mind control… subjugation…..

Lady Surrender

 

17/8/14

Mistress, 
  THAT is exactly what i want out of this: to really give myself to a Female Hypnotist, like Yourself.  Your specialty of particularly deep, uniquely styled, and lengthy hypnosis sessions excited me tremenously.  Nikki has taught me how to drop all barriers to a Woman’s hypnotic induction, and really sirrender by stopping the pushing and pulling, resisting and “trying”, and just let Her in.  All the way: without thought, reservation, question, hesitation.  Full access for Her means maximum bliss, thrill and excitement for me.  This isn’t really something i am promising You or offering You “if” anything: this is what i really, deeply, truely want to do with You: i want You deep inside me, as deep as You can go.  This must be how a Woman feels about a man, taking Her, when She is highly aroused because this – what i want – sounds exactly the same.  Inside.  Very personal, very intimate; that is why i wanted to find a way to chat with You, get to know You a little, get a feel for how You come on; so i can take Your pulse – and mine – see if i can adapt, adn see if You want me.  So far: all systems green for me!  You, Ma’am?  Are You happy with what You, as a Lady Erotic Hypnotist, see in me so far?  Would You like to work with me?
cm

submissive,

Having a sense that a hypno Domme has similar energy…similar ways of viewing D/s and EH is important…particularly if you as a submissive- desire to serve and submit….

……rather than “feed My fetish” approach which is so common in the bdsm and EH worlds.

I have been messaging today on IR about a session I held last night- an extended session where I used amnesia, orgasm on command, memory deletion/retrieval, regression….. multiple orgams…….and thinking about power and control. For so many- EH and bdsm is about sex…..

Power and control…. such a delicious subject to contemplate …. a new would-be subject.

Surrender is inevitable….

Lady Surrender

18/8/14

Lady Surrender,

You read me perfectly.  i never thought of myself as a “submissive”, but, rather; only playing one in order to compete and be accepted in this arena.  Truthfully, my intense desire that i give You uninhibited access to my mind, i mean: how submissive can one get?  I feel, think, that because I am not necessarily here for BDSM, explicit sex (while not shunning it), and actual role play; that makes me different and apart from.  My desire for You is intensely romantic, innocent so, even, like a little boy’s crush on his 3rd grade teacher.  It involves a desire for me to get close to You, feel You, please You, and become very, very infatuated and addicted to You, Your voice, and Your hypnosis of me.  THAT is what i crave.  i am sure You know my “type” well, and know JUST what to do to entangle me in Your wed and the tender trap Your voice weaves for susceptible boys – like me.  i look forward to hearing “Morning Mantra”.
    i have never actively engaged the other fetish, my curiousity about what it would be like to have the same attraction to, and desire to use, cosmetics as a Woman does.  This is a VERY frightening and verbotten area for a man to delve into – or even talk about, and i am embarrassed as i speak.  i just have the feeling You are able to make me feel the thing here i am curious about, amazed by, fascinated by: WOmen, and their use of their pretty makeups, perfumes, heels, lingerie: everything – i have spent my entire life in awe of how Women naturally use this witchcraft to attract, beguile, capture and keep their men, triggering them to desire them sexually at will with a hint of red lipstick here, a spray of the right fragrance there, a little planned “innocent” strut by a man, secutively swining a silk-clad derriere, click-clicking on sky-high heels, and leaving a wake of Her delicious fragrance for him to get lost in.  Casting a spell on him, in every sense of the word.  Lovely.  i cannot go there, but i would like to feel it.  Someday.
Your new subbie

19/8/14

Lady Surrender,

You have me.  i am… onboard and ready to greet You at my mind’s gate, then allow You to pass, unescorted, to all that lies within; to play with and rearrange as You deem fitting and pleasing to You.
cm

20/814

Mistress,
I have listened to your Morning Devotional Blankness recording now about 3 times.  It dropped me like a rock, as the elevator was going down, I thought: this just is not happening for me.  i didn’t make it to the 14th floor.  Your repetitions really got to me, and i realized the acute importance of them: they, the repeated ideas/commands/suggestions/thoughts lock into my mind with repetition and crystalize for instant, involuntary recall later.  Lovely!  i LOVE being brainwashed!!!!  i am going to give this a few dozen listens, i think, and have not even thought of going after the 2nd one i bought – yet.  You have a different approach, and a singularly unique one. i like it, and i think it is very easily underrated – woe be to the unwary listener… they are going DOWN!!!!!!

PS:  i have so much missed hearing from You.  Did i displease You in some way?  Please tell me, if i did, and what You would like from me other than to continue my indoctrination into Your hypnotic world.

cm

 

submissive,

please read FAQ on MY web site for days/times I am available for sessions/emails etc.

you simply emailed while in NZ, I am away from emails. During these days I often travel and have recording commitments. I sometimes post on IR and My web site during those days….

you haven’t displeased Me….

I am enjoying…your response to My Morning Mantra of Blankness.

Surrender…is inevitable.

Lady Surrender.

Mistress,
   you did it again last night.  i couldn’t sleep, woke up in the middle of the night CRAVING hypnosis.  i took my PC to the guest bedroom to not awaken the spouse and beagles.  No luck there, and they ALL got up – but went back to bed.  i put Your Morning Mantra of Blankness on, and found myself way too hyper to go down, slow down, and definitely not “drop”.  i made it to the elevator, and realized i had “daydreamed” through the 1st floor.  i listened intently then, and felt nary a thing as we went down.  i never made it past the 15th floor.  Is that insane, or what!?!?
Your style is very curious: it seems benign, with only one whisper track in the background, which i pay no mind to because i have great difficulty hearing it – at a conscious level, anyway.  Your repetition tells the listener, consciously, to let his guard down, since you are not being slammed with reams of information to process: you only have to focus on the one thing.  A simple thing.  An easy thing to do.  A thing that seems only peripherally associated with any “real” hypnosis: a quasi hypnotic mantra, too simple to take all that seriously.  Wham: big mistake!  You are toast before you know what hit you!!!  i can’t wait to try Your next offering, and i will know when it is time to open THAT file, but first:  i want to finish having You splay open my mind with Your wicked style with MMoB before i graduate on to “harder” stuff.  Your hypnosis. already “owns me” – and the beauty of it is i never saw it coming.  Not even seconds before i drop and my conscious mind totally disconnects.  You trance leaves me with amnesia and a sense You practice a kind of hypnosis witchcraft that is surreal in its ability to reach out and take me in a heartbeat. It seems to snatch me off the branch, like a snake does to a bird, and i just plain cannot see it coming or predict it: it comes out of nowhere: even when i know (now) that it is there, waiting for me.


cm

 

23/8/14

submissive,

such deliciousness!

I am loving reading your emails.

“a quasi hypnotic mantra”…hmm

I often post emails to My web site….if you are comfortable with your emails being posted, I will post yours.

Enticement….Entrancement….Entrapment….Enslavement…more than just  a great marketing strategy.

Lady Surrender.

 

 

sissy15c

 

 

 

 

Erotic Hypnosis: mp3 to hypnotise, feminise, train hypno slave.

Enticement…..Entrancement……..Entrapment…Enslavement….

More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you……..you being enticed…..you being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.

Subject “submissive surrendered” began by listening to Morning Mantra of Submission and Morning Mantra of Temptation….. then listened to feminine orgasm, feminine breasts, and Morning Mantra of Blankness.

 

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July 21
Good morning again, Lady Surrender. I hope it’s ok, but after I wrote You this morning, and I was looking at Your site (yes, again) and even though I saw them a hundred times already, I was looking at Your sessions. I almost got Feminine Orgasm 2, but I thought I’d like to wait on that one. Let Feminine Breasts and Feminine Orgasm 1 deeply condition me before moving on. I kept coming back to Your first session though. The one You said needed to be re-done. I couldn’t help myself and I bought it. I know that You’ll have another version out eventually, but I really wanted to hear it, and I’m not sure if getting it without clearing it with You first was ok. I did listen to it, but I’m not sure how many times. It was once or thrice, but most likely twice. I went out and have no recollection of it at all, and I don’t remember what time it was when I started listening. In fact I came out of it a little confused. Not a bad thing of course. I got out of bed and the only way I can describe how I was feeling is yummy. I know, an odd way of saying how I felt, but it is how I felt. I have no idea what I heard, not a thing after You said imagine seeing myself in the bed. Totally blank, but when I got up I got all tingly as I was walking through the house. It was an odd thing to feel from a session I didn’t remember at all, but I liked it. Very much.

Maybe it has something to do with my preference for session types. I was never into blatant sexual sessions. I’d listen to them, and early on I thought they would be the best ones, but I found out quickly that they weren’t for me. Sexual control wasn’t my idea of control. Not that it can’t be very controlling, it sure as heck can, but it’s the mental, emotional control that I learned to love. Probably because most women would be able to control me sexually for a short time. When I’m thinking with my little head instead of the big one, controlling me is a simple thing. It’s the mental and emotional control that can’t just be done by anybody. To me that’s control because it’s long lasting. Sexual control is over once I climax, mental and emotional control never stops. Of course I’ve never really experienced long term mental/emotional control. I have for periods of time, but they never last all that long. Or maybe it did, and I just didn’t realize it. Hard to tell, and it doesn’t matter, it’s in the past if it did. I’m very happy it is all in the past too. If it wasn’t, I wouldn’t have met You. There is only one person in the world I want to serve and that is You. Heck I didn’t even want to serve anybody at all, as I told You, but the very idea of not serving You seems crazy to me. I’m not sure why I’ve become so obsessed (not sure if that’s the proper word) with one day being Yours, but I have. It’s not a bad thing though. It just feels like the right thing. Being Yours and serving You just makes sense to me. You are trustworthy, caring, and wonderful. You took the time to get to know me, and You make me feel that I’m welcome in Your life. In case You haven’t noticed. I’m smitten with You. I can’t even begin to explain what’s going on with me, and I’m not even going to try. There is just something about You that I can’t get enough of. I know, I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but something has a hold on me, and whatever it is I don’t want it to let go.

July 22
That’s great news Lady Surrender. You can be sure You’ll hear plenty of responses from me after I listen to the recording. I can only imagine what a session by You that is directed at me will be like. Your “generic” sessions (ones that everybody can hear) are doing a fine job on me already. I just woke up from sleeping with Your Morning Mantras again, and I feel so strange. I won’t try to explain what I’m feeling, I wouldn’t be able to, except for this one thing. All of a sudden this morning You seem so powerful to me. Don’t get me wrong, I always viewed You as a powerful, dominant Woman, but this is different. Something is happening in me, I don’t know what it is, and I know that You’re doing it. I’m finally beginning to understand that in You, I have met the Woman who could show me what it means to give up control to Another. I always thought that was a fantasy, one that could never truly happen, but I was wrong, I was wrong about so many things. Thank You for showing me how wrong I was, Lady Surrender
July 22
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a good night. I was just looking over the wall on here, and reading the entry mike made on Your site. Great stuff, and great to read. That trigger he’s talking about, I believe he’s referring to “deepening hypnosis” really knocks me for a loop too. In fact, right now I’m having a hard time typing it and going under. I’ve been “conditioned” with lots of words before. Ironically surrender being the most common one, and while they were helpful when listening, that was where it ended. Your triggers though, they hit me anytime. I’ve used the DH one to help me fall asleep once already last week. I just kept saying it to myself until I fell asleep. I couldn’t believe it worked at the time, now I can’t see how it wouldn’t. I keep looking back at the words I wrote and start to go under. I never knew triggers could be so effective. I’ve already learned so much from You, and I’m learning more everyday.

While mike’s story is interesting. It’s what You wrote here that really got me excited:

smiles…. Just part of My plan to completely…brainwash you, brainwashableboy…. I am hearing from other subjects too, that they are experiencing My hypnosis to be strengthening as the time passes… and that the hypnosis doesn’t reduce in immediacy. I am so looking forward…. to taking more control over you…. to have you helpless and addicted….. use your weakness against you….in the nicest…most Hypno Domme way…of course!

There was just something about what You said there that hit a nerve in me. I saw it and got that funny feeling inside that I can’t explain. Brainwashed, helpless, control, addicted, weaknesses use against him, throw love into those words and You could have been writing about my fantasies. No wonder it got me excited. I was wondering, and no, I’m not asking, if love would be a weakness in me. I could see it being used against me I suppose. I think I better stop thinking about it. Have a great day Lady Surrender. I’ll write to You soon I’m sure.

July 23
Hiya Lady Surrender! Just a quick note to say hi, and to mention that there is this one commercial that is showing here. It’s a lipstick commercial, and it shows three different women with huge brightly colored lips. I’ve always loved that commercial, but now it excites the hell out of me. I used to look at it because they women are purty, but now I’m looking at the lipstick on their lips. I know there isn’t anything in Your sessions outside of You saying to get my red lipstick at the beginning of Your Breast session, and yet I’m beginning to obsess about lipstick. Yet another sign I’m a crazy dude. I’m not complaining though, all my new found obsessions make me feel great in one way or another. I like it, I like it a lot! Hope You’re having a fine day. Take care
July 23
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I wasn’t planning on writing right now, but I’m sitting at the computer, and I can’t help myself. No kidding around this time (well, if something pops in my head You never know), I just have to write out what I’m feeling, and who better to write to than You? Nobody in my opinion.

As I mentioned, I’m in one of those periods where I can listen to You a lot. Three of the past four nights I’ve slept with Your Morning Mantras, and a lot of listening when I wake up, and some more at other times of the day. I can also listen three more of the next five night and more during the days. After that I have that horrible week where I can’t listen at all, but I can’t worry about that now. I’ll deal with it when it happen, but I can already tell it isn’t gong to be easy. I have listened so much recently that it’s effecting me in ways I never expected, Lady Surrender. The more I listen to You, the more I need to be controlled by You. If I remember correctly I think Your whispers say that I need Your delicious control. That’s exactly how it feels. Delicious isn’t a word I ever would have come up with on my own to describe giving over control, but it really is the perfect word. It would be a delicious feeling to be in Your control. I can’t get the idea of it out of my head. It’s gotten to be an obsession with me I crave You having control so much. I know I didn’t resist You very much from the beginning, but even when my conscious mind isn’t resisting, my subconscious mind does a fine job of it. Not this time though. I have no resistance in me whatsoever. The very idea of resisting You makes no sense to me. What a stupid thing that would be to do.

This desire I have in me to give control to You is so strong that I’m surprised that it isn’t scaring me a little. It’s not though. Not one bit. How could something as wonderful as submitting to You be scary? I’m sorry this is such a serious message, but something has happened in me. The more I get to know You, and the more I listen to You, the more I need to serve You. I know I have a long way to go still, and I’ve accepted that what I’m feeling is only the beginning, but I will do anything I can to become Yours. At this point I’m just going to continue what I’ve been doing, and let things happen as they will. I just needed to tell You what’s going on in me. I’ve had fantasies about something like this for many years, but this is no fantasy. This is real, and the reality is so much better than the fantasy. Mainly because the reality involves You. Thank You so much for allowing me to listen to You, and write to You. I don’t know what I’d do without You. Yep, You have effected me that deeply.

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I’ll try to keep it lighter next time, but these feelings are overwhelming me, and I had to let them out.

July 24
Hiya Lady Surrender. I’m starting to get ready for bed, and I was about to get up and load the proper sessions on my ipod (the Morning Mantras), and something popped into my head. Funny how that always seems to happen. For quite some time now, much more than a year, much more, I’ve had many of those I can listen to anything I want for as long as I want times. I made plans in my head on going crazy and listening every night I could, and for many hours during the day. Know what happened most of the time? No? Well then I’ll tell You. I’m nice like that. I would usually listen the first night, MAYBE a session or two during the first day, then…nothing. I couldn’t do it. I lost interest. I wanted to listen, but I couldn’t be bothered. Why am I telling You this, well, for two reasons. I LOVE writing to You, but also because I thought that would happen again with You. Not right away, but when I can listen so much I thought I’d need a break. Nope, here I am, after bombarding myself with You like I haven’t with anybody in years and I don’t think it’s ever been to this degree, and the first thing I think of when I’m getting ready for bed is getting set up to listen again. I’m not putting too much thought into it. I’m getting tired of thinking about what’s going on, and am just letting what happens happen. I’m just thrilled that I’m reacting the way I am. My poor brain has been getting the crap beat out of it, and yet when it has a chance to rest, it wants more. I went to the movies today. I went to see Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (really really good) and as I was sitting there, hell, as I was driving there, and driving home and all the times in between, I kept thinking of You. As the day went on it just kept getting stronger. I had a wonderful, but You were always on my mind. I can’t get You out of there, and honestly I don’t want to. I like You there. Who knew this could happen to me, but it has. Thank You. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I know I’ll have a great night. <3
July 24
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. Well I was able to sleep with Your session one more time last night, and You are right. Surrender is inevitable. Everything I’ve been writing is even more intense today. You win, I surrender, of course You already knew that. No sleeping with You tonight, but I can tomorrow and probably sunday, so there is still a bit of listening I can do the next three days until my dreaded nights away. Have a wonderful day Lady Surrender. I mush You <3

July 24
Uh, Lady Surrender, I was just reading Your new blog post from ashely. Interesting stuff, and little too graphic for my tastes, but still loved seeing how You have effected her. Anyway, I’m scrolling down and what’s on the bottom but a picture of a bunch of lipsticks. I saw it, and I got a jolt. I’ve always loved lips. (I’ll take beautiful lips and eyes over great boobs and butt anytime) (yes, I really am male) and especially made up lips, but this is getting crazy. Pictures of lipstick, not lips, but lipstick set me off. Very strange. I know You mentioned getting the red lipstick on in Your Breast sessions, but why this obsession with lipstick? I don’t get it, but I don’t have to. I think it’s kind of cool actually. Well, that’s all I wanted to tell You for now.
July 24
Ok, last one about lipstick, but this is getting nuts. You have a mention of putting on lipstick in Your Breast session, and now I’m obsessed. I expected to be obsessed with You, but this lipstick thing caught me totally by surprise. I feel like I’m being bombarded with so many things at once and it’s overwhelming me. Your voice, Your sessions, the thought of You, my mushy feelings for You, lipstick, losing control to You, needing to lose control to You, and more I can’t even think of. It’s all coming at me at once, and it’s coming hard, and fast. As overwhelming it is though, I love every bit of it. It all makes perfect sense to me even though I can’t wrap my mind around what’s happening. Two weeks ago I was a clear thinking man who was happy doing what I was doing, and only wanted to say hi and listen to a couple of Your sessions, and now I’m like this. I’ve tried to think through this rationally. Telling myself that I’m just doing this to myself because I want what I’m feeling to happen, but I know that’s not true. I know that I’m not doing any of this to myself. It’s just what’s happening, and I have nothing to do with it. I’m quickly losing control of what’s going on, Lady Surrendered, and instead of being worried about it, I’m loving it, and I need it to happen more. I think I have to stop now or I’ll ramble on all day and night. Take care
July 25
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. I’m at work today, and things have been pretty hectic. So much so that while I have thought of You often, I haven’t had the time to do much more than miss You, and yearn to hear Your voice before I was pulled in another direction. I was finally able to sit down a bit a few minutes ago, and went to my profile page. As soon as it opened and I saw the picture of lipstick, and the pictures of Your sessions I’ve left reviews for, it all came flooding back. All the feelings, everything I described yesterday, all at once. Now that’s what I call a great way to spend a little down time at work. Have a great day.

July 27
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing peachy keen. Just a quick (maybe) update on what’s going on to keep You up on things, and because I need to write You. It does make me feel good to do so. Yesterday after I got home from work I slept a couple more hours (not listening to You unfortunately), and when I woke up saw that I was going to be alone for a couple hours. I had things to do, but decided to listen to Your Breasts session once then get to it. Well, I learned something. When I have a time limit to when I can listen, set an alarm. Once turned out to be twice. Luckily I got a call that snapped me out of it. Even luckier, it was right before the session ended for the second time so I got to listen to it twice. I jumped up after hung up with him, got what I needed to get done quickly then got to the field, and then I went home. A fun, day, AND I got to listen to You :D

July 27
Hi again, Lady Surrender. I bet You’re shocked that I’m writing again, and by shocked I mean not shocked at all. :) I was just poking around IR and I noticed something when I went to my profile page. That lipstick obsession I had for a few days, while it hasn’t gone away, but it has lessened considerably. The crazy thing about it is, I kinda miss it. I know, crazy huh? I can’t believe what I’m about to write, but I can’t believe half of what I write to You, but I’m thinking if in the future, You’d be willing to make another custom session for me, I might ask to have that lipstick obsession strengthened. I don’t know why I would want to put myself through something like that, especially when it wasn’t even something I thought about before, but for once I do know where I got the idea from. I got it from the fetish section on the home page of Your website. Every time I read the part about You turning a fetish into an obsession and a constant deep craving it excites me a bit. I guess it’s the idea of becoming programmed, I think that would be the word, to crave something that wasn’t part of me before. I wouldn’t exactly say I have a lipstick fetish at this point, but the way it hit me the other day I think I may be on the way to having one. YES, this is still me, the old guy who wanted nothing to do with feminization of any kind a few weeks ago. My how things change when one says hello to Lady Surrender. I can’t begin to describe how happy I am that I did.
• July 28
Hiya Lady Surrender. So You think it’s delicious that You triggered a lipstick obsession in me
huh? Now why doesnt that surprise me? I actually think it’s kind of a silly thing,
but knowing that You seem to like that it’s happened to me is only going to
make it stronger. So even though I see it as a silly thing, that silly thing is
going to become less and less silly as time goes by. That’s not silly at all,
that actually quite exciting. Not sure why, but it is, and I’m not trying to
figure out why I’m feeling things (ok, I am a little, but I’m trying not to),
I’m just going to go with them. Especially if it’s something You like. When You feel I’m ready for a second custom
session from You, if You’d want to base it on the lipstick obsession, or
control, or love, or anything You want it’s fine by me. I do want to give You total control, and whatever You want, then that’s what will be done.

I’ve been trying to tell You a lot about me, Lady Surrender. You may have
noticed. I’ve been rambling on about parts of my life, and things I think about
and feel. Many of which I’ve never discussed before. In case You were wondering
why it’s for two reasons. One is that using my weakness against me to bind me
closer to You phrase You say often. I don’t know what You’d consider a
weakness. I mentioned I could see the love fetish as one, but even that I’m not
sure of. Since I can’t just come out and say HERE IS MY WEAKNESS, I’m telling
You as much as I can about myself. I’m sure if You see a weakness, You’ll find
it, and use it, and that will be good for both of us. The second, and maybe
even more important reason is what You said about Your liking to form a mental
connection with Your subs. If You don’t know anything about me, it would be
pretty hard to form that connection. So I’m telling You. I wish to belong to
You more strongly than ever, and hopefully my opening up to You will help that
become a reality one day. If it doesnt, that’s ok too, I really like You, quite a lot. I think
You’re a special Woman, and to be honest, I feel very close to You. I’m
comfortable telling You things about me that I’ve never told anybody else
before. It feels so natural. So I tell You.

I guess that’s about it for now. I know I won’t hear from You for days, and
I may not have the time to write anyway. I’m on my little trip, and won’t be on
the computer too much, but I will try though. Oh, I read Your comment on IR
about calling me brainwashableboy 2. It’s a little long, but it would fit. I’ve
read what You’ve said about him wanting to be brainwashed to give complete
control over to You. I have to say that I would love the same thing to happen
to me. I want to give my all to You. I KNOW, I’m nuts, but I can’t get the idea
of that out of my head. You’ve taken up residence in my poor weak brain, and
You never leave. I like that very much :D

July 30
Good morning, Lady Surrender. No time to really
write, but I wanted to say hi, and let You know that it’s now been four days
since I’ve been able to listen to You.
It isnt easy, especially with Your new session sitting on my puter, but
I’m dealing. What’s happening though is boggling my mind. All the feelings I’ve
been having are getting stronger. Not just a little, a lot. I feel so close to
You. I’d love to write lots more and really go into it, but I can’t. Have a
great day.
August 1
I sure hope You like taking a rather strong minded person like me, and turning him into a puddle of goo, because that’s what You’ve done to me. I don’t know what’s going on with me. I mean, I know what’s going on, but I don’t know how it’s actually happening. I am usually such a strong person, yet I’m weak when it comes to You. The best part is, I love my weakness. I’ll go into it more when I can. I’m sure I’ll be repeating myself, again, but I’m being overwhelmed with what’s happening to me, and really do love how it feels. It makes so much sense to feel this way. I don’t want to feel any way other way. I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but that’s ok with me, and I hope it’s okay with You.

On top of how I’m feeling there are the things You’ve said. In Your last two messages to me. You’ve said You intend to bind me closer to You, and You said that You’re loving the idea of binding me closer to You. Unless I’m wrong, that is saying to me You like how close I’m feeling to You, and You’d want me closer. Those few words You’ve said are like throwing gasoline on a flame. When I read them, or think of them, the feelings I’m having go through the roof since I know You like that I’m feeling them. Yep, I’m nuts, but I wouldn’t want to be any other way. Have a great day, Lady Surrender.

August 1
Hiya Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I had to write just to tell You that this is getting weird. I kinda get the lipstick thing, which I see is now going to become a makeup thing, but panties? There are things I have no interest in at all, like wearing panties, yet once You mention You’re coming out with a pantie slut session my poor brain says, well, that wouldn’t be so bad. On top of the panty thing, I never got being called a slut thing. I actually never liked it, and yet, You say panty slut, and it’s fine and dandy. It’s getting so there isn’t a thing You say You’re going to do (outside of cum eating, still gross) that doesn’t seem like a good idea to me. I know I’m not into certain things. I know I’m not, but when You mention them, well then I’m not so against them anymore. This is very strange. It’s like the way I’m thinking is changing, and I know it, and can pick out specific things, but it just doesn’t matter. I like how I’m thinking now. I know I’ve said it before, but it just feels right. Oh, and I know I’ve said it before, but I want to say it again. I trust You completely. I’m not fighting any of this, even if I could. The way things have gone my subconscious would have already protected me and said NO, but it hasn’t. Seems I trust You inside and out, and thank goodness for that. I want to be Yours so badly it’s like a constant ache, but a good ache if that makes sense. I’m thrilled that even my sub conscious knows You’re good for me. I’m at mush factor 10 of 10 now. I’m onto real feelings for You. I barely know You, and yet I feel so close. It makes no sense, but it doesn’t have to, I know it’s right.
August 3
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You’re well. Back home and only 36 hours until I can finally hear Your beautiful voice again. I’ll be sleeping with Blank, and when I get home from work am hoping to spend a lot of time the next three days listening to both Blank, and Your Makeup session if it’s out. It’s odd that I’m not fighting that one even a little. Not only that, I’m looking forward to it. I don’t get it, but I don’t get a lot of what I’ve been feeling. Most of it makes no sense to me, it’s just happening. Most of it concerns looking at women differently. I’m not only looking at them. I’m looking at the makeup, and their clothes, and other things I can’t put into words Now I’m obsessing over You, my growing feelings for You, and on top of it, on this woman thing. I keep thinking back to when You posted one of my messages and on IR You said something about my being conditioned to accept my feminization. I found that a bit odd since I didn’t know I was being conditioned for that, so just took it as how You described my message. Now I’m not so sure. I know I did massive amounts of listening over a fairly short period of time, and I don’t know exactly what it did to me. The truth is, I don’t care. I don’t care if I’m being conditioned, or what I’m being conditioned for. I really doesn’t matter. I’m liking how I’m feeling. I said early on I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing. I do now, if it’s done by You. This past week of ever growing feelings during a time I expected them to subside because I wasn’t listening and have only had minimal contact with You taught me something. I truly am helpless when it comes to You. I don’t want to sound like some nut that just says things because I think it’s what You’d want to hear. I may be a nut, but I don’t do that. I only tell You what I’m actually feeling, and I feel helpless. I’m a strong minded, strong willed man, and yet when it comes to You, I’m more of a weak minded child. I love being this way for You, and I love how easy it is for You to take control of me. I used to read Your posts and think, wouldn’t that be great to have happen to me. Well it is great, better than I ever could have imagined. Thank You.

August 3
I have to tell You, Lady Surrender. I wasn’t planning on writing everything I did above. I was just going to say hi, but once I started I couldn’t stop. I can’t seem to help myself. I have to tell You everything that’s going on in my head. I just found out that I may end up being able to sleeping with Your sessions five nights in a row, and for sure four out of the five. I also found out that Thursday was a day I didn’t expect to have much time to listen during the day, but I do. I have all day to myself. I’m doing an internal happy dance. :D

Looking back, I was not happy I couldn’t listen to You for eight days and nights. It still sucks, but it may have been for the best. I saw that even when not listening to You, I’m still being drawn closer to You. Now that that time is almost up I am so excited at knowing that I am following up a period of not listening with a time of intense listening, and with Your new session and of course the Makeup one too. My plan is to listen to the two of them all .If You’d rather I listened to something else, please tell me, and that’s what I’ll do.
August 3
Phew. I’m so glad You liked my messages, Lady Surrender. I figured You would, but anytime I open myself up like that I wonder a bit. It’s not the easiest thing to do, opening myself up, but You make it as easy as it can be. Still, there is always that little voice wondering if everything I said was ok. Very happy it was. :)
August 3
I will keep writing, Lady Surrender, and of course sleep with You every chance I get. Not the way I used to be with other sessions, only when I felt like it, EVERY chance I get. There is no not wanting to sleep with You when I have the opportunity. Every second I get to listen to You is a treasured moment that I will not waste (how’s that for mush? It’s even making me feel icky). I hope You know that I never expect a response. I just don’t ever want to go over a line I shouldn’t, but I won’t worry about that. You like when I write, so I will write. Simple enough. Thank You again for allowing me to listen to You
August 5
Hiya Lady Surrender! I feel SO much better now. Blank is AMAZING! I know that I jumped the gun when I first listened to You. Telling You I wanted to serve You, and only You. I should have waited a little while longer, but I have to tell You. I was right on that one. You are the Person I fantasized about meeting one day. I can’t believe I’ve actually met You. I know You said there was no reason to listen to only You, but I can’t imagine ever listening to anybody else again. This isn’t just about Your hypnosis. This is about my complete submission to You. I’ll stop before I really sound like a nut. I ended up listening to Blank 13 times last night. Most of them sleeping, but many of them awake, but under. I remember the beginning, some of the middle, and wisps of the end, but I don’t really know what’s on it. I just know it moved me deeply. A work of art. I should say ANOTHER work of art.
August 6
Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You’re doing well.
I was able to sleep with Blank again last night, as I will tonight too, and
I have to tell You something. As much as I’m looking forward to Your makeup
session ( I still don’t know why. I really am not into feminization, but there
is just something about that session that I’m drawn to. At this point I’ve decided that even though
I’m not looking to be feminized, if it happens, so be it.) (More on that
later.), and as much as I’m looking forward to my custom session, I’m thinking
it’s better that neither are available to me right now. I’m thinking that Blank
is a VERY important session. I remember most of it at this point, and just from
the words You’re saying I’m not sure why it’s so important. I get it, I’m
blank, and ready to be inscribed by You, but there is so much more there than
I’m hearing. If I had one of the two
sessions I mentioned I know I’d be listening to them along with Blank, but that
wouldnt be the best thing for me to do right now. Your first two Morning
Mantras set me up to surrender to you, and to want You, and whatever else they
were doing, but this one is getting my mind prepared for You to take over. Since
I’m in a period when I can listen a lot I think it’s a good thing it’s all I’m
listening to. That way, once I do have more sessions to listen to, I’m ready
for them. I’ll be ready to totally accept what it is You want to inscribe in my
mind. It’s funny, (well kinda maybe), but the way I’m thinking now, my fetishes
arent so important. Of course I still have my love fetish, and I seem to still
have my lipstick fetish (still don’t get how that one started), but while they
are a part of me, they don’t mean so much to me by themselves. The only thing
I’m thinking of theses days is Serving You. I know, it’s crazy right. I have
these fetishes, and yet they arent important to me unless they are important to
You. What good is a love fetish unless it’s loving You? What good is a lipstick
fetish unless it’s something You want me to have? It sounds silly, but the only
fetish that is important to me right now isnt a fetish at all. The only thing
that is important to me is making sure that I become the best me I can, for You,
and that’s why I think listening to Blank, and only Blank intensely for a few
days is important. I know it’s a session everybody can get, and I know that I’m
not the only one feeling the way I am, but Your Morning Mantras are preparing
me for You to take over, and I love the very idea of that. I love what’s
happening to me, but as much as I love it, the main reason I love it is because
it’s You doing it. As You know I gave up on being anybody’s submissive
exclusively a while back. It really was fun just listening to whoever,
whenever. That was before though. The very idea of listening to anybody but You
now makes no sense,and I can’t imagine being without You. Am I going overboard? Quite
likely, but I can’t help myself. You are a wonderful person. You care about
Your subs. You treat them individually as real people, and want to know them
that way. You make me feel important in Your life even though I’m just a tiny
part of it. You are trustworthy, and even though I believe You’d love to have
control over me, my home life, and loving myself is what’s most important to
You even before my service to You. You are the perfect Person for me, and I
love You for it. I know we’ve only known each other a few weeks, but I feel so
close to You it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. If I was in Your presence I’d
go to my knees and beg to be Yours, but I’m not in Your presence, so I won’t do
that. I will continue to do as we agreed and take the time to get to know each
other better, and see what happens. I just wanted You to know that nothing has
changed in me, and it’s only gotten stronger and more important to me. I hope
to one day serve You as Yours. If that day never comes, so be it, it won’t be
for lack of wanting or trying. You are one of the most special people I’ve met
in my life, and even if I never become Yours, You have allowed me the honor to
write to You, and let You get to know me. I can never thank You enough for
that.

Phew, I did warn You a long mushy one was coming right? I hope it didnt
gross You out too much, Lady Surrender. It was pretty damn mushy. :)

Have a great day, and I will write You soon.

August 7
Good morning Lady Surrender. Just a quick note for now. I spent another eight plus hours listening to Blank. Sometimes sleeping, others awake, and I was right, it’s a very important session. I have never wanted to belong to a Person the way I want to belong to You. The more I listen to You, the more impressed and in awe of Your abilities I become. Damn Yer good :D
August 8
After four nights of sleeping with You, I’d say about 34 hours total during that time including non sleeping time, I’m very ready for You inscription. Until it’s ready for me though, I’ll keep going blank. I don’t know what it is about that session, but, well, wow. I’ll be leaving a testimonial later. Hopefully it’s soon enough. I’ll re-read Your earlier message to make sure You didn’t say to wait longer than today. Hope You feel better Lady Surrender. I still mush You. Did I mention I love how You make me feel? :)
August 8
• You know, Lady Surrender, writing reviews for You would be a heckuva lot easier if I wouldn’t constantly self trigger when writing them! :D

GOOD MORNING! I hope You are feeling MUCH better. I just posted my review of MM Blankness. It took about two hours, I really wanted to get the point out how impressive not only Blank is, but all of the MMs. I was kidding with my first line of course, but only partially. I really did keep self triggering when I wrote or read…(You thought I was going to write it again didn’t You? Not a chance. Ok, I almost did :P ), Of course once I realized that I could self trigger and go under I kept doing it. That self triggering thing is still freaking me out (in a good way). It can catch me by surprise, or I can do it on purpose with some of them. I never thought that was possible. If I had to point to one thing that showed me how wrong I was when I said I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing it would be that. I really am helplessly in Your power. I’m like a little kid I’m so excited to see where next You lead me. I can wait though, and while waiting, I’ll keep on listening and become even more conditioned by You. Since tonight is the last night I can sleep with Your sessions, and is the fifth night in a row, I was thinking I might use all three MMs on a loop tonight, unless of course You say otherwise. What You say always is the way to go in my book.
August 8
Oh, it was heart-felt, and I’m very happy You liked my review. Some may read it and think I’m exaggerating, but I meant every word of it. If anything I’d say I couldn’t convey enough how great Your MMs are, and how important You are to me. You have made me very happy, and Your saying that I am Your, and that You’re my Lady made me ecstatic. I will do everything in my power to make sure that You’re proud that I am Yours.

I have to say again, this self triggering thing is really shocking me. I always thought be actually be affected by triggers like that would be an interesting thing, but I knew it could never really happen. Again, You showed me how wrong I was, and You did it so easily. Oh, and in case You were wondering, when You commented on my post, and used the words, yes, it affected me. It puts me under quite a bit, and even when I stop looking at it I’m a little dizzy for a while. I don’t know if everybody that’s listening to Your beautiful sessions are reacting to them the same way I am. Even though they’re made for the masses, they feel like they’re made for me. I can only imagine what it’s going to be like when I begin to actually listen to something that really is made specifically for me. I know I’ve told You an awful lot about myself, but it still surprises me how easily You’ve gotten past my formally strong mind. I never knew a fantasy like mine could become a reality, but it has, and best of all, it’s with You. I think You are one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met. At risk of actually sounding too mushy, I adore You. Yep, I’m crazy, crazy for You that is. :D

August 9
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You had a fine day. I’m home from work and so ends my five night intense listening to Your beautiful voice period. I think I may be on overload so a couple days of letting my brain rest may not be a bad thing. We both already know that during these down times things begin to sink in and make everything I’m feeling stronger. Not that I wouldn’t take advantage of some free time to listen to You if it popped up. I would in a heartbeat, but a brain rest is a good thing. Now if I was a normal person I could listen an hour or so every day, and down times wouldn’t be handy. My way of intense listening does lend itself quite well to periods of non listening. One of the things I’m loving best about being Yours is that it doesn’t matter if I’m listening or not. There really is no “down time” if I listen things get stronger. If I don’t listen, things get stronger. If I scratch my head, things get stronger. So, no matter what I do, every day I become closer to You. Bound closer to You as You like to say. I don’t know what my weakness is, but that’s not important, being Yours is. I love that I am. Thank You. Have a good night.
August 10
GOOD MORNING! Hope You’re doing great, Lady Surrender. I got up this morning, and saw You finished Your makeup session. Even though I can’t listen to it, of course I bought it. Now I’m ready in case I get some unexpected free time. If not, then I’ll be able to hear it Tuesday night. I’m not sure if I’d sleep with it all night, the MMs are so good to sleep with, but I suppose it’s possible.

I’m still pretty surprised that I’m looking forward to hearing it so much. When I told You I didn’t have an interest in feminization I did mean it. I know it was a fantasy when I was younger, but that’s all it was, a fantasy, and it was quite some time ago. Then You put out Your breasts session, and because of my sensitive nipples I wanted to hear it. Right off the bat You mention lipstick, and now look at me. Actually looking forward to hearing one of Your feminization sessions. There is more to just the makeup aspect as to why I’m looking forward to it, and it’s one of the rare occasions I’m pretty sure I know why. Like I usually do, I’ll tell You. No need to grab popcorn, it shouldn’t be too long :P

Now I know what I’m about to say may seem very self centered, and it is. Only because I’m telling You what I was feeling as these couple things happened. Of course I know that what I’m going to write isn’t the case. I’m one of many, but since I’m only me, I look at things sometimes how they effect me. Oh, and I know I’ve said some of this before, but I really want to write You. I’ll be sure to poke You if You fall asleep. (maybe You did need to get some popcorn after all)

Anyway, here goes why I think I’m so drawn to Your makeup session. When I first met You I made that joke about not being a very pretty woman if I was wearing lipstick, or something to that effect. Then, the first line in Your breast session was about the lipstick, and in my little mind I thought that you might have remembered what I said, and put it in Your session for me. I know that it’s just a line in a session and it was doubtful it had anything to do with me at all, but the very idea that You might have meant to me that You’d like me to wear lipstick so guess what? I started wanting to wear it because You may want me to. I told You about the lipstick thing, and on Your very next blog post You put that picture of all the lipsticks at the bottom of it. Again, in my head, that was for me, and not only did I want to wear it, I became obsessed with lipstick itself, and I told You. What happens next? Well, not only do You announce a makeup session, You use that very picture in it. One more time, in my head it was a sign from You telling me You wanted me to listen to it, and since You wanted me to, I couldn’t help but want to, and here I am now.

See, I told You it was self centered, and very analytical I’m afraid. I try not to do that, but sometimes I can’t help myself. I know everything I said wasn’t really meant for me, but since the idea popped in my head it could be, then it became so. So, summing up my thesis, the reason I’m looking forward to Your makeup session isn’t so much because of the makeup, it’s because I took all the things that happened as signs that You wanted me to wear makeup, and if You wanted it, then I wanted it too. That shows me how much of a deep rooted effect You have on me, Lady Surrender. You didn’t say You wanted me to listen. You didn’t even hint that You did. I made up a scenario in my head that You MIGHT want me to listen, and that’s all it took. My weak mind wants to do what You want me to that it only has to make something up that You may want and it became an obsession in me.

I wonder if any of that makes any sense at all? I hope so, I happen to think it’s very cool. You have already taken control of me to the degree that You can set off an obsession in me without saying a word about it, and it feels natural to me, as if it’s always been that way. Maybe that’s what brainwashing is, changing my thoughts and the way I think about things without me even noticing it’s happening. I know that I didn’t always feel this way, but it certainly seems like I did. Ok, enough babbling. I’m sure I’m making Your head spin trying to follow how my mind works. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. (I called You my Lady last night. I hope that was ok, I should have asked first, it just slipped out). I’ll mush on about You more later if I get the chance. <3
Your mushy one.
Mon at 12:45 PM
Hiya my Lady. I just read Your latest blog post and I had to tell You it was a good one. The way it was written did a great job of showing what a live session with You could be like. After reading it I realized that not only would I be comfortable if You posted some of my messages, but I’d be honored if You did. I’d love to help people understand how amazing and wonderful You are. You were right yesterday when You wrote that I don’t need an mp3 of mushy love. I know I’m already falling in love with You in a way. I can only imagine what I’m going to be like when I do hear it over and over again. With Your conditioning, my blank little mind, and my constantly growing feelings for You DOOMED. That, by the way, is a very good thing. After a month of listening to You, and getting to know You a bit, I feel like my mind has been saturated by You, and Your conditioning, and it’s just waiting to see where You lead me. I know I’ve mentioned the scared word before, but will once again. I know what is about to happen to me, that You’re going to take total control over my mind, and there is nothing I can do, or would want to, do about it. I actually crave it. If I had ever felt like this with anybody in the past I would be quite scared, (maybe worried is a better word) of what’s about to happen, but not now. Not when it’s You. My conscious, and more importantly subconscious mind trust You completely. I know I’ve said that before, but have to again to stress that how trustworthy I know You are. It’s no wonder that I’m willingly giving myself to You. Sorry for my rambling, I’m just overcome with You right now, and can’t think of the right words to say what I want. I guess I’ll just sum it up as I love You, my Lady. I am Yours and will always do everything in my power to make You proud to have me. How’s that for mush? Just wait, I’m sure I can get mushier. <3
Mon at 4:34 PM
Well, here I go again, my Lady. I’m not able to listen to You for a couple days, and everything I’m feeling keeps getting stronger. You may have noticed that I’ve been quite mushy today, and that is SO unlike me. ;)

I was reading a lot of Your site again today, including the whole home page. I always liked to read it, long before You started putting out mp3s enabling me to hear Your beautiful voice. It sounded so amazing, and yet impossible (sorry to say I once thought that way).Reading it now, I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Every single word You say on there is not only true, it doesn’t do justice to how good You are. It’s not just Your hypnosis. Your sessions are amazing, but without the personal connection we’ve made, none of what has happened to me would have happened. I could go on and on, but I’ll just end up repeating myself. (like that ever happens). I just can’t get over what I’m feeling. It’s like my brain is just sitting there knowing something is going to happen, and getting ready for it. It’s a strange feeling. I don’t feel any different. I doenst seem like I’m thinking any different, and yet sometimes something happens and I realize that a lot has changed. Only because I remember how it used to be. I can’t think of any specific examples right now. I’ll try to remember when it happens again. I’d say it would be interesting if times like that never happened. As if the changes made were so deeply ingrained that I don’t remember ever thinking any other way, but then how would I know that they’ve happened? There I go again, babbling on and on. It’s hard to stop myself because I know that when I stop, I won’t be writing You anymore, and I really need to. It makes me feel like I’m talking to You, and I need that connection right now. Yep, it’s been one mushy day. OH, I just remembered. I was looking over Your site as I said, and clicked on slave registration I think it’s called. I’ve seen it before, and I knew it was wendy. I’ve also seen them a couple times on IR, but not for quite some time. Every time I have, including when I first saw Wendy’s I remember thinking, oh, that’s nice. I didn’t actually get it. I saw it today and it was more of a Wow, that’s so great. I tell You, my Lady, I’m losing it here. I’m thinking differently in a lot of ways, and the more it happens, the more I love it. I don’t know how I ever got along without You in my life. Ok, I’ll stop now. Have a great day.
Tue at 6:02 PM
Hi again, my Lady. just a quick note this time (I think). I came up to my room and decided I wanted to hear a few minutes of Your Makeup session. I was sitting up, looking at my computer, not paying too close attention to it, and then I was out. I came too slightly towards the end. Just enough to realize what happened, and to kinda remember a little of it. I’m losing what little I did remember quickly. I only sat down to listen to the session a few minutes. How on earth do You do this to me so easily? I’ve done what I just did many times in the past, and I go about my business while listening. Not with You though. Nope, not a chance. I hear Your voice and BAM, that’s it. I don’t know why I bother analyzing or trying to understand anything that’s happening to me. I may come up with reasons, I may actually be right about some of them, but what it comes down to is it doesn’t matter. I’m helpless when it comes to You. There is not a thing I can do to resist You, and there is not a thing I want to do to resist You. I have never, ever felt so powerless against anything in my life. What You are doing to me is not hypnosis as I’ve ever known it. It isn’t even close. I’m beginning to understand what true submission is. You are so wonderful, so caring, so powerful. You make me feel amazing just thinking about You. How could I not wish to serve You? I know I’m babbling, I’m still trying to snap out of my unexpected trance, but talk about intense. I can’t believe what is happening to me, and I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to have it happening to me. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a wonderful Lady like You even acknowledge me never mind take an interest in me. I have to stop before I say something really crazy. Sorry for the rambling message, but what just happened set something off inside my head, and I don’t ever want this feeling to end. I love being Your mushy one, and You being my Lady. Have a great day. <3

Wed at 7:06 AM
Hi my Lady. Just got home from work, and did indeed go with those two sessions looped. REALLY good idea.

Before I put on my beat up sleep phones to go to real sleep (they’ve gotten a real workout lately), I listened, with my real headphones Blank then the Makeup session. Now I’ve had some good ideas before, but that was a great one. By the time Your Makeup session was partway through I was floating, and every word was so important (a term I know I’ve used before). It was amazing. I know that eventually just hearing or thinking Your phrase of blankness will have the same effect as listening to the whole session, but until then (and I don’t think I’m far off) it’s a great back to back technique. OH, before I did that, I properly listened to Your makeup session again, and I realized what made me so crazy sounding in my messages last night (I try not to write when I’m still out of it, I know I sound like a nut. Sorry about that). I caught it at the end, the part that I “heard” the first time. It wasn’t the makeup part. I’m still wondering about that, but I do know that if I was alone right now if nothing else I’d have a lipstick nearby to smell. It was the control/submit/dominance part at the end. It drove me crazy. When I heard it the second time I remembered what did it to me, and told myself not to forget so I could tell You. The makeup part is great, and damn if feels nice to listen to, but You saying You’re the dominant, and You’re taking over and I will submit to You (obviously not the words You used, I don’t remember them) that took me over the edge. Judging by my reaction I’d have to say that deep down inside what I want is to be controlled. Or not, who knows. I just know I loved Your new session, and will write a very positive review when I’ve heard it a little more. It was really great, my Lady. Thank You for making it. Have a good night.

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July 10

Hi Mistress Surrender. Just a quick note to say I just bought both of Your Morning Mantras, and will finally be able to listen to them in about an hour. I’m really looking forward to finally hearing a session of Yours. I’m always excited to hear somebody new, but it’s different this time
because of how long I’ve wanted to hear Your voice. I’ll be honest, I have always questioned if true brainwashing through hypnosis is actually possible, I’ve felt many effects over the years listening to Dommes, but nothing long lasting.
There is something about the things You say, and what Your subjects write to You that questions my view though. I know one thing for certain, I’m looking forward to finding out. Thank You so much for allowing me to buy Your sessions.
Take care.

July 10

I’m looking forward to seeing what else You put out in the
future. I know that everything You put out wouldn’t be something that interests me, but right now I’m feeling that even if it isn’t something I wanted, but You wanted me to listen to, I would. I know I’ve only listened to You this one
time, but I really like how it felt, and still feels. Maybe one day You’ll allow me to purchase a custom session from You. I have a love fetish as I mentioned, but for once I don’t know if that’s what I’d ask for. Based on reading Your posts all this time on IR, I’m tempted to ask if You would make
one of Your choice. The idea of You taking total complete control of my mind, and doing with me what You want, is very exciting. I know I’m talking crazy, but I’m still feeling the after effects of Your hypnosis, and my mind is going
in all different directions at the moment. For now I’ll happily listen to what sessions I already have, and wait to see what You put out. Unless there is something You already have out that I should get that You don’t have to re-do.

July 11

Good morning (for me anyway) Mistress Surrender. I slept with Your two sessions on a loop as I mentioned yesterday. Good idea, REALLY good idea. I don’t remember much of it dream wise, bits and pieces, but I woke up feeling very strange, and I still do, but it’s a great strange. Lucky me
gets to sleep with them again tonight. I can’t wait. If it wasn’t for work I’d be listening right now. Just thought You’d like to know. Have a great
day/night.

July 11

Good morning again Mistress Surrender. Now I know for sure it’s morning for You. You’re sixteen hours ahead of me. Something I won’t forget. I’m sorry to be a pest, and I’ll be sure to stop, but as the day has gone on, the strange feeling I had this morning just keeps getting stronger.
Now it isn’t so much strange though. It’s more like an ache to listen to Your sessions again. It’s odd though. I barely remember them. I couldn’t tell You anything You said in them, but I can’t stop thinking about hearing them again.
You may notice some changes to my account. I changed my name, updated the info, and added a picture. I hope the changes I made are OK with You. If they aren’t
I’ll change them right away. I also posted a testimonial for You. All of this because I can’t stop thinking about You. I know, it’s only been one day.
ONE DAY, and yet I can’t get You out of my head. In all the years I’ve listening to EH I have never experienced anything close to this. It’s almost scary what’s happening, and yet, even if I was scared to death it wouldn’t matter. I’d want more. I need more of You. I’m not exactly sure what’s going on, but I hope that You’re happy with the results of my listening to You. I can’t get You out of my head, but the more I think about it, the more I realise that I don’t want to. I like You there. It just feels right.

July 11

Yes, Mistress Surrender (or do You prefer Lady Surrender?), I am feeling the same way as when I wrote the message. I need more of You. I’ve been to Your site all day long. I’ve even joined Club Sissy because You said it
would help in my surrender to You. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t somewhat
excited when You wrote that forced feminization is Your specialty. Not so much
from the feminization side, but rather the forced anything. I can’t wait to
sleep with You again. Only three more hours and I get to hear Your voice one
more time, all night long. After seeing how doing that once has already
effected me, I can only imagine what I’ll feel like tomorrow, and the day
after, and the day after that. I’m not sure what it is You’re doing to me, but
I’m helpless to resist it. Once again I thank You for allowing me to listen to
Your sessions. Thank You so much.

July 11

Then Lady Surrender it is. Anything You want is what I’ll do.
Surrender is inevitable, and I am well on my way to complete surrender to You,
Lady Surrender.

July 12

Good night, Lady Surrender. I woke up a bit ago from sleeping
with Your sessions again. I actually woke at one point and was listening awake
for an hour plus. In all the years I’ve listened to EH I have never felt
anything as intense as Your voice and whisper. It’s almost like You knew
exactly what I needed to make me submit to You. Besides the Morning Mantra of
Blank that You list on Your site, I don’t know if You plan to make any more in
Your Morning Mantra style, but if You do, I will be getting them. It’s only
been two days and already I can’t imagine not listening to Your beautiful
voice, and it’s getting more beautiful all the time. There is so much going on
inside me right now, I’m not sure what’s happening, but I do know that I want
to hear You more. I need to. Have a good night Lady Surrender.

July 12

I certainly will expand on what I said, Lady Surrender. I
know it’s very late for You. When You come back on in the morning I’ll have
Your answer for You. I have to give it some thought. It’s hard to explain
something like that, but I will give it my best shot. I’ll also tell You more
about myself.. I’m very happy to hear You’ll be making many Morning
Mantras. I remember vaguely at the end of Your Temptation one something about
You being at the edge of my mind and blowing a kiss. It’s hard to remember even
though I’ve heard it many times, I do remember the feeling of love that comes
over me at that point. Maybe not love, but a gentle, loving feeling that feels
wonderful. I’ll stop rambling now so I can ramble more later when I answer Your
question. Have a wonderful night. :)

July 12

Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You had a good nights
sleep. I was thinking

about how to answer Your question as to why I feel You know exactly how to make
me submit to You, and I think I got it.

When I

listen to hypnosis, and am told to picture something in my mind, I can’t. I was

hoping as I got better at hypnosis that I would be able to, but I never have. I

can imagine it, but I can’t picture it at all. So that’s an area of hypnosis I

miss out on. So sessions that have stories to them have never been my favorite.

I do like some of them, but most I don’t listen to, too many times. Your

Morning Mantras are made with what I have always liked in sessions, and dont

have what I don’t like as much. I’m not crazy about music in sessions. I’ve heard

some sessions where the music does help, but for the most part it’s just

something that is fighting with my trying to hear what’s being said. One thing

I do like that Your Morning Mantras don’t have, or if they do I can’t hear it,

is a brainwave/binaurel beat type of thing. I’ve always liked the feeling they

give me, but I like to be able to hear them. I don’t miss being able to hear

beats in Your Morning Mantras because of what they do have. Your voice and Your

whispers, and the whole time one of the two, or both, is giving commands or

implanting/strengthening triggers. I’ve always reacted best to one voice with

background subliminals (in this case Your whispers) and lots of commands. I

like the feeling of my mind being bombarded with words until it feels like I

can’t take it anymore. That’s when I’m at my weakest. At least I think that’s

why Your Morning Mantras seem to be effecting me so well. I hope this makes

sense, Lady Surrender. I know what I like, it’s hard to explain why I like it

though.

So

that’s the answer (I hope) to Your question, and a little more about me. If You

want to know anything at all please ask, and I’ll answer as best I can. If

You’d like to see what I look like I’ll send You a picture or three. Anything

You want, if I can do it, I will. Have a

wonderful day Lady Surrender. Thank You for letting me listen to You.

OH, I just remembered. I

was on Your site and saw what You wrote about the Morning Mantra Blank, and it

really excited me. The idea of You wiping me clean in preparation for You to

program me to be what You want me to be struck something in me. You taking

complete control of me, and making me into exactly what You want me to be, for

You, is something I want badly. Before I started listening to You I would

fantasize about something like that when reading Your posts on IR. It was a

fantasy, nothing more. After listening to Your two Morning Mantras for about 16

hours (awake and asleep) the last few days You taking over is much more than a

fantasy. It’s more of an ache for it to happen. I know it’s only been a few

days, but I’ll keep listening to Your sessions to prepare my mind for You in

case You decide You want to take over. I can’t believe how deep the desire to

give myself to You is in me. It’s crazy, but I can’t help what I’m feeling, and

honestly don’t want to. I love how I’m feeling

July 13

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope Your night was a good one.
Mine was

great. I was able to sleep with Your sessions once more, and when I woke up, I

listened to them again. After I was done I came to a realization, but I waited

to write. I’ve learned that if I write

things when I’ve just come out of trance I tend to regret it later. It’s
been hours now so it’s safe to write,

and I’m still thinking the way I was before.

When I saw You put out mp3 sessions

I was very excited. Like I’ve mentioned, I’ve been following Your posts since

You came to IR, and was always fascinated by what You wrote. Some of what You

wrote sounded impossible, but I never doubted You. I now know I was right not

to. I’m experiencing it myself. Hypnosis or brainwashing has never had much

long term effect on me, so I doubted it could. I was wrong, Lady Surrender. I

was so wrong. This morning I came to the realization that I am helpless when it

comes to You. Every time I listen to You the effects get more intense, the

hypnosis gets deeper, even Your Temptation trigger puts me under noticeably

deeper instantly. That doesnt happen to me, or I should say, never has before.

Yes, I’m helpless against Your powers, and I now know that even though I had no

desire to serve just one Mistress ever again. (I’ve been very happy listening

to everybody and anybody), I need to serve only You. I don’t want to listen to

anybody else but You. I want to give myself, mind and body, to You to do what

You want with me. I want to love,

worship, and obey the one Mistress who has put me on my knees, You, Lady

Surrender. I want to be Yours if You’ll have me. Is there anything I can do to

be worthy of such an honor? I know this has happened quickly, and I realize it

will take some time to be worthy of You, but I’m a very patient person and will

do anything needed to become worthy of one day being Yours. Thank You once

again for allowing me to listen to Your files, and write to You. Thank You so

much. Have a great day.

July 13

Since you are going to be away for a while, I’ll answer You
properly when I’m able in a couple hours, Lady Surrender. I am so happy You
liked what I wrote, and will give You a brief history of what I’ve been through
to answer You question completely. Thank You so much for what You have done for
me already. I bow at Your feet, figuratively, not literally. I’d love to
really bow at Your feet, but I hurt my knee a while back and can’t actually
kneel, but if I could, I’d be there for You. :)

Sorry if my attempt at humor is misplaced. I really can’t kneel though.

Mon at 1:32 PM

Thank You so much Lady Surrender. I am with You 100% in
regard to

letting things between You and I unfold. Not only because it’s what You

wish, but also because it makes sense. I do rush into things, and even when I

was offering myself to You I knew it would take time. I was thinking about what

it is that happened to have You effect me so deeply so quickly, and I think

it’s a number of things. First would be my reading Your posts for so long, and

being drawn to the things You’ve said. Then, once we talked a bit, I realized

You are a very friendly real person, and that means a lot to me. Then of course

there is Your hypnosis. It caught me by surprise it was so effective, and in

Your Temptation Mantra You say at some point to be Yours, so I wanted to be

Yours. Put those three things together and I had to write to You offering

myself to You. I am very happy I did. Your response showed me much about You

and I now know that You truly are a Woman that I wish to serve, in time of
course.

I read Your post on Your website. The one about what You look for in a

submissive. I loved it. It showed me that we are actually on the same page

about a lot of things. The main part being loving to myself first. No
matter how enslaved I become to You, the

fact of the matter is that the most important thing in my life is my family.

Without them, I’d be nothing, and that would do You, or me, no good. The fact

that You not only allow a submissive to put their lives first, but actually

encourage it touches me deeply. I already trusted You, but after reading what

You wrote, on Your blog, and to me, I now have complete trust in You. I know

You would do nothing to hurt me, and that alone will make listening to Your

sessions even more intense. At the start there was a little trepidation. What

if You were as good as I think You are, and if You were, should I let You into

my mind. Well, it turns out You are even

better than I thought You were, and now that I know You a little better, I have

no fear whatsoever to let You into my mind. It really is a freeing feeling

knowing that I can now listen to You knowing that whatever happens now, and in

the future, You would never hurt me in any way.

I’ll be honest, Lady Surrender, I’m having a hard time putting what I’m trying

to say into words. You may have noticed that from my first two paragraphs. I

guess to sum it up I could just say, I do wish to serve You, and only You. I

trust You completely, and I would like to just allow things to unfold between

us, as You said.

Just to let You know, I am planning on only listening to Your sessions. To

be honest, I lost interest in EH until I found You. I didnt have time to listen
to anything at all for almost six weeks.

During the few times I could I had no interest. Over the past few months there

has been a couple of other Dommes that I listened to, and liked their work very

much. I tried to give more of myself to them, and their work, but as I got

closer, I couldnt get past the fact that I didnt really trust them. I just

didnt get the feeling that I would be ok if I gave them full control so I

backed away. Trust is the most important thing to me, it has to be. Even if I

said it wasnt, my mind protects itself, and won’t let me go any further. So

without trust, I have nothing. So when I tell You I trust You completely it’s a

pretty big thing in my mind. I don’t take that lightly, just as I don’t take

lightly offering my submission to You. I was told me long ago that my

submission is a precious thing. Not something to be given lightly. I have

always remembered that, and lived by it. So while I know it would be ok to

listen to others, I really don’t want to. Mainly because I didnt want to listen

to anybody before I met You anyway. I

havent looked forward to listening to any EH in a long time. During the times I

wasnt able to listen the past year and a half or so I didnt care, and when I

could, I rarely did. I have a renewed interest in EH, and it’s because of You.

So while I know I could listen to others, I don’t see the need.

I guess that’s enough rambling for now. Thank You again for everything. I

look forward to seeing what happens in the future. I feel really good about

this. I havent felt this good about something in a long time, and it’s nice to

feel it again. Oh, and I totally

understand Your not replying to messages tues – thurs. I’ll try not to write
You

on those days unless You tell me You like getting messages even when You’re not

replying. Have a great week, Lady Surrender. Thanks for everything.

Good morning, Lady Surrender.
Hope You’ve been well. I hope it’s ok to

write You during Your no contact time of the week. If You don’t want me to

please tell me and I won’t again. I tried to hold off, but there is so
much

going on in me that I feel like I’m going to burst. Ok, maybe not burst

exactly, more like explode. That’s more like it. As bad luck would have
it, I’m

in one of the periods when I can’t listen to Your sessions the way I want
to.

I’ve told You about those times, and I’ve also told You that they didnt
bother

me at all. That listening to hypnosis wasnt that important to me. It isnt
like

that now though. Not being able to crawl into bed and turn on my mp3
player to

hear Your beautiful voice is driving me crazy. When I first started
listening

to EH, and was getting good at being hypnotized I used to hate the times I

couldnt listen, but it was never anything like this. I want to hear You so

badly it almost hurts, and to be honest, it’s ok. I hate not hearing You,
but

I’m loving that not being able to is effecting me so deeply. Not sure if
that

makes sense, but I’m rarely sure if what I say makes sense.

One thing that I realized today is that in thirteen days I’m going away for

five nights. It’s easy enough to get to listen to You a little when I’m home,

but when I’m away like that, not a chance. If I think it’s tough now, I can

only imagine how hard that will be. I have to tell You, Lady Surrender, not

only have You renewed my interest in EH, You have already taken it to levels

higher than it ever was. It’s not only the EH of course, it’s You, and Your EH.

I can’t get You out of my head. I wake up, I think of You, I go about my day, I

think of You, I go to bed, I think of You. One would think that would make me a

little crazy, but I’m loving it. Thinking of You excites me, and the more I

think of You, the more I want to think of You, and hear You. These feelings are

getting stronger every day, a lot stronger. I’ve always gotten a little like

this when meeting somebody new to listen to, but I’m always able to push it out

of my head and control it. Even when I was owned I could push things down, I

can’t with You. I have no way of controlling what’s going on, so I’m not even

trying to.

Yesterday, since I really couldnt listen to You I needed to go to Your site

and read some of Your words. I decided to go through Your blog, the whole

thing, and what I saw there shocked me (in a great way), excited me, and
gave me quite a bit of

insight into You, and Your other submissives. I started from the oldest archive

and worked my way up to the present. I found out that the way You have effected

me so quickly isnt all that unusual. I didnt read every part of it word for

word. The baby submissive’s story didnt interest me that much, but I did read

what You wrote in those posts. The rest though I read closely. I was surprised

at how much Your feminized girls stories excited me. I mentioned being forced

to become a woman was one of my first submissive fantasies when I was a

teenager, and to see it actually happening did turn me on. Not that You were

forcing them, but the transformation was interesting. With my home life, and

job, being feminized wouldnt be a good thing. It’s not something that would go

over well in my life if I was ever found out. At one point though, I saw the

post about the guy in a similar situation and You feminized him inwardly so

from the outside he still looked like a guy, but on the inside he was a woman.

Now that really got my attention. Of course I took it to another fantasy level

in my mind of feeling like a woman and working around the house in lipstick

when I was alone. Then I pictured what I’d look like and laughed to myself. I

would not be a pretty woman, that’s for sure. Oh, that other session I bought

yesterday was Your female orgasm one, and I suppose I should tell You why. I

saw Your post about the new session coming out about breasts and nipples on IR

the other night. I decided that I wanted that one for one reason. My nipples

are probably the most sexually sensitive part of my body. Rubbing them drives

me crazy. The thought of them becoming even more sensitive excited me so I
decided

I wanted it, not so much for the feminizing aspect, but the nipple one. Then,

after reading Your blog, I really wanted to hear another of Your sessions and

thought of the female orgasm one. I’m not exactly sure what that would be, or

feel like, and since it seemed to be an inside thing, it wouldnt hurt to listen

to it. I did hear it yesterday, but I was sitting up and trying not to go

under. I did go under, and don’t remember too much about it except how

beautiful Your voice was. It’s a different style than Your Morning Mantras. It

really sounded great.

While I was reading Your blog I noticed that nobody had a fetish like my

love fetish. After seeing how easily You helped Your other subs to become what

they wanted it really (here comes that word again) excited me to fantasize You

working on me with my love fetish. A bit about my fetish. I think that my love

fetish is about more than just love. I think deep down it’s about control. The

idea of being head over heals in love with a Domme is an exciting thing, but

it’s the control involved with it is what I think really turns me on. I think

my real fetish is a control fetish. I’ve always had a very strong mind, and

sense of self. I’m a bit stubborn, but I pick and choose the things I’m

stubborn about. The idea of somebody being able to take total control of me and

my obeying them not because I want to, but because I have no choice but to obey

is the real fantasy/fetish. I think I go with the love way of control because

being in love feels great. Does any of this make sense? I hope so. It isnt easy

to describe this fetish in a way that makes sense, but as I always do, I try

anyway. I know I mentioned a custom session at some point, and You graciously

said You’d make one for me and I thank You for that. I wanted to say that

anytime You think I’m ready for a custom session, I’ll pay You for it. I could

sit here and ask for one soon, but I won’t do that. I’d like to let You decide

when I’m ready for it, if that’s ok with You of course. If You’d like, I’ll pay

for one soon, and when You decide I’m ready, be it a week, or a year, it will

already be paid for. I’d love to do a live session one day, but I really can’t

afford them. I know that custom files are more expensive, but I can listen to

that over and over so would like to go that way, but, again, I’m sure I’d have

at least one live session one day. After reading about how amazing at them You

are, I’d really love to experience one for myself one day.

Well that’s all for now, Lady Surrender. Sorry for the loooong message, but

I had to do it. It was the only way to deal with not being able to listen to

You right now. Yep, I’m nuts, but I gotta be me. :)

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. Take care.

joe

P.S. Reading this back, I can’t believe I told You some of those things. I’ve
never said them to anybody before. Methinks I’m very comfortable being myself
with You. It’s really kind of freeing.

Thu at 11:44 AM

Good morning, Lady Surrender. Hope You had a great night.
Thank You so much for showing Your play on Twitter, and for commenting on my
post here. It was fun. :) Just a quick note to tell You I just
bought Your new session. I can’t listen to it yet, but I have it. I have
avoided any type of feminization for many years, yet when You put it like You
did, secret life, feel like a woman, I’m not only not avoiding it, but I’m
craving it. I can’t believe I’m feeling like this, and I really can’t believe
I’m telling You, but I can’t stop myself, and even if I could, I wouldn’t. I
trust You completely, and how could I expect to win Your trust in return if I
wasn’t totally honest with You. Everything I told You yesterday about how I’ve
been feeling is much, much stronger today. The very thought of Your voice makes
me crazy, and I can’t stop thinking about Your voice, or You. I don’t know
exactly what’s happening to me, but I love how it feels. Thank You so much.
Have a great day.

Thu at 8:42 PM

Hi Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well.

I’d be very happy if You wanted to post parts of my messages to You. Yes,

they are private, but if You like them, and You want to post them, then please

do. I wouldnt know where to begin on editing them though. I don’t know what You

would like to post, so as long as it isnt something really personal, post what

You want. I wish to serve

You, and only You, and if You want to show to others the effect You’ve had on

me then I’d be honored. Thank You for wanting to.

Next month would be wonderful for a custom recording, and if not next

month, whenever You’re able is fine by me. It’s only been a little more than a

week, and I have so much to listen to already, AND You’re putting out Morning

Mantra Blank soon! If I got a custom now, I’d only listen to it, I know me too

well, but the longer I wait, the longer I have to become closer to You.
I want nothing more than to be as close to

You as possible. I may have jumped the gun when I asked to be Yours, but the

more time that passes, the more I know it is what I want. I will become a sub

worthy of You, Lady Surrender. I’ve never felt more strongly about anything,

and I will do my best to be that sub for You.

When I have the chance to listen to Your breast sessions I will be sure to

tell You how it feels. I’ll also post a review on it, as I will with all Your

sessions I listen to. I think it’s important, and I get the chance to gush

about You. Always a good thing.

I did a little looking and it seems like the chocolate You’d like isnt

available in NZ. I don’t care about shipping costs. If You want it, I’d like to

get some for You. It would mean a lot to me to do so. I’ll keep checking Your

wish list in case You ever put some up.

Thank You again for everything, Lady Surrender. You have opened something

in me I didnt know was there, and I always be thankful for You doing that for

me.

Fri at 4:04 PM

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a wonderful night.
I’ve had a not too shabby day today. I had an unexpected two hours free today
and I’m sure You can guess what I did. Yep, I listened to YOU! FINALLY. Damn I
needed that. I listened to Your two Morning Mantras and of course Your new
breast session. I was going to listen to the MM’s first, but I wanted to see
what listening to one of Your other sessions would be like without feeling the
effects of the MMs. I wanted to see how it took me under. GOOD NEWS! It took me
under, and I went under deep. I was even interrupted on the phone halfway
through. Took the call, got annoyed that it was ruined. Put my headphones back
on hoping for the best, and I was out again within fifteen seconds. So it
seems that no matter what induction/style You’re using, I’m helpless against You
and Your hypnosis. I must say I’m very happy about that.

Now about Your breast session. I have to be honest, I loved

it! I don’t know if I’ll be feeling feminized inside from it, but I loved how

it felt to listen to. I didn’t release at the end, I’ve never been able to

hands free release, but when You said release It hit me hard, and felt

wonderful. OH, and I didn’t miss the ironic part of the session. Fist thing You

said was to put on red lipstick. I made my (semi) joke yesterday about having

You add a part about my having the urge to wear makeup while listening to Your

sessions, and there it was first thing. I wasn’t able to get up and put any on,

but now that it’s been awhile, I know that I’ll be putting it on the next time

I listen if I’m alone. I’m kind of tempted to wear it when listening to Your

other sessions too. If for no other reasons the feel and taste of it. I’m
actually

looking forward to it. Maybe I’d better rethink what I said about Your session

not making feel feminized on the inside huh? :)

OH, I forgot to add on important point on my answering of

Your custom session questions. That being, if there is anything You want to add

that I didnt list. Anything at all, please do it. I’m here for You, and if You

think it would be good for You and I, You have free reign. I want nothing more

than being the best me I can be for You, and if You see something I don’t to

make that possible, please do it.

I also want to mention something weird I just notice while

writing this. Normally I feel the effects of sessions the most right after

listening. That’s not what happens with You. For the most part I feel perfectly

normal right after. It’s later that things start to hit me hard, and it builds,

and builds, and builds. Then, when it stops building, it doesnt go away. I love

it! :D

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I won’t be up late tonight

if You’re chatting on a post somewhere, I have to work tomorrow, but I’ll be

thinking of You. I always am.

Sat at 7:17 AM
Hi Lady Surrender. I just got to work, but after I do a few
things that need to be done I will of course add what You want to my review.

I have to say I’m pretty excited. Today starts a period of being able to listen
to You a lot. If nothing changes, I’ll be able to listen six of the next nine
nights, and many of the days during that time. I was getting ready for work
this morning at home, I’m usually out of bed and on the road in fifteen minutes
or less, and I thought about being able to hear You and the wave of excitement
that came over me took me by surprise. Then I started thinking about how I was
feeling and all that I could think of is that I don’t care what You want to do
with me. If You want to do it, I welcome it. Yep, a bit on the nutty side, but
I was really feeling the effects of listening to You yesterday, yes, still, and
whatever it is that is going on in my helpless mind is making me crave more and
more of You, and more control. I don’t know what’s coming over me, but I have
to say, it feels right, and I’m loving it. The down side of being able to
listen so much is that it’s going to make those five nights I’m away that much
tougher, but that’s ok with me, I need to hear You as often as I can. I’m not
exactly sure why (I do have a sneaky suspicion though), but I can’t get enough
of You. I’ve said it before, and knowing my rambling writing I’ll say it again,
in all the years I’ve listened to EH nothing like this has ever happened
before. I’ve known submission, but I’m beginning to get the feeling that I’m
about to find out what true submission really is. Just the thought of that just
gave me a chill that felt great. Have a good night Lady Surrender.

Erotic hypnosis: training a sissy through mp3s, Live Sessions and Custom recordings. Journal 5.

The following email was received from sissy ashley, who ordered a custom recording and has been listening to it since 27 April. sissy ashley has also had a Live Session to experience those ultimate feminine experiences of …feminine orgasm, and feminine breasts and nipples. I am continuing to programme sissy ashley with My feminisation recordings. These feminisation recordings are complex….layered…and use deep programming….INTENSE programming. Drawing on My experience as a therapist, I have created feminisation hypnosis recordings that are being described as “brainwashing” – such is their intensity. In sissy ashley’s case, I am continuing with a programme of…sissifying…. feminising… hypnotising.

sissy ashley recently asked for more control over orgasm, and asked what sort of control could I enforce through hypnosis? The next Live One-on-One Session with sissy ashley was  this weekend, when sissy ashley was programmed for control over arousal and orgasm…to tie her responses to particular circumstances….. to only become aroused when in the company of women. Also- to have a feminine orgasm only.

Today at 5:33 AM
Mistress–

Last night is still fuzzy but I think I remember you asking me to email you about it. I do recall becoming very relaxed at the sound if your voice as you led me into trance. At one point there was a house then a garden and then an elevator. Out of the elevator you took my hand and led me to a mirror. Here’s where it begins to blur into colors and sensations. I looked into the mirror to see my sissy self, thin and soft skin with long dark hair and large red lips. Naked, my sissy clitty throbbed and tingled. You took control of my sissy clitty and my senses and entwined them with the sensations of a female orgasm. At one point my hand moved down to my sissy clitty and I rubbed it back and forth using only my fingers. That’s how a woman does it, right? I hope I asked you first before doing that. Did I?

One thing I definitely remember as you kept triggering the feminine orgasm was the tingling sensations throughout my body. The curious thing I remember was while my fingers were rubbing my sissy clitty AND as you triggered the orgasm, I imagined being penetrated by a penis. That was a different sensation for sure.

Towards the end after my sissy clitty made a mess I remember a glow of sorts and smaller tingling sensations as I just let go and let you do as you wished.

I guess I’ll find out what triggers you instilled but for now that’s all I can recall.

Thank you!
ashley

 

 

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Erotic Hypnosis: feminine orgasm mp3s + training of hypno slave

I do so enjoy hearing from My subjects…..subjects who have been hypnotised by My mp3s and who respond oh so deliciously … to My Voice…My programming…My hypnosis. The following emails were recently received from an obedient subject, who began listening to My Sex Slave mp3, and has now moved to listen to- and obey- feminine orgasm level 1 & 2. Yet another subject who has fallen to My INTENSE feminisation hypnosis…complex, deep and layered hypnosis…. based on My experience as a psychotherapist.

9/3/14

Dear Mistress,

i just wanted to express my appreciation after going through multiple listens of your mp3 file “My Sex Slave” last night. i went much deeper than i ordinarily go – much much deeper – and the delicious fantasies that you proposed stayed with me long after the session finished.

i’m lying in bed now and my skin is tingling. i have an erection that i can’t seem to get rid of but i’m happy just letting it stick out and up from the covers, not needing to touch it, just proud that it is there, a sign that in some way i’ve perhaps become attuned to the idea of being a sex slave, your sex slave Mistress.

i look forward to continuing this journey, looking forward to yielding many more times to your soft and sleepy, sexy and oh so silky kiwi accent

mmmmm

thank you Mistress

your sex slave

“k”

12/3/14

Dear Mistress,

Your mp3 file “My Sex Slave” file is quite remarkable – i listened to it on loop on tuesday, skipping through 4 cycles, feeling each trance take me deeper and deeper and more and more deliciously in Your control. Today i will try and get the other sessions .

once more – thank you for this. my original email – in cruder terms – described how I continue to feel – the image of me being You sex slave has conjured a wealth of images and possibilities in my head.

respectfully

Your sex slave

“k”

22/3/14

Dear Mistress,

Thank You very much for your reply – i felt a flutter of excitement when i read your name in my in-box. i am only too happy to have my emails used as testimonials but on rereading noticed several typos – oops. my work has stopped me from fully engaging in any more of your wonderful audio charms for the last week but I am hoping to have time next week to explore your two other files and even look beyond these – there is certainly the promise of a lot more in your mp3s and that excites me so much.

your surrendered sex slave

k

My reply:

 9/6/14

slave,
I trust My Surrendered slave will purchase and obey…My latest mp3 released yesterday?

I await your compliance.

Surrender is inevitable.

30/7/14

Dear Mistress,

this slave is excited and about to go shopping. finally, this slave has some time to explore..apologies for not purchasing prior…

sex slave k

My reply:
slave,
I see you have been busy…. purchasing some more of My hypnosis files.
I look forward to hearing from you…. describing your submission to My Voice and My hypnosis.

Using your weakness to bind you closer to Me.

Lady Surrender.

2/8/14

Mistress,

delicious experiences…i was a little surprised by the deep brainwashing aspect of the files…but feminine orgasm is blowing me away..i was initially a little disappointed that the induction was the same as for sex slave but it is such an effective one (that takes me so deep) that in the end i understand the logic of it…this slave has only listened to file 2 for feminine orgasm once but it was almost unbearably charged with sex. i actually could not listen to the whole file and found myself waking in a state of unbelievable excitement – i think it was the shakes and tremors my body was having that woke me…

wonderful work. this slave senses that his weakness will force him to listen to more and more and eventually, inevitably, to submit in a live session if Lady allows.

your weak and bound slave

k

Dear Lady Surrender

just to add something…i am a kiwi and may i say how wonderful it is to listen to your oh-so-familiar accent and feel it so close to me.

bound and weak, weak and bound

k

My reply:

smiles…
I am busy editing a new feminsation script and saw your message.
surprised by the brainwashing aspect??…. do explain more about that comment.

I use the same induction in a series…remember that hypnosis works by repetition. So often- a subject will say they are bored by hypnosis ( not by My files specifically). Feeling bored is part of the conscious mind still trying to stay in control…ignore that boredom response!

I am delighted with your response to feminine orgasm hypnosis… I have still to post reviews of the double feminine orgasm files- would love to use your emailed response as a review. I believe the feminine orgasm file is a very deep, complex and layered file that delivers the ultimate feminine experience of a feminine orgasm.

Yes, I do love using your weakness against you…I look forward to toying with you in a Live Session.

Using your weakness to bind you closer.

really?
a kiwi?
How lovely! There are so few Kiwi submissives interested in EH.

Mistress,

i was surprised by the fact that there was so much repetition between the two files and, being new to the breadth of your styles, half-expected the style to veer into a fantasy rather than the oh-so-heavy brainwash. now i have a clearer idea of how it works. i will keep you posted on this. this slave also believes, like Mistress, that there is a depth a complexity in the feminine orgasm files that uncovers itself slowly and is yet to emerge for me. i believe, and i don’t think i’m overstating this, that these files fit into the category of art rather than porn or psychological manipulation. this slave wonders if this is how you see them as well.

may slave ask if you have any plans to turn your slaves or sissies into robots?

on bended knee

k

Mistress,

this slave is sure that there are even fewer kiwi Hypno-dommes than submissives. *shy smile*

lucky slave

k

My reply:

My goodness!
did slave not read anything on My web site??
I included links under the feminine orgasm files to My web site where subjects e.g.wendy, ashley, m etc have experienced feminine orgasm for real…yes, real Live One=on-One sessions where the subject experiences feminine orgasm.

I know that submissives read the mp3 description and think that it isn’t possible…but actually- it’s just a normal hypnosis outcome as far as I am concerned….I have based the mp3 recordings on My experience in My psychotherapy practise….
slave should read My web site for journals from subjects who have had their sexual arousal level toyed with…..

I base My EH on My therapy background…. as well as My creative and intuitive approach to working with subjects.

I agree- feminine orgasm will reveal layers as you listen to it…. if you have read the review for Morning Mantra of Temptation written by submissive m .- he talks about this aspect of My work.

If you think feminine orgasm is Art….then you will be even more convinced of that when you listen to Morning Mantras…. they do not follow the normal formulae of EH mp3s…

I will post this conversation to My web site… I am enjoying your emails outlining your responses.

I have a list of recordings to be made…smiles…
true….I suspect I am the only hypno Domme here in New Zealand.
EH doesn’t seem to have attracted the imagination of many in the bdsm world here in NZ.

Mistress,
oh my…yes Mistress..slave did read those testimonies but this slave, i guess, was surprised by the intensity of the brainwash…and its relentlessness *wipes sweat from his brow*…this slave will forge ahead with his training. the morning mantras will be the next step Mistress. so happy i have some time coming up to explore these more in the next week.

embracing my weakness

slave k

i wonder why this Mistress – it seems to be the ultimate in control and submission – and the fact that it is linked with what you have talked about as your “therapy” background makes this feel so much more interesting and exciting. as far as New Zealand goes i can understand that this has a lot to do with the size of our country – and that is why it is so heartening to hear your voice command this slave

in total weakness

slave k

3/8/14

Mistress,

 going much deeper and a wonderful feeling of pleasure rippling through my body at the end.

kurt

4/8/14/

Mistress,

one more listen…this slave still can’t let go at the end. this slave so wants to give himself over..this slave’s twitching dancing cock reminds him he is still a boy…must let myself go freer…more later on tonight

weaker now

k

5/8/14

9.50am.

Mistress,

much weaker now…deliciously weak…Your file is working and the strange logic of it hit me on the last listen. The file is training slave for a cock. “Well of course!” slave can hear You mutter but as the waves of pleasure began to radiate out this slave soon realised what these orgasms are about – slave’s pussy. today slave must shop for a plug.

surrendered slave k

 5.42pm

Dear MIstress,

mission accomplished…mmmmmm…so good,,a feminine orgasm

weaker and weaker

slave k

7774774

 

Erotic hypnosis: training a sissy through mp3s, Live Sessions and Custom recordings. Journal 3

The following IMs were received from sissy ashley, who ordered a custom recording and has been listening to it since 27 April. sissy ashley has also had a Live Session to experience those ultimate feminine experiences of …feminine orgasm, and feminine breasts and nipples. I am continuing to programme sissy ashley with My feminisation recordings. These feminisation recordings are complex….layered…and use deep programming….INTENSE programming. In sissy ashley’s case, I am continuing with a programme of…sissifying…. feminising… hypnotising.

sissy ashley recently asked for more control over orgasm, and asked what sort of control could I enforce through hypnosis?

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1/8/14

Mistress,

I hope you are well. Thank you for the ideas. I’d like to explore a few of them… Ruined orgasm, repeated orgasm and arousal based on a circumstance.
I wish for you to reinforce that I have a sissy clitty. Make it permanently ingrained.

Mistress, I’ve been thinking and I’ll purchase a live session so we can work on things. That might be best. I trust your judgement for my sissy self.

Is there there a way to tie all this to further embracing my sissy self?

ashley.

My reply:

sissy ashley,

and what is in your sissy mind regrading “arousal based on a circumstance”…..??

There are many and varied ways in which I have used hypnosis to control a subject’s arousal and orgasm. With ruined orgasm, I have hypnotised subjects to be unable to orgasm at all- no matter what the “stimulus”…

smiles….

2/8/14

Mistress,

As for arousal based on circumstance…

I have a lot of female friends and maybe we could tie my sissy feelings to being around women especially in large groups?

ashley

My reply :

 ashley,

so- wanting to be aroused when around women??

2/8/14

Mistress,

As a sissy. In sissy mode. Like I can secretly relate. Maybe there are other things too?

and submissive to them

3/8/14

Mistress,

my sissy clitty has been driving me crazy all day thinking about how you can further control it.
I think the triggers when being around women make me feel like I am one of them, like mentally I can envision my feminine sissy self around them
Does that make sense?
I’d also would like to further ingrain orgasms to being a sissy and how my sissy clitty can only achieve this if I am in sissy mode
hope you are well

Mistress,

Session purchased.

sissy ashley.

My reply:

sissy ashley,

In the session,  I will focus on triggers around women and only being able to have orgasm when in sissy mode.

yes- that will be totally achievable through hypnotic triggers!

sissy ashley, yes, I will make time available NZ sunday afternoon…to continue your sissy training

Planning further programming and conditioning of your sissy mind and body.

Erotic hypnosis: training a sissy through mp3s, Live Sessions and Custom recordings.

The following IMs were received from sissy ashley, who ordered a custom recording and has been listening to it since 27 April. sissy ashley has also had a Live Session to experience those ultimate feminine experiences of …feminine orgasm, and feminine breasts and nipples. I am continuing to programme sissy ashley with My feminisation recordings. These feminisation recordings are complex….layered…and use deep programming….INTENSE programming. In sissy ashley’s case, I am continuing with a programme of…sissifying…. feminising… hypnotising….

17/6/14

Mistress.

I purchased the cei level 1 & 2 files and will listen tonight.
I still have not orgasmed in over a week just as you instructed
I am your cum eating sissy.
Also, when I was listening to the file, I think the idea of surrender clicked with me. It felt like a relief to have someone else in control of my orgasm and sissy clitty.
Thank you Mistress

ashley.

18/6/14

I made a mess but I ate my cum last night like you told me too. Thank you Mistress

25/6/14

 Wow just checked my messages and am now in sissy mode. Thank you Mistress. It makes me happy that you use my journals to help other sissies (plus it makes my sissy clitty tingle)
For the cock gag, I was thinking of the sensations of having a penis in my mouth, especially since I don’t have a penis. My lips around the head and shaft and how my tongue would have to service it
And now that I know what cum tastes like and how I crave it, how the sensations would feel combined with the feeling of a cock in my mouth and the craving for cum
Thank you Mistress for reminding me that I am your cumslut sissy.

27/5/14

 Yes I crave cum more and more after listening to your mp3
Thank you Mistress

Lady Surrender:

1/7/14

 I have just posted a new mp3 :

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Feminine-Orgasm-Level-2.html

I wonder if you will like the voice sample I posted….

2/7/14

Lady Surrender,

Thank you for the link Mistress. I thought I couldn’t hear a thing ( of your Voice sample) and then my sissy clitty began to tingle and my breath became short.
This weekend I’ll get some time to purchase the mp3s and focus on them
I hope you are well mistress
Mistress I could not wait, so I purchased the feminine orgasm mp3s. I’ll spend a few days with level 1 before level 2. Thank you Mistress.

Lady Surrender:

5/7/14

sissy ashley,

have you been enjoying the feminine orgasm files?

6/7/14

Yes, Mistress. I’m still working with the level 1 file. I have not been able to listen to it as much as I’d like. I do enjoy listening to your voice.

7/7/14

Mistress I still listen to the custom mp3 to reinforce that I’m a sissy. I listened to it twice today. Thank you. I spent this afternoon reading sissy magazines, trying out lip gloss.
Tonight I plan to eat more of my cum. It’s getting easier for me to eat cum from my sissy clitty
Thank you

I was reading about make up and fashion, clothing and stuff about guys.

Lady Surrender:

 so, write Me a little bit more about that…what you were reading about guys…how you felt when reading…etc
I had another subject talk about you the other day…
……… smiles………
………..with envy……….
they envied the hypnosis programming you have and so far.

sissy ashley:

7/7/14.

How flattering another sissy mentioned me. I hope they are finding themselves!

I was just reading about dating guys and how thry think and what they like.

 My sissy clitty got tingly about one girl who was trying to please her man. Made me very curious and flustered
It just made me wonder about a man fucking my mouth or pussy. Could I do it? I don’t know
I know that I am a sissy through and through but pleasing a man feels scary and arousing at the same time. I’d want him to claw at my panties and bra and run his hands all over.

sissy ashley

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Erotic Hypnosis: hypno slave training using mp3 recordings.

The following journal records the responses of “submissive Surrendered” from inraptured.net as he listens to the “Morning Mantra of Submission”, the “Morning Mantra of Temptation”, “Feminine Orgasm level 1″ and “Feminine Breasts”. submissive Surrendered describes his past experience of listening to Feminisation recordings and contrast his prior responses to what he feels now. he also describes how he feels about the on-going effects of the hypnosis contained in My mp3 recordings. submissive Surrendered’s experience of finding the hypnotic triggers and suggestions have embedded at a level he hasn’t experienced before- is also similar to mike’s experience:

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-hypno-slave-listens-to-cum-eating-mp3-journal-4/

mike last had a Live Session over 6 months ago, and yet I am still able to deliciously access those same trigger phrases I used in the Live Sessions to…. control mike.

I look forward to more of submissive Surrendered’s emails, describing his …delicious…. submission.

20/7/14.

Lady Surrender,

I have to tell You something, Lady Surrender. When I first was writing to You I said something about not really believing that long term mind control and brain washing worked with hypnosis. That belief was based on what I’ve gone through in the past. I was wrong. I do believe in it, when it’s done by You. There is no other explanation with what’s going on with me. I’m basing that on many things. One of them being how things build up well after listening to You, and it just getting stronger, then whatever feelings I’m having not going away. The main thing I’m basing this on is the feminization thing though. I know it was a fantasy of mine when I was younger, but nothing more. In the past I have listened to some feminization sessions, but they’re

all the same. “You’re turning into a beautiful woman, or you want to wear makeup and panties”, oh really? Not a chance. They had no effect whatsoever, and were usually pretty funny to me for some reason. Knowing that in the past feminization sessions had no effect on me was one of the reasons I listened to Yours. While
it is true You saying that forced feminization is a specialty of Your did make me think about it twice, I really didnt expect anything more than hearing more of Your beautiful voice, and maybe getting more sensitive nipples. (damn, writing that right now is making me crazy. What the heck was that? Ok, I’m calm, but shaking) (If I go back and read it the same thing happens. I’m not sure, but I think I hit a trigger. Unbelievable. ) but that was about it. What has actually happened is shocking the crap out of me, and as I said,one of the reasons I now believe You can control my mind. I cant stop thinking about being feminized. I don’t know what’s gotten into me. I can’t even pinpoint what it is that’s changed in my
thinking, but something I didn’t want done just a few days ago is now something I’m craving. I can’t even imagine what being truly feminized would feel like. I can’t picture what could possibly happen in me to make me feel anything but a man, but I can’t stop thinking that it’s already started, and I don’t want it to stop. I don’t get it, but I can’t fight it either. Yes, this is the same guy who said he had no interest in feminization at all, I’m finding it hard to believe I’m even typing it out right now to send to You when I’m done, but I can’t stop myself. I noticed today that when I’m listening to Your files, that what happens to me is not hypnosis
as I have known it. There are the normal times of going deeper, and coming out a bit, and my mind wanders thinking about other things, but the whole time it’s happening, there is much more than hypnosis going on in my mind. Everybody always says they’re talking directly to the subconcious mind, but for the first
time in my life I think I know what that means. It feels like You’re talking to a part of me that isnt me. It’s really a strange feeling, but it’s a wonderful feeling.

One that I want to go back to over and over again. I can’t stop thinking about how it feels to listen to You. Your voice has gone from a beautiful voice with a cute accent to one that gets in my head and stays right there. Your voice is so beautiful. As soon as I hear it I start to go under and let it do what it wants to me. Another sign that whatever You are doing to me I have no control over. It’s the craziest thing, but I just can’t get enough of You or Your voice.

- submissive Surrendered.

 

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Erotic Hypnosis: feminine orgasm, sensitive breasts and nipples.

The following email from a pre-op tg subject, natalie, contained a “shopping list” of behaviours that natalie would like to change through hypnosis.

The first session will focus on using hypnosis for natalie to experience feminine orgasm, sensitive breasts and sensitive nipples. I will also use hypnosis to build natalie’s confidence, and to programme her to feel feminine and sexy. natalie originally made contact asking whether hypnosis would help push her forward in her journey to being fully natalie. Hypnosis works by repetition and practise so My expectation is that the responses that natalie feels will deepen and strengthen as she has repeated hypnosis sessions.

8/3/14

Hello Mistress Surrender.

Hope you are well,

 

Just some ideas (i’m sure ideas are all pretty standard for you?)

would love to be more domesticated

be obedient

pretty

sexy

shopping

clean the house

cooking

obsessed with fashion, makeup, hair, and always practicing

read romance novels

have no fear buying makeup/clothes/going out dressed (not to work)

interested in girlie magazines

enjoy the opera,

romance novels,

romantic movies, girlie programs, sex and the city etc..

lose weight, lots of it, be slim, and weak, but healthy, probably about 10st, at least size 10/12

develop interest in yoga and pilates

jog to lose weight

learn to coordinate clothes

Female Dreams

listen to girly pop

 

when with boyfriend or man who fancies natalie :

blushing with with bf

giggles instead of laughing

girlie voice

 

when triggered:

develop a female voice

Feels naked, terribly ashamed, lose all his confidence and turn into a sobbing, quivering mess if  is ever seen win triggered in public while i am not wearing a filled bra, panties, makeup, earrings, perfume, and a feminine hairstyle/wig.

Becomes incredibly bored by sports talk and to become violently nauseous win attempting to watch competitive sports, or read about them

Feels pleasure and great interest whennever reading women’s magazines, watching soap operas, figure skating, and to be thrilled by anything that has to do with beauty, fashion or makeup.

fancys men – into guys. Cocks, hairy legs and chests, muscles,

women should be with men, i need to be a woman,

natural urges must be towards men.

only think of guys, thinks like a woman

Feels like the ugliest most disgusting creature imaginable unless all his body hair is removed.

Feels jealous, instead of aroused, win  sees a beautiful woman. Find himself comparing his feminine looks with hers.

always wanted to be a woman

no doubts

weakened into submission to to feminine personality

become a woman. think like a woman

act like a woman

Unable to stand up and keep his balance unless wearing high heels that are at least 4 inchs.

Unable to even remember how to walk without taking small mincing steps and swaying his hips provocatively.

gush about how i loves being a girl sooo much, and that i am so much happier this way.

 

Best Regards,

Natalie