More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you……..you being enticed…..you being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.
Subject “submissive surrendered” began by listening to Morning Mantra of Submission and Morning Mantra of Temptation….. then listened to feminine orgasm, feminine breasts, and Morning Mantra of Blankness.
Good morning again, Lady Surrender. I hope it’s ok, but after I wrote You this morning, and I was looking at Your site (yes, again) and even though I saw them a hundred times already, I was looking at Your sessions. I almost got Feminine Orgasm 2, but I thought I’d like to wait on that one. Let Feminine Breasts and Feminine Orgasm 1 deeply condition me before moving on. I kept coming back to Your first session though. The one You said needed to be re-done. I couldn’t help myself and I bought it. I know that You’ll have another version out eventually, but I really wanted to hear it, and I’m not sure if getting it without clearing it with You first was ok. I did listen to it, but I’m not sure how many times. It was once or thrice, but most likely twice. I went out and have no recollection of it at all, and I don’t remember what time it was when I started listening. In fact I came out of it a little confused. Not a bad thing of course. I got out of bed and the only way I can describe how I was feeling is yummy. I know, an odd way of saying how I felt, but it is how I felt. I have no idea what I heard, not a thing after You said imagine seeing myself in the bed. Totally blank, but when I got up I got all tingly as I was walking through the house. It was an odd thing to feel from a session I didn’t remember at all, but I liked it. Very much.
Maybe it has something to do with my preference for session types. I was never into blatant sexual sessions. I’d listen to them, and early on I thought they would be the best ones, but I found out quickly that they weren’t for me. Sexual control wasn’t my idea of control. Not that it can’t be very controlling, it sure as heck can, but it’s the mental, emotional control that I learned to love. Probably because most women would be able to control me sexually for a short time. When I’m thinking with my little head instead of the big one, controlling me is a simple thing. It’s the mental and emotional control that can’t just be done by anybody. To me that’s control because it’s long lasting. Sexual control is over once I climax, mental and emotional control never stops. Of course I’ve never really experienced long term mental/emotional control. I have for periods of time, but they never last all that long. Or maybe it did, and I just didn’t realize it. Hard to tell, and it doesn’t matter, it’s in the past if it did. I’m very happy it is all in the past too. If it wasn’t, I wouldn’t have met You. There is only one person in the world I want to serve and that is You. Heck I didn’t even want to serve anybody at all, as I told You, but the very idea of not serving You seems crazy to me. I’m not sure why I’ve become so obsessed (not sure if that’s the proper word) with one day being Yours, but I have. It’s not a bad thing though. It just feels like the right thing. Being Yours and serving You just makes sense to me. You are trustworthy, caring, and wonderful. You took the time to get to know me, and You make me feel that I’m welcome in Your life. In case You haven’t noticed. I’m smitten with You. I can’t even begin to explain what’s going on with me, and I’m not even going to try. There is just something about You that I can’t get enough of. I know, I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but something has a hold on me, and whatever it is I don’t want it to let go.
That’s great news Lady Surrender. You can be sure You’ll hear plenty of responses from me after I listen to the recording. I can only imagine what a session by You that is directed at me will be like. Your “generic” sessions (ones that everybody can hear) are doing a fine job on me already. I just woke up from sleeping with Your Morning Mantras again, and I feel so strange. I won’t try to explain what I’m feeling, I wouldn’t be able to, except for this one thing. All of a sudden this morning You seem so powerful to me. Don’t get me wrong, I always viewed You as a powerful, dominant Woman, but this is different. Something is happening in me, I don’t know what it is, and I know that You’re doing it. I’m finally beginning to understand that in You, I have met the Woman who could show me what it means to give up control to Another. I always thought that was a fantasy, one that could never truly happen, but I was wrong, I was wrong about so many things. Thank You for showing me how wrong I was, Lady Surrender
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a good night. I was just looking over the wall on here, and reading the entry mike made on Your site. Great stuff, and great to read. That trigger he’s talking about, I believe he’s referring to “deepening hypnosis” really knocks me for a loop too. In fact, right now I’m having a hard time typing it and going under. I’ve been “conditioned” with lots of words before. Ironically surrender being the most common one, and while they were helpful when listening, that was where it ended. Your triggers though, they hit me anytime. I’ve used the DH one to help me fall asleep once already last week. I just kept saying it to myself until I fell asleep. I couldn’t believe it worked at the time, now I can’t see how it wouldn’t. I keep looking back at the words I wrote and start to go under. I never knew triggers could be so effective. I’ve already learned so much from You, and I’m learning more everyday.
While mike’s story is interesting. It’s what You wrote here that really got me excited:
smiles…. Just part of My plan to completely…brainwash you, brainwashableboy…. I am hearing from other subjects too, that they are experiencing My hypnosis to be strengthening as the time passes… and that the hypnosis doesn’t reduce in immediacy. I am so looking forward…. to taking more control over you…. to have you helpless and addicted….. use your weakness against you….in the nicest…most Hypno Domme way…of course!
There was just something about what You said there that hit a nerve in me. I saw it and got that funny feeling inside that I can’t explain. Brainwashed, helpless, control, addicted, weaknesses use against him, throw love into those words and You could have been writing about my fantasies. No wonder it got me excited. I was wondering, and no, I’m not asking, if love would be a weakness in me. I could see it being used against me I suppose. I think I better stop thinking about it. Have a great day Lady Surrender. I’ll write to You soon I’m sure.
Hiya Lady Surrender! Just a quick note to say hi, and to mention that there is this one commercial that is showing here. It’s a lipstick commercial, and it shows three different women with huge brightly colored lips. I’ve always loved that commercial, but now it excites the hell out of me. I used to look at it because they women are purty, but now I’m looking at the lipstick on their lips. I know there isn’t anything in Your sessions outside of You saying to get my red lipstick at the beginning of Your Breast session, and yet I’m beginning to obsess about lipstick. Yet another sign I’m a crazy dude. I’m not complaining though, all my new found obsessions make me feel great in one way or another. I like it, I like it a lot! Hope You’re having a fine day. Take care
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I wasn’t planning on writing right now, but I’m sitting at the computer, and I can’t help myself. No kidding around this time (well, if something pops in my head You never know), I just have to write out what I’m feeling, and who better to write to than You? Nobody in my opinion.
As I mentioned, I’m in one of those periods where I can listen to You a lot. Three of the past four nights I’ve slept with Your Morning Mantras, and a lot of listening when I wake up, and some more at other times of the day. I can also listen three more of the next five night and more during the days. After that I have that horrible week where I can’t listen at all, but I can’t worry about that now. I’ll deal with it when it happen, but I can already tell it isn’t gong to be easy. I have listened so much recently that it’s effecting me in ways I never expected, Lady Surrender. The more I listen to You, the more I need to be controlled by You. If I remember correctly I think Your whispers say that I need Your delicious control. That’s exactly how it feels. Delicious isn’t a word I ever would have come up with on my own to describe giving over control, but it really is the perfect word. It would be a delicious feeling to be in Your control. I can’t get the idea of it out of my head. It’s gotten to be an obsession with me I crave You having control so much. I know I didn’t resist You very much from the beginning, but even when my conscious mind isn’t resisting, my subconscious mind does a fine job of it. Not this time though. I have no resistance in me whatsoever. The very idea of resisting You makes no sense to me. What a stupid thing that would be to do.
This desire I have in me to give control to You is so strong that I’m surprised that it isn’t scaring me a little. It’s not though. Not one bit. How could something as wonderful as submitting to You be scary? I’m sorry this is such a serious message, but something has happened in me. The more I get to know You, and the more I listen to You, the more I need to serve You. I know I have a long way to go still, and I’ve accepted that what I’m feeling is only the beginning, but I will do anything I can to become Yours. At this point I’m just going to continue what I’ve been doing, and let things happen as they will. I just needed to tell You what’s going on in me. I’ve had fantasies about something like this for many years, but this is no fantasy. This is real, and the reality is so much better than the fantasy. Mainly because the reality involves You. Thank You so much for allowing me to listen to You, and write to You. I don’t know what I’d do without You. Yep, You have effected me that deeply.
Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I’ll try to keep it lighter next time, but these feelings are overwhelming me, and I had to let them out.
Hiya Lady Surrender. I’m starting to get ready for bed, and I was about to get up and load the proper sessions on my ipod (the Morning Mantras), and something popped into my head. Funny how that always seems to happen. For quite some time now, much more than a year, much more, I’ve had many of those I can listen to anything I want for as long as I want times. I made plans in my head on going crazy and listening every night I could, and for many hours during the day. Know what happened most of the time? No? Well then I’ll tell You. I’m nice like that. I would usually listen the first night, MAYBE a session or two during the first day, then…nothing. I couldn’t do it. I lost interest. I wanted to listen, but I couldn’t be bothered. Why am I telling You this, well, for two reasons. I LOVE writing to You, but also because I thought that would happen again with You. Not right away, but when I can listen so much I thought I’d need a break. Nope, here I am, after bombarding myself with You like I haven’t with anybody in years and I don’t think it’s ever been to this degree, and the first thing I think of when I’m getting ready for bed is getting set up to listen again. I’m not putting too much thought into it. I’m getting tired of thinking about what’s going on, and am just letting what happens happen. I’m just thrilled that I’m reacting the way I am. My poor brain has been getting the crap beat out of it, and yet when it has a chance to rest, it wants more. I went to the movies today. I went to see Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (really really good) and as I was sitting there, hell, as I was driving there, and driving home and all the times in between, I kept thinking of You. As the day went on it just kept getting stronger. I had a wonderful, but You were always on my mind. I can’t get You out of there, and honestly I don’t want to. I like You there. Who knew this could happen to me, but it has. Thank You. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I know I’ll have a great night. <3
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. Well I was able to sleep with Your session one more time last night, and You are right. Surrender is inevitable. Everything I’ve been writing is even more intense today. You win, I surrender, of course You already knew that. No sleeping with You tonight, but I can tomorrow and probably sunday, so there is still a bit of listening I can do the next three days until my dreaded nights away. Have a wonderful day Lady Surrender. I mush You <3
Uh, Lady Surrender, I was just reading Your new blog post from ashely. Interesting stuff, and little too graphic for my tastes, but still loved seeing how You have effected her. Anyway, I’m scrolling down and what’s on the bottom but a picture of a bunch of lipsticks. I saw it, and I got a jolt. I’ve always loved lips. (I’ll take beautiful lips and eyes over great boobs and butt anytime) (yes, I really am male) and especially made up lips, but this is getting crazy. Pictures of lipstick, not lips, but lipstick set me off. Very strange. I know You mentioned getting the red lipstick on in Your Breast sessions, but why this obsession with lipstick? I don’t get it, but I don’t have to. I think it’s kind of cool actually. Well, that’s all I wanted to tell You for now.
Ok, last one about lipstick, but this is getting nuts. You have a mention of putting on lipstick in Your Breast session, and now I’m obsessed. I expected to be obsessed with You, but this lipstick thing caught me totally by surprise. I feel like I’m being bombarded with so many things at once and it’s overwhelming me. Your voice, Your sessions, the thought of You, my mushy feelings for You, lipstick, losing control to You, needing to lose control to You, and more I can’t even think of. It’s all coming at me at once, and it’s coming hard, and fast. As overwhelming it is though, I love every bit of it. It all makes perfect sense to me even though I can’t wrap my mind around what’s happening. Two weeks ago I was a clear thinking man who was happy doing what I was doing, and only wanted to say hi and listen to a couple of Your sessions, and now I’m like this. I’ve tried to think through this rationally. Telling myself that I’m just doing this to myself because I want what I’m feeling to happen, but I know that’s not true. I know that I’m not doing any of this to myself. It’s just what’s happening, and I have nothing to do with it. I’m quickly losing control of what’s going on, Lady Surrendered, and instead of being worried about it, I’m loving it, and I need it to happen more. I think I have to stop now or I’ll ramble on all day and night. Take care
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well. I’m at work today, and things have been pretty hectic. So much so that while I have thought of You often, I haven’t had the time to do much more than miss You, and yearn to hear Your voice before I was pulled in another direction. I was finally able to sit down a bit a few minutes ago, and went to my profile page. As soon as it opened and I saw the picture of lipstick, and the pictures of Your sessions I’ve left reviews for, it all came flooding back. All the feelings, everything I described yesterday, all at once. Now that’s what I call a great way to spend a little down time at work. Have a great day.
Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing peachy keen. Just a quick (maybe) update on what’s going on to keep You up on things, and because I need to write You. It does make me feel good to do so. Yesterday after I got home from work I slept a couple more hours (not listening to You unfortunately), and when I woke up saw that I was going to be alone for a couple hours. I had things to do, but decided to listen to Your Breasts session once then get to it. Well, I learned something. When I have a time limit to when I can listen, set an alarm. Once turned out to be twice. Luckily I got a call that snapped me out of it. Even luckier, it was right before the session ended for the second time so I got to listen to it twice. I jumped up after hung up with him, got what I needed to get done quickly then got to the field, and then I went home. A fun, day, AND I got to listen to You
Hi again, Lady Surrender. I bet You’re shocked that I’m writing again, and by shocked I mean not shocked at all. I was just poking around IR and I noticed something when I went to my profile page. That lipstick obsession I had for a few days, while it hasn’t gone away, but it has lessened considerably. The crazy thing about it is, I kinda miss it. I know, crazy huh? I can’t believe what I’m about to write, but I can’t believe half of what I write to You, but I’m thinking if in the future, You’d be willing to make another custom session for me, I might ask to have that lipstick obsession strengthened. I don’t know why I would want to put myself through something like that, especially when it wasn’t even something I thought about before, but for once I do know where I got the idea from. I got it from the fetish section on the home page of Your website. Every time I read the part about You turning a fetish into an obsession and a constant deep craving it excites me a bit. I guess it’s the idea of becoming programmed, I think that would be the word, to crave something that wasn’t part of me before. I wouldn’t exactly say I have a lipstick fetish at this point, but the way it hit me the other day I think I may be on the way to having one. YES, this is still me, the old guy who wanted nothing to do with feminization of any kind a few weeks ago. My how things change when one says hello to Lady Surrender. I can’t begin to describe how happy I am that I did.
• July 28
Hiya Lady Surrender. So You think it’s delicious that You triggered a lipstick obsession in me
huh? Now why doesnt that surprise me? I actually think it’s kind of a silly thing,
but knowing that You seem to like that it’s happened to me is only going to
make it stronger. So even though I see it as a silly thing, that silly thing is
going to become less and less silly as time goes by. That’s not silly at all,
that actually quite exciting. Not sure why, but it is, and I’m not trying to
figure out why I’m feeling things (ok, I am a little, but I’m trying not to),
I’m just going to go with them. Especially if it’s something You like. When You feel I’m ready for a second custom
session from You, if You’d want to base it on the lipstick obsession, or
control, or love, or anything You want it’s fine by me. I do want to give You total control, and whatever You want, then that’s what will be done.
I’ve been trying to tell You a lot about me, Lady Surrender. You may have
noticed. I’ve been rambling on about parts of my life, and things I think about
and feel. Many of which I’ve never discussed before. In case You were wondering
why it’s for two reasons. One is that using my weakness against me to bind me
closer to You phrase You say often. I don’t know what You’d consider a
weakness. I mentioned I could see the love fetish as one, but even that I’m not
sure of. Since I can’t just come out and say HERE IS MY WEAKNESS, I’m telling
You as much as I can about myself. I’m sure if You see a weakness, You’ll find
it, and use it, and that will be good for both of us. The second, and maybe
even more important reason is what You said about Your liking to form a mental
connection with Your subs. If You don’t know anything about me, it would be
pretty hard to form that connection. So I’m telling You. I wish to belong to
You more strongly than ever, and hopefully my opening up to You will help that
become a reality one day. If it doesnt, that’s ok too, I really like You, quite a lot. I think
You’re a special Woman, and to be honest, I feel very close to You. I’m
comfortable telling You things about me that I’ve never told anybody else
before. It feels so natural. So I tell You.
I guess that’s about it for now. I know I won’t hear from You for days, and
I may not have the time to write anyway. I’m on my little trip, and won’t be on
the computer too much, but I will try though. Oh, I read Your comment on IR
about calling me brainwashableboy 2. It’s a little long, but it would fit. I’ve
read what You’ve said about him wanting to be brainwashed to give complete
control over to You. I have to say that I would love the same thing to happen
to me. I want to give my all to You. I KNOW, I’m nuts, but I can’t get the idea
of that out of my head. You’ve taken up residence in my poor weak brain, and
You never leave. I like that very much
Good morning, Lady Surrender. No time to really
write, but I wanted to say hi, and let You know that it’s now been four days
since I’ve been able to listen to You.
It isnt easy, especially with Your new session sitting on my puter, but
I’m dealing. What’s happening though is boggling my mind. All the feelings I’ve
been having are getting stronger. Not just a little, a lot. I feel so close to
You. I’d love to write lots more and really go into it, but I can’t. Have a
I sure hope You like taking a rather strong minded person like me, and turning him into a puddle of goo, because that’s what You’ve done to me. I don’t know what’s going on with me. I mean, I know what’s going on, but I don’t know how it’s actually happening. I am usually such a strong person, yet I’m weak when it comes to You. The best part is, I love my weakness. I’ll go into it more when I can. I’m sure I’ll be repeating myself, again, but I’m being overwhelmed with what’s happening to me, and really do love how it feels. It makes so much sense to feel this way. I don’t want to feel any way other way. I know, I’m talking like a nut again, but that’s ok with me, and I hope it’s okay with You.
On top of how I’m feeling there are the things You’ve said. In Your last two messages to me. You’ve said You intend to bind me closer to You, and You said that You’re loving the idea of binding me closer to You. Unless I’m wrong, that is saying to me You like how close I’m feeling to You, and You’d want me closer. Those few words You’ve said are like throwing gasoline on a flame. When I read them, or think of them, the feelings I’m having go through the roof since I know You like that I’m feeling them. Yep, I’m nuts, but I wouldn’t want to be any other way. Have a great day, Lady Surrender.
Hiya Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing great. I had to write just to tell You that this is getting weird. I kinda get the lipstick thing, which I see is now going to become a makeup thing, but panties? There are things I have no interest in at all, like wearing panties, yet once You mention You’re coming out with a pantie slut session my poor brain says, well, that wouldn’t be so bad. On top of the panty thing, I never got being called a slut thing. I actually never liked it, and yet, You say panty slut, and it’s fine and dandy. It’s getting so there isn’t a thing You say You’re going to do (outside of cum eating, still gross) that doesn’t seem like a good idea to me. I know I’m not into certain things. I know I’m not, but when You mention them, well then I’m not so against them anymore. This is very strange. It’s like the way I’m thinking is changing, and I know it, and can pick out specific things, but it just doesn’t matter. I like how I’m thinking now. I know I’ve said it before, but it just feels right. Oh, and I know I’ve said it before, but I want to say it again. I trust You completely. I’m not fighting any of this, even if I could. The way things have gone my subconscious would have already protected me and said NO, but it hasn’t. Seems I trust You inside and out, and thank goodness for that. I want to be Yours so badly it’s like a constant ache, but a good ache if that makes sense. I’m thrilled that even my sub conscious knows You’re good for me. I’m at mush factor 10 of 10 now. I’m onto real feelings for You. I barely know You, and yet I feel so close. It makes no sense, but it doesn’t have to, I know it’s right.
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You’re well. Back home and only 36 hours until I can finally hear Your beautiful voice again. I’ll be sleeping with Blank, and when I get home from work am hoping to spend a lot of time the next three days listening to both Blank, and Your Makeup session if it’s out. It’s odd that I’m not fighting that one even a little. Not only that, I’m looking forward to it. I don’t get it, but I don’t get a lot of what I’ve been feeling. Most of it makes no sense to me, it’s just happening. Most of it concerns looking at women differently. I’m not only looking at them. I’m looking at the makeup, and their clothes, and other things I can’t put into words Now I’m obsessing over You, my growing feelings for You, and on top of it, on this woman thing. I keep thinking back to when You posted one of my messages and on IR You said something about my being conditioned to accept my feminization. I found that a bit odd since I didn’t know I was being conditioned for that, so just took it as how You described my message. Now I’m not so sure. I know I did massive amounts of listening over a fairly short period of time, and I don’t know exactly what it did to me. The truth is, I don’t care. I don’t care if I’m being conditioned, or what I’m being conditioned for. I really doesn’t matter. I’m liking how I’m feeling. I said early on I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing. I do now, if it’s done by You. This past week of ever growing feelings during a time I expected them to subside because I wasn’t listening and have only had minimal contact with You taught me something. I truly am helpless when it comes to You. I don’t want to sound like some nut that just says things because I think it’s what You’d want to hear. I may be a nut, but I don’t do that. I only tell You what I’m actually feeling, and I feel helpless. I’m a strong minded, strong willed man, and yet when it comes to You, I’m more of a weak minded child. I love being this way for You, and I love how easy it is for You to take control of me. I used to read Your posts and think, wouldn’t that be great to have happen to me. Well it is great, better than I ever could have imagined. Thank You.
I have to tell You, Lady Surrender. I wasn’t planning on writing everything I did above. I was just going to say hi, but once I started I couldn’t stop. I can’t seem to help myself. I have to tell You everything that’s going on in my head. I just found out that I may end up being able to sleeping with Your sessions five nights in a row, and for sure four out of the five. I also found out that Thursday was a day I didn’t expect to have much time to listen during the day, but I do. I have all day to myself. I’m doing an internal happy dance.
Looking back, I was not happy I couldn’t listen to You for eight days and nights. It still sucks, but it may have been for the best. I saw that even when not listening to You, I’m still being drawn closer to You. Now that that time is almost up I am so excited at knowing that I am following up a period of not listening with a time of intense listening, and with Your new session and of course the Makeup one too. My plan is to listen to the two of them all .If You’d rather I listened to something else, please tell me, and that’s what I’ll do.
Phew. I’m so glad You liked my messages, Lady Surrender. I figured You would, but anytime I open myself up like that I wonder a bit. It’s not the easiest thing to do, opening myself up, but You make it as easy as it can be. Still, there is always that little voice wondering if everything I said was ok. Very happy it was.
I will keep writing, Lady Surrender, and of course sleep with You every chance I get. Not the way I used to be with other sessions, only when I felt like it, EVERY chance I get. There is no not wanting to sleep with You when I have the opportunity. Every second I get to listen to You is a treasured moment that I will not waste (how’s that for mush? It’s even making me feel icky). I hope You know that I never expect a response. I just don’t ever want to go over a line I shouldn’t, but I won’t worry about that. You like when I write, so I will write. Simple enough. Thank You again for allowing me to listen to You
Hiya Lady Surrender! I feel SO much better now. Blank is AMAZING! I know that I jumped the gun when I first listened to You. Telling You I wanted to serve You, and only You. I should have waited a little while longer, but I have to tell You. I was right on that one. You are the Person I fantasized about meeting one day. I can’t believe I’ve actually met You. I know You said there was no reason to listen to only You, but I can’t imagine ever listening to anybody else again. This isn’t just about Your hypnosis. This is about my complete submission to You. I’ll stop before I really sound like a nut. I ended up listening to Blank 13 times last night. Most of them sleeping, but many of them awake, but under. I remember the beginning, some of the middle, and wisps of the end, but I don’t really know what’s on it. I just know it moved me deeply. A work of art. I should say ANOTHER work of art.
Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You’re doing well.
I was able to sleep with Blank again last night, as I will tonight too, and
I have to tell You something. As much as I’m looking forward to Your makeup
session ( I still don’t know why. I really am not into feminization, but there
is just something about that session that I’m drawn to. At this point I’ve decided that even though
I’m not looking to be feminized, if it happens, so be it.) (More on that
later.), and as much as I’m looking forward to my custom session, I’m thinking
it’s better that neither are available to me right now. I’m thinking that Blank
is a VERY important session. I remember most of it at this point, and just from
the words You’re saying I’m not sure why it’s so important. I get it, I’m
blank, and ready to be inscribed by You, but there is so much more there than
I’m hearing. If I had one of the two
sessions I mentioned I know I’d be listening to them along with Blank, but that
wouldnt be the best thing for me to do right now. Your first two Morning
Mantras set me up to surrender to you, and to want You, and whatever else they
were doing, but this one is getting my mind prepared for You to take over. Since
I’m in a period when I can listen a lot I think it’s a good thing it’s all I’m
listening to. That way, once I do have more sessions to listen to, I’m ready
for them. I’ll be ready to totally accept what it is You want to inscribe in my
mind. It’s funny, (well kinda maybe), but the way I’m thinking now, my fetishes
arent so important. Of course I still have my love fetish, and I seem to still
have my lipstick fetish (still don’t get how that one started), but while they
are a part of me, they don’t mean so much to me by themselves. The only thing
I’m thinking of theses days is Serving You. I know, it’s crazy right. I have
these fetishes, and yet they arent important to me unless they are important to
You. What good is a love fetish unless it’s loving You? What good is a lipstick
fetish unless it’s something You want me to have? It sounds silly, but the only
fetish that is important to me right now isnt a fetish at all. The only thing
that is important to me is making sure that I become the best me I can, for You,
and that’s why I think listening to Blank, and only Blank intensely for a few
days is important. I know it’s a session everybody can get, and I know that I’m
not the only one feeling the way I am, but Your Morning Mantras are preparing
me for You to take over, and I love the very idea of that. I love what’s
happening to me, but as much as I love it, the main reason I love it is because
it’s You doing it. As You know I gave up on being anybody’s submissive
exclusively a while back. It really was fun just listening to whoever,
whenever. That was before though. The very idea of listening to anybody but You
now makes no sense,and I can’t imagine being without You. Am I going overboard? Quite
likely, but I can’t help myself. You are a wonderful person. You care about
Your subs. You treat them individually as real people, and want to know them
that way. You make me feel important in Your life even though I’m just a tiny
part of it. You are trustworthy, and even though I believe You’d love to have
control over me, my home life, and loving myself is what’s most important to
You even before my service to You. You are the perfect Person for me, and I
love You for it. I know we’ve only known each other a few weeks, but I feel so
close to You it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. If I was in Your presence I’d
go to my knees and beg to be Yours, but I’m not in Your presence, so I won’t do
that. I will continue to do as we agreed and take the time to get to know each
other better, and see what happens. I just wanted You to know that nothing has
changed in me, and it’s only gotten stronger and more important to me. I hope
to one day serve You as Yours. If that day never comes, so be it, it won’t be
for lack of wanting or trying. You are one of the most special people I’ve met
in my life, and even if I never become Yours, You have allowed me the honor to
write to You, and let You get to know me. I can never thank You enough for
Phew, I did warn You a long mushy one was coming right? I hope it didnt
gross You out too much, Lady Surrender. It was pretty damn mushy.
Have a great day, and I will write You soon.
Good morning Lady Surrender. Just a quick note for now. I spent another eight plus hours listening to Blank. Sometimes sleeping, others awake, and I was right, it’s a very important session. I have never wanted to belong to a Person the way I want to belong to You. The more I listen to You, the more impressed and in awe of Your abilities I become. Damn Yer good
After four nights of sleeping with You, I’d say about 34 hours total during that time including non sleeping time, I’m very ready for You inscription. Until it’s ready for me though, I’ll keep going blank. I don’t know what it is about that session, but, well, wow. I’ll be leaving a testimonial later. Hopefully it’s soon enough. I’ll re-read Your earlier message to make sure You didn’t say to wait longer than today. Hope You feel better Lady Surrender. I still mush You. Did I mention I love how You make me feel?
• You know, Lady Surrender, writing reviews for You would be a heckuva lot easier if I wouldn’t constantly self trigger when writing them!
GOOD MORNING! I hope You are feeling MUCH better. I just posted my review of MM Blankness. It took about two hours, I really wanted to get the point out how impressive not only Blank is, but all of the MMs. I was kidding with my first line of course, but only partially. I really did keep self triggering when I wrote or read…(You thought I was going to write it again didn’t You? Not a chance. Ok, I almost did ), Of course once I realized that I could self trigger and go under I kept doing it. That self triggering thing is still freaking me out (in a good way). It can catch me by surprise, or I can do it on purpose with some of them. I never thought that was possible. If I had to point to one thing that showed me how wrong I was when I said I didn’t believe in long term brainwashing it would be that. I really am helplessly in Your power. I’m like a little kid I’m so excited to see where next You lead me. I can wait though, and while waiting, I’ll keep on listening and become even more conditioned by You. Since tonight is the last night I can sleep with Your sessions, and is the fifth night in a row, I was thinking I might use all three MMs on a loop tonight, unless of course You say otherwise. What You say always is the way to go in my book.
Oh, it was heart-felt, and I’m very happy You liked my review. Some may read it and think I’m exaggerating, but I meant every word of it. If anything I’d say I couldn’t convey enough how great Your MMs are, and how important You are to me. You have made me very happy, and Your saying that I am Your, and that You’re my Lady made me ecstatic. I will do everything in my power to make sure that You’re proud that I am Yours.
I have to say again, this self triggering thing is really shocking me. I always thought be actually be affected by triggers like that would be an interesting thing, but I knew it could never really happen. Again, You showed me how wrong I was, and You did it so easily. Oh, and in case You were wondering, when You commented on my post, and used the words, yes, it affected me. It puts me under quite a bit, and even when I stop looking at it I’m a little dizzy for a while. I don’t know if everybody that’s listening to Your beautiful sessions are reacting to them the same way I am. Even though they’re made for the masses, they feel like they’re made for me. I can only imagine what it’s going to be like when I begin to actually listen to something that really is made specifically for me. I know I’ve told You an awful lot about myself, but it still surprises me how easily You’ve gotten past my formally strong mind. I never knew a fantasy like mine could become a reality, but it has, and best of all, it’s with You. I think You are one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met. At risk of actually sounding too mushy, I adore You. Yep, I’m crazy, crazy for You that is.
Hiya Lady Surrender! Hope You had a fine day. I’m home from work and so ends my five night intense listening to Your beautiful voice period. I think I may be on overload so a couple days of letting my brain rest may not be a bad thing. We both already know that during these down times things begin to sink in and make everything I’m feeling stronger. Not that I wouldn’t take advantage of some free time to listen to You if it popped up. I would in a heartbeat, but a brain rest is a good thing. Now if I was a normal person I could listen an hour or so every day, and down times wouldn’t be handy. My way of intense listening does lend itself quite well to periods of non listening. One of the things I’m loving best about being Yours is that it doesn’t matter if I’m listening or not. There really is no “down time” if I listen things get stronger. If I don’t listen, things get stronger. If I scratch my head, things get stronger. So, no matter what I do, every day I become closer to You. Bound closer to You as You like to say. I don’t know what my weakness is, but that’s not important, being Yours is. I love that I am. Thank You. Have a good night.
GOOD MORNING! Hope You’re doing great, Lady Surrender. I got up this morning, and saw You finished Your makeup session. Even though I can’t listen to it, of course I bought it. Now I’m ready in case I get some unexpected free time. If not, then I’ll be able to hear it Tuesday night. I’m not sure if I’d sleep with it all night, the MMs are so good to sleep with, but I suppose it’s possible.
I’m still pretty surprised that I’m looking forward to hearing it so much. When I told You I didn’t have an interest in feminization I did mean it. I know it was a fantasy when I was younger, but that’s all it was, a fantasy, and it was quite some time ago. Then You put out Your breasts session, and because of my sensitive nipples I wanted to hear it. Right off the bat You mention lipstick, and now look at me. Actually looking forward to hearing one of Your feminization sessions. There is more to just the makeup aspect as to why I’m looking forward to it, and it’s one of the rare occasions I’m pretty sure I know why. Like I usually do, I’ll tell You. No need to grab popcorn, it shouldn’t be too long
Now I know what I’m about to say may seem very self centered, and it is. Only because I’m telling You what I was feeling as these couple things happened. Of course I know that what I’m going to write isn’t the case. I’m one of many, but since I’m only me, I look at things sometimes how they effect me. Oh, and I know I’ve said some of this before, but I really want to write You. I’ll be sure to poke You if You fall asleep. (maybe You did need to get some popcorn after all)
Anyway, here goes why I think I’m so drawn to Your makeup session. When I first met You I made that joke about not being a very pretty woman if I was wearing lipstick, or something to that effect. Then, the first line in Your breast session was about the lipstick, and in my little mind I thought that you might have remembered what I said, and put it in Your session for me. I know that it’s just a line in a session and it was doubtful it had anything to do with me at all, but the very idea that You might have meant to me that You’d like me to wear lipstick so guess what? I started wanting to wear it because You may want me to. I told You about the lipstick thing, and on Your very next blog post You put that picture of all the lipsticks at the bottom of it. Again, in my head, that was for me, and not only did I want to wear it, I became obsessed with lipstick itself, and I told You. What happens next? Well, not only do You announce a makeup session, You use that very picture in it. One more time, in my head it was a sign from You telling me You wanted me to listen to it, and since You wanted me to, I couldn’t help but want to, and here I am now.
See, I told You it was self centered, and very analytical I’m afraid. I try not to do that, but sometimes I can’t help myself. I know everything I said wasn’t really meant for me, but since the idea popped in my head it could be, then it became so. So, summing up my thesis, the reason I’m looking forward to Your makeup session isn’t so much because of the makeup, it’s because I took all the things that happened as signs that You wanted me to wear makeup, and if You wanted it, then I wanted it too. That shows me how much of a deep rooted effect You have on me, Lady Surrender. You didn’t say You wanted me to listen. You didn’t even hint that You did. I made up a scenario in my head that You MIGHT want me to listen, and that’s all it took. My weak mind wants to do what You want me to that it only has to make something up that You may want and it became an obsession in me.
I wonder if any of that makes any sense at all? I hope so, I happen to think it’s very cool. You have already taken control of me to the degree that You can set off an obsession in me without saying a word about it, and it feels natural to me, as if it’s always been that way. Maybe that’s what brainwashing is, changing my thoughts and the way I think about things without me even noticing it’s happening. I know that I didn’t always feel this way, but it certainly seems like I did. Ok, enough babbling. I’m sure I’m making Your head spin trying to follow how my mind works. Have a great day, Lady Surrender. (I called You my Lady last night. I hope that was ok, I should have asked first, it just slipped out). I’ll mush on about You more later if I get the chance. <3
Your mushy one.
Mon at 12:45 PM
Hiya my Lady. I just read Your latest blog post and I had to tell You it was a good one. The way it was written did a great job of showing what a live session with You could be like. After reading it I realized that not only would I be comfortable if You posted some of my messages, but I’d be honored if You did. I’d love to help people understand how amazing and wonderful You are. You were right yesterday when You wrote that I don’t need an mp3 of mushy love. I know I’m already falling in love with You in a way. I can only imagine what I’m going to be like when I do hear it over and over again. With Your conditioning, my blank little mind, and my constantly growing feelings for You DOOMED. That, by the way, is a very good thing. After a month of listening to You, and getting to know You a bit, I feel like my mind has been saturated by You, and Your conditioning, and it’s just waiting to see where You lead me. I know I’ve mentioned the scared word before, but will once again. I know what is about to happen to me, that You’re going to take total control over my mind, and there is nothing I can do, or would want to, do about it. I actually crave it. If I had ever felt like this with anybody in the past I would be quite scared, (maybe worried is a better word) of what’s about to happen, but not now. Not when it’s You. My conscious, and more importantly subconscious mind trust You completely. I know I’ve said that before, but have to again to stress that how trustworthy I know You are. It’s no wonder that I’m willingly giving myself to You. Sorry for my rambling, I’m just overcome with You right now, and can’t think of the right words to say what I want. I guess I’ll just sum it up as I love You, my Lady. I am Yours and will always do everything in my power to make You proud to have me. How’s that for mush? Just wait, I’m sure I can get mushier. <3
Mon at 4:34 PM
Well, here I go again, my Lady. I’m not able to listen to You for a couple days, and everything I’m feeling keeps getting stronger. You may have noticed that I’ve been quite mushy today, and that is SO unlike me.
I was reading a lot of Your site again today, including the whole home page. I always liked to read it, long before You started putting out mp3s enabling me to hear Your beautiful voice. It sounded so amazing, and yet impossible (sorry to say I once thought that way).Reading it now, I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Every single word You say on there is not only true, it doesn’t do justice to how good You are. It’s not just Your hypnosis. Your sessions are amazing, but without the personal connection we’ve made, none of what has happened to me would have happened. I could go on and on, but I’ll just end up repeating myself. (like that ever happens). I just can’t get over what I’m feeling. It’s like my brain is just sitting there knowing something is going to happen, and getting ready for it. It’s a strange feeling. I don’t feel any different. I doenst seem like I’m thinking any different, and yet sometimes something happens and I realize that a lot has changed. Only because I remember how it used to be. I can’t think of any specific examples right now. I’ll try to remember when it happens again. I’d say it would be interesting if times like that never happened. As if the changes made were so deeply ingrained that I don’t remember ever thinking any other way, but then how would I know that they’ve happened? There I go again, babbling on and on. It’s hard to stop myself because I know that when I stop, I won’t be writing You anymore, and I really need to. It makes me feel like I’m talking to You, and I need that connection right now. Yep, it’s been one mushy day. OH, I just remembered. I was looking over Your site as I said, and clicked on slave registration I think it’s called. I’ve seen it before, and I knew it was wendy. I’ve also seen them a couple times on IR, but not for quite some time. Every time I have, including when I first saw Wendy’s I remember thinking, oh, that’s nice. I didn’t actually get it. I saw it today and it was more of a Wow, that’s so great. I tell You, my Lady, I’m losing it here. I’m thinking differently in a lot of ways, and the more it happens, the more I love it. I don’t know how I ever got along without You in my life. Ok, I’ll stop now. Have a great day.
Tue at 6:02 PM
Hi again, my Lady. just a quick note this time (I think). I came up to my room and decided I wanted to hear a few minutes of Your Makeup session. I was sitting up, looking at my computer, not paying too close attention to it, and then I was out. I came too slightly towards the end. Just enough to realize what happened, and to kinda remember a little of it. I’m losing what little I did remember quickly. I only sat down to listen to the session a few minutes. How on earth do You do this to me so easily? I’ve done what I just did many times in the past, and I go about my business while listening. Not with You though. Nope, not a chance. I hear Your voice and BAM, that’s it. I don’t know why I bother analyzing or trying to understand anything that’s happening to me. I may come up with reasons, I may actually be right about some of them, but what it comes down to is it doesn’t matter. I’m helpless when it comes to You. There is not a thing I can do to resist You, and there is not a thing I want to do to resist You. I have never, ever felt so powerless against anything in my life. What You are doing to me is not hypnosis as I’ve ever known it. It isn’t even close. I’m beginning to understand what true submission is. You are so wonderful, so caring, so powerful. You make me feel amazing just thinking about You. How could I not wish to serve You? I know I’m babbling, I’m still trying to snap out of my unexpected trance, but talk about intense. I can’t believe what is happening to me, and I can’t believe I’m lucky enough to have it happening to me. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a wonderful Lady like You even acknowledge me never mind take an interest in me. I have to stop before I say something really crazy. Sorry for the rambling message, but what just happened set something off inside my head, and I don’t ever want this feeling to end. I love being Your mushy one, and You being my Lady. Have a great day. <3
Wed at 7:06 AM
Hi my Lady. Just got home from work, and did indeed go with those two sessions looped. REALLY good idea.
Before I put on my beat up sleep phones to go to real sleep (they’ve gotten a real workout lately), I listened, with my real headphones Blank then the Makeup session. Now I’ve had some good ideas before, but that was a great one. By the time Your Makeup session was partway through I was floating, and every word was so important (a term I know I’ve used before). It was amazing. I know that eventually just hearing or thinking Your phrase of blankness will have the same effect as listening to the whole session, but until then (and I don’t think I’m far off) it’s a great back to back technique. OH, before I did that, I properly listened to Your makeup session again, and I realized what made me so crazy sounding in my messages last night (I try not to write when I’m still out of it, I know I sound like a nut. Sorry about that). I caught it at the end, the part that I “heard” the first time. It wasn’t the makeup part. I’m still wondering about that, but I do know that if I was alone right now if nothing else I’d have a lipstick nearby to smell. It was the control/submit/dominance part at the end. It drove me crazy. When I heard it the second time I remembered what did it to me, and told myself not to forget so I could tell You. The makeup part is great, and damn if feels nice to listen to, but You saying You’re the dominant, and You’re taking over and I will submit to You (obviously not the words You used, I don’t remember them) that took me over the edge. Judging by my reaction I’d have to say that deep down inside what I want is to be controlled. Or not, who knows. I just know I loved Your new session, and will write a very positive review when I’ve heard it a little more. It was really great, my Lady. Thank You for making it. Have a good night.