Category Archives: Feminisation

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy training jnl 5.

The following  journal records another instalment in the training of a new sissy subject. The subject  has been unwell & unable to have privacy to listen to recordings.

I am looking forward… to joanne’s return to health… and to deepening My control and methodical Entrapment.

 

Excerpt from joanne’s journal no.3 :

 http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-sissyslave-training-journal-3/

Then, Your girl can’t comprehend how You can make such profound changes inside her head with a single session. This girl has collected pictures of beautiful women for years, role models, templates for the girl Yours would like to become someday. And yes, Your girl has pleasured herself while looking at them. Until Your girl experienced “Addicted to Cock” and “Delete Hetero…” After listening one time, Your girl deleted years of pictures and began collecting pictures of women pleasuring men, taking cocks in all possible ways. New templates. New dreams. The old ones became irrelevant in a single breath.
And last night, after listening to “Craving Control” a single time, the pictures now mean nothing. Your girl has no need for them. Orgasms are still female, and are still amazing, but they aren’t important anymore. Being controlled is everything. Somehow, Your girl thinks this change of mind may be part of being controlled – no way to remember anything but Your delicious whispers. But really – no interest in the pictures at all? And a searing need to find something to prove to You how devoted she really is – to become ever more controlled. Should this girl be doing Sissy Tasks? Should she be edging, proving Your control? LIstening to more recordings? Flying to New Zealand? This one needs You to know how deeply she craves Your control…..

 

So delicious…. to have such a compliant subject.

I love beginning with a newly brainwashed and blank mind….

Begin here ….

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/where-to-begin-your-entrancement-entrapment/

with the foundation files…..

and I will..capture… your unwary mind…and have you crave …more of My control.

I am your Siren. I am your Temptress. I am your Goddess.

 

 

29 February 2016.

Joanne,
I have been leaving messages on twitter from time to time, advising of delays & absence from work.
I hope you are recovering….

Lady S.

 

7/3/16

OMG Mistress,

Your girl started crying right at her desk when she saw Your note! Your girl has missed listening to You and chatting with You by e-mail soo much. Her life has been closely monitored since her stay in the hospital, and her fee time is very scarce. As Spring approaches, Your girl should be able to find more private time to spend with You.

Your girl has noticed Your periods away, and knows that they could just be time to focus, or they could be a sign of illness. I say a prayer often that You remain healthy and that You are able to enjoy life both with and without Your subbies.

This girl has mostly recovered, although she still basically falls asleep at her computer at 10:30 most evenings, whereas before she routinely stayed up past midnight or 1 AM. She is working out three days a week, so hopes to get her endurance back soon.

One amazing constant has been that after all of this time, Your girl still feels a natural and deep desire for male companions – a complete change from before, and one created entirely by You. Many aspects of hypnosis fade over time, but it does seem You have made a permanent change. Sooo exciting!

Your girl had been worried that You would become so inundated with male subs that You would not have time for her, and Your girl hopes Your business thrives. It is humbling and gratifying that You remember this one – thank You sooo much for writing!

Blessings and love, Mistress!

Your joanne.

 

serve Mistress

See also :

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-sissy-slave-training-journal-4/

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy slave training journal 4.

The following email was received from a new subject and describes her rewiring as she discovers My erotic hypnosis recordings.

The subject has been listening to My recordings during her work lunch-hour…as she discovers that she craves My voice each day….

The subject has been choosing “safe” recordings to listen to…during her working day…. “safe”- in an effort to stay in control of the cravings that My voice and My hypnosis triggers…..
The cravings that I know how to entice…. and twist to My own desires.
mmm….. hypnodomme arousal….  There is nothing quite like toying with a new subject….slowly and methodically extending My silken, seductive control….
Unless… unless…. it is to further Entrap and Enslave one of My long-term toys….

Good evening Mistress Surrender!

As You know, Your girl has been listening to “Addicted to Makeup” to feed her now undeniable addiction to Your voice. Yesterday, Your girl went into the pharmacy (apothecary?) to purchase some Christmas lights, but somehow, as soon as she walked into the store, she was drawn over to the makeup aisle, where she was suddenly possessed with the need to find a better eyeliner, as she has not been satisfied with the one she most recently used. Your girl walked around the makeup aisle for over half an hour, looking at the different liners and mascaras before she realized that she had come in for lights, and was now hopelessly late to get home. She made her purchases and left quickly, wondering how she could have been so distracted. Hmmmmmm?

You are so wonderful!

joanne

 

sissy15c

See also:

 http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-sissyslave-training-journal-3/

Erotic Hypnosis : anal play mp3s to train a hypno slave Journal 2.

I do so enjoy hearing from My subjects…..subjects who have been hypnotised by My mp3s and who respond oh so deliciously … to My Voice…My programming…My hypnosis. The following emails were recently received from an obedient subject, who began listening to My Sex Slave mp3, and has now moved to listen to- and obey- feminine orgasm level 1 & 2.

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Feminine-Orgasm-Level1.html

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Feminine-Orgasm-Level-2.html

Yet another subject who has fallen to My INTENSE feminisation hypnosis….complex, deep and layered hypnosis…. based on My experience as a psychotherapist.

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Now- he has discovered and re-discovered My “Anal play” mp3s… after taking some time away from hypnosis.

Want to experience what My weak and obedient slave “k” has experienced?….

Follow the same programming of your slutty ass….Begin with :

Addicted to My strap-on mp3

based on the strap-on play with My personal slaves….

strap-on

 

Assume the position… your ass belongs to your Goddess, Lady Surrender.

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-My-Strap-on.html

then follow with:

Addicted to Anal Play

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-Anal-Play.html

Addicted to Anal Play Shemale cock

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-Anal-Play-2-Shemale-cock.html

Addicted to Anal Play Hands Free Orgasm

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-Anal-Play-3-Hands-Free-Orgasm.html

Addicted to Cock

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-Cock.html

Addicted to Cock 2

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Addicted-to-Cock-2.html

So many delicious recordings… to sultify your sexy ass….

 

The Temptress come to tempt…. 

Capturing Unwary Minds with Darkly Addictive hypnosis…..

 

 

 

29/4/15

Dear Lady Surrender,

finally i have had time to download your anal play hfo and strap on files. what a lovely experience listening to them! still no anal hfo but some deliciously deep trances. i must shop for a suitable plug tomorrow. You have again surpassed Yourself.

weak slave k

1/11/15

Dear Lady Surrender,

i needed to write and tell you about my experience with your anal play series. guess i needed to share with you the power of these files and the way they have changed the way that i think about sexual pleasure.

i have given You some updates on previous experiences but have taken a break from Your hypnosis files as i had work to do and hardly any time to fully immerse myself.

the last three weeks have seen me fully immerse myself in Your anal play series and this led to a culmination of this experience today when i finally, after much conditioning, got through to Your strap-on file.

the pleasure i experienced and the feeling of being under Your utter control were the most intense sexual experience i have ever lived with any hypnosis file…and the range of emotions and pleasures you pushed me through will leave a indelible mark upon me.

i am still shattered by the experience and You, in opening up my slutty ass, in asking me to assume the position and submit to your whims and your dominance, have also opened up fresh and exciting (and slightly disturbing) avenues of pleasure.

weak and submitting
slave k

See also :

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminine-orgasm-mp3s-training-of-hypno-slave/

She Male Cock

 

Erotic Hypnosis : dollification, ruined orgasm, pony play Journal 4

The following email is from a subject who has revealed their fetish for pony play. dolly is already Entranced and Entrapped in My dollification hypnosis. dolly is also a member of My Ruined Orgasm club having purchased My “Orgasm Control ” Ruined Orgasm” mp3 and accepted My hypnosis of ruining orgasm. I intend to strengthen dolly pony’s fetish for pony play in a Live Session.

I love toying with subjects on twitter & in Live Hypnosis Sessions. … strengthening fetish attachments…. increasing sexual arousal level… playing with amnesia….

I have also been teasing dolly on twitter & suggesting dolly pony has a sugar lump whenever she is turned on & can’t orgasm because of the “Ruined Orgasm”.

Craving to have your orgasm controlled ?

Purchase My “Orgasm Control : Ruined Orgasm” mp3 and fall into My hypnotic trance…

http://www.sensualmistress.com/Orgasm-Control-Ruined-Orgasm..html

1/2 way round the world… and controlling your cock & orgasms.

Lady Surrender,

I do so adore listening to Your files, I think they have permanently changed me. I adore, worship, love and am utterly devoted to You. Although I function normally on a day to get my work done, I feel more comfortable dressed up for You than I would my normal clothes. I’ve never wanted to be sissy but I love being Your dolly and crave to look pretty for You, this makes me all excited and then it fades unable to orgasm which is a vicious loop as I get excited at how controlled I am.

The idea of being a doll pony it is maddening, i’d love to have a file of it to program it as I know it would be irresistible as You mold me to Your will, I keep thinking of just talking to You and You trigger me, I don’t realize and slowly I start to change into a doll pony, trying to resist but cant as You tease me more driving me wild till i’m Your obedient pet.

dolly.

See also :

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-pony-play/

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-ruined-orgasm-dollification-entrapment/
 
http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-dolly-transformation-journal-3/
http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-amnesia-sexual-arousal-dollification-in-live-session/

 

 

Whisper2

Erotic Hypnosis : Feminine Orgasm & feminisation & Live Session Journal 6.

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, (now named joanne) who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings.
Recently- subject “c” has experienced an episode of purging all feminine clothing, and all things associated with feminisation. My hypnosis recordings were not deleted. My brainwashing file – “Morning Mantra of Blankness” is the essential file to listen to, as preparation for embedding feminisation or sissy hypnosis. The Morning Mantra of Blankness removes the socialisation and behaviour of being a “male” and leaves a blank slate ready for My Darkly Addictive hypnosis.

Follow that with My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3 which conditions the mind to accept the hypnotic suggestions contained in the file, and programmes the subconscious mind to enter trance.

Recently, joanne had her very first Live One-on-One Hypnosis session, in which I programmed her to experience feminine orgasms….. as well as using trigger phrases to increase submission, and to strengthen her fetish attachments.

Feminine Orgasm Level 1 removes the socialisation of being male and of thinking about sex in a “male” belief pattern. This is an essential step to … Feminine Orgasm Level 2 … which contains the Feminine Orgasm hypnosis… which has you experiencing a feminine orgasm the way a biological woman would experience a feminine orgasm.

Wanting to feel what joanne feels? Purchase Morning Mantra of Blankness, Feminine Orgasm Level 1 & 2, and Deepening Hypnosis mp3s.… listen…and become Entranced… become Mine.

Binding you Closer to Me.

 
 

25/5/15

My lovely Lady Surrender,

Thank you so much for the live session. I’ve thought of little else since. It was all so delicious, so very, very special. I still can’t find the words.
Your “Deepening Hypnosis” recording has so much more meaning now. Listening to that and then “Feminine Orgasm 1″, then returning to “Deepening Hypnosis”, then “Feminine Orgasm 2″. I let myself dress in satin and lace. I am yours. Delicious is the word. You are so right.
You are truly a lovely, special Lady. What a privilege it was to speak with you, surrender to you, accepting every word. There was no let down. I’ve been in a daze, a hypnotic, arousing spell. Your spell. I only hope I can have another session.

Your girl joanne

 

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See also :

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminisation-using-mp3s-journal-5/

Erotic Hypnosis: feminisation using MP3s Journal 5.

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings.
Recently- subject “c” has experienced an episode of purging all feminine clothing, and all things associated with feminisation. My hypnosis recordings were not deleted. My brainwashing file – “Morning Mantra of Blankness” is the essential file to listen to, as preparation for embedding feminisation or sissy hypnosis. The Morning Mantra of Blankness removes the socialisation and behaviour of being a “male” and leaves a blank slate ready for My Darkly Addictive hypnosis.

Binding you Closer to Me.

30/3/15

joanne,
I know that privacy is an issue for you.
If you are able to arrange some privacy to speak with Me, I would be happy to speak with you either in the IR chat room (private room) or on skype. My schedule is not easy to pin down…smiles… I am sure W/we can figure something out.

I want to encourage you in your journey, and to offer suggestions that will assist you in embedding the hypnosis recordings. One of the tools that will assist you in accepting and embedding the hypnosis, will be a Deepening file. I will be releasing a Deepening file shortly.

Binding you closer to Me.

Lady Surrender.

 

Lady Surrender,

I am considering your suggestion very strongly. It is complicated, to be sure.

I would very much appreciate your encouragement and suggestions. Would a customized mantra and deepening recording be an option I should consider? One for an emotional suggestive? The cost is not an issue. I do seek being bound to you.

I will try to determine a way to make a one-on-one session work. It is too exciting to imagine.

Your Joanne

Lady Surrender,

I woke in the middle of the night to your message. You are too kind to me. You are truly a very special woman. I am touched beyond words. My hesitation is not about money, but about whether I can arrange the time. I want to, and have wanted to for a very long time now. Thank you.

I know that you are quite busy and that your time is very precious. Thank you for the time you offer. Thank you for the time you’ve given simply to read my messages and respond. You are so very generous.

Your Joanne

My reply:

joanne,
see what you are able to arrange.
Loyalty amongst subjects should be rewarded.
I have had significant family issues for some months now….. and have had to step away from work from time to time. It’s likely these circumstances will continue for some time.

If I disappear, I trust you will understand why. I did have a message about this on My web site, and removed it recently.

Lady Surrender.

 

4/4/15

joanne,
I have been preparing your msg to post on My web site….
I noticed that you had purchased another file of Mine…. sensualmistress send a notice of each title that is purchased. Have you listened to it yet?

I also read one of your messages again…
the Addicted to Strap-on Play is a bdsm based recording. No sissyness…. no femme, no humiliation.
I have just released “Sissy training 25 : Mistress’s strap-on” which is the sissy training file.
I am assuming it is the sissy anal play that is the stumbling block?….

I am enjoying reading of your progress…as always.

Darkly Addictive Hypnosis…. Binding you closer to Me.

 

 

5/4/15

Lady Surrender,

Yes, I purchased the Morning Mantra Falling In Love With Her. It’s wonderful.

At first, just the idea of being a sissy was difficult for me to hear and accept, but your session helped me over come that. The topic that led to the purge was being overwhelmed by a desire for cock and cum. It was too much for me. My erotic thoughts had always been about women, not men. As I have rebooted my training, I’ve had my first erotic fantasies about cock. It’s quite unbelievable to me. It can only be by your exquisite hypnosis that this is happening. My appetite has always been far ahead of my mind’s ability to accept and enjoy it. I simply love your voice and your sessions so much, I’m afraid I’ve just desired whatever you created. I know now that I need to be mindful of my internal progress. I need to give myself time to accept these lessons.

It has been said so many times, by so many of your followers, you are an incredible hypnodomme. Your voice, impossible to resist. Your training, my addiction.

I love you so,
Joanne

sissy15c

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminisation-using-mp3s-journal-4/

Erotic Hypnosis: feminisation using MP3s Journal 4.

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings.

Recently- subject “c” has experienced an episode of purging all feminine clothing, and all things associated with feminisation. My hypnosis recordings were not deleted. My brainwashing file – “Morning Mantra of Blankness” is the essential file to listen to, as preparation for embedding feminisation or sissy hypnosis. The Morning Mantra of Blankness removes the socialisation and behaviour of being a “male” and leaves a blank slate ready for My darkly addictive hypnosis.

 

Binding you Closer to Me.

26/3/15

Lady Surrender,

 Thank you for your encouraging words.

 I am moving slowly and carefully back into Your voice and Your control. I have promised myself that I will not binge either. I am allowing your sessions to guide me and directly me. You are in control this time. I always listen to the Blank Mind mantra first before listening to any other session.

 I think I just started listening to too many sessions at once. I also listened to sessions that I was not ready to accept. Too much, much too fast, without giving my mind and my emotions the chance to really accept these changes. As anxious as I am to keep up with all the sessions and lessons you teach, I need to make sure that I am secure in each step before moving on to the next.

 I am bound to You.

 Your joanne

 

My reply:

joanne,

Which titles are you listening to at the moment?

Which mp3s have you struggled with in the past?

I am so pleased you always listen to the brainwashing file first, as this enables the hypnosis to embed at a deeper level.

Lady Surrender.

Mar 27
Lady Surrender,

I am currently listening to “Feminisation: Release Your Feminine Self” and “Delete Hetero/Install Sissy Sex”. I intended to move on to “Sissy Training: Panties” after I’ve completed these. Using an audio editing software, I have placed a copy of “Morning Mantra of Blankness” in front of each of these recordings so that I cannot listen to one without the other.

I also have the following:
Addicted to Cock 1
Addicted to Makeup
Addicted to Trance
Cum Eating Fetish 1 & 2
Feminine Breasts
Feminine Orgasm 1 & 2
Morning Mantra of Submission
Morning Mantra of Temptation
Morning Mantra Addicted to Her Voice
My Sex Slave
Sissy Training: Bra
Stocking Fetish
Surrender 101

The titles I struggled with were “Addicted to Cock 1″ and “Cum Eating Fetish 1 and 2″, While tempted to purchase the Anal Play Series and “Addicted to Strap On”, given my difficulties with the others, I became overwhelmed.

Thank you for your kind words. I want to make sure that these lessons are completely accepted deep in my mind before moving on.

Your joanne

 

 27/3/15

Lady Surrender,

I can feel some tension building from listening to “Delete Hetero/Install Sissy Sex”. It is not overwhelming, I can feel myself accepting much of it and resisting some. I return to “Feminisation: Release Your Feminine Self” for reassurance. I am also using “Morning Mantra Addicted to Her Voice” in the morning.

My fantasy life revolved around being seduced by older women as a young man. Neighbors, teachers, and the mother’s of my childhood friends. This morning I woke having had an erotic dream of a childhood friend and his father. It was a very pleasant feeling. I can sense your training building inside me.

Your joanne

 

See also:

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminisation-using-mp3s-journal-3/

 

Morning mantra

Erotic Hypnosis: feminisation using MP3s Journal 3.

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings.

Recently- subject “c” has experienced an episode of purging all feminine clothing, and all things associated with feminisation.  My hypnosis recordings were not deleted.

14/3/15
Lady Surrender,

This note finds me at the end of a long cycle of purging. I’ll never understand why it happens. Why I find myself filled with self loathing and shame. It’s as if I get too close, enjoy too much, come too close to accepting who I really am. My punishment is the denial of feelings and desires that have been with me for all of my life. It’s happened before, but this is the first time since I started listening and surrendering to you. In the past, I would get rid of everything, clothes, makeup, wigs, and all of my hypno recordings. A demonstration of my denial. And that is what happened this time. But this time I found that I couldn’t do that with your recordings. I set them aside, put them away. This week I took them out and started listening again, walking my way slowly back into your welcoming words. Small, careful steps.

Your Joanne

 

 

My Reply:

25/3/15

joanne,
had there been a break in your listening patterns- prior to this latest purge?

I know that hypnosis is the most effective means of breaking the binge/purge cycle….
Consistent listening and repetition of the hypnosis ensures the new behaviour/thoughts/feelings embed into the subconscious mind and create new neural pathways in the brain.

Self-acceptance of your desires equals inner peace.

I am so pleased that you didn’t purge My recordings. Keep taking those small careful steps ..back into My voice.
you know that is where you belong.

Binding you closer to Me.

Lady Surrender.

 

See also:

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminisation-using-mp3s-journal-1/

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-feminisation-using-mp3s-journal-2/

 

 

Sissy Training

Erotic Hypnosis: dolly transformation.

The following blog was written by dolly doll…. doll loves to be blank for Me.

doll loves to play rugby and listen to My enticing seductive Voice…

doll loves to drop deep for Me.

doll now has blonde hair.

doll loves to be blank…mindless…. bespelled.

doll loves to read My words and drop deeper:

tabula rasa

blank blank

blink blink

Enticement…Entrancement…Entrapment…Enslavement… more than just a great marketing strategy.

 

dolly doll’s latest blog entry is available here:

I wonder how Lady Surrender will deal to…dolly doll…given that dolly doll describes Lady surrender as a “villainess”…?

Hmm…. I wonder if dolly doll has a touch of masochism that I can- ever so gently- toy with in a Live session….

https://personification1981.wordpress.com/2015/03/06/the-lady-and-the-archer/

 

See also:

http://www.hypnosurrender.com/erotic-hypnosis-dolly-transformation/

 

Hypnotised Sissy

Erotic Hypnosis: training a sissy

I receive many emails from submissives regarding conflicting emotions and behaviour….The binge/purge cycle of fetish attachment is partly responsible for the cycling through of these emotions.

I am often asked to a advise a submissive what decision to make regarding their fetish….

My advice is to follow your heart…. if you are in a relationship- then talk to your partner and endeavour to have your needs met within your relationship. If you talk with your partner and they are not receptive to your needs- then you have decisions that flow from that….

Always- be true to who you are, deep at the very centre of your being.

This may sometimes mean looking outside of a relationship to meet your needs. Is it better to have those needs met..and risk discovery… or better to shut down and deny who you are….

Only you, submissive, are able to make those decisions.

 

I  am currently training a number of submissives who are living “double lives”…. staying in a relationship and exploring their sissy self or fetish attachment. Living on the edge….

Custom recordings which also use subliminals are one way to clarify decisions and to reduce conflict…. Remember- subliminals directly access the subconscious mind and therefore sidestep all conscious thoughts….

This email from lisa, is a very good description of what those conflicting emotions and behaviours feel like….

16/1/15

Dear Mistress Surrender,

i have been listedning to Your “Addicted to Cock”, “Addicted to Cock 2″, and “Delete Hetero/Install Sissy Sex” recordings, and i absoutely love them! i can’t get Your voice and the trigger phrases “sissy orgasm” and “sissy sex” out of my head! i’m a little, well to be honest a lot, confused about my sexuality, and i was wondering if You could help me sort things out.

When i was much younger, i was dominated mentally and sexually by my neighbor, and i sucked his cock and swallowed load after load of his cum on a regular basis. When it got to be later in my teenage years, i started having sex with women and really enjoyed it. Towards the end of college, i found myself fantasizing about the times i had with him, and i started looking at porn imagining i was a woman sucking men’s cocks. It got worse and worse over time, and i started spending more and more time looking at pictures of women swallowing cum and fantasizing about it. i found some online erotic hypnosis and listened to many recordings over and over. i even started smoking because i loved sucking on things so much. i found it difficult to actually go through with it though, but i eventually found a man on an Internet dating site, met him at his apartment, had him call me a slut and sucked his cock and swallowed his cum. i couldn’t do it again, however, and i repeated my past behavior of fantasizing about sucking cock. i put in a few profiles on dating sites and came close to meeting other men, but i never did it. i also went to adult bookstores to suck cock, but again i couldn’t go through with it.

i eventually got married to a woman and am still married to her today. For awhile my thoughts of being a sissy went away, but they eventually came back. This inner struggle is killing me! Over the past couple of years i have been listening to hypnosis recordings by multiple hypnotists, and i ran across Your recordings a week or so ago. Your hypnosis is by far the most powerful i’ve encountered, and i find myself going deep down the rabbit hole so to speak. i haven’t tried to have sex with my wife since i’ve been listening to Your recordings, but i’m guessing it’s going to result in me not being able to get it up and having to explain to my wife that it’s due to stress or something else. i’ve had problems getting it up with her and other women before, so this won’t be anything completely new.

i guess i have a few possible choices to make:

1. Continue listening to Your recordings and give in to my urge to suck cock, swallow cum, be fucked in my sissy clitty, and have a man cum in my ass over and over. This wouldn’t be that hard to do as we live near an adult bookstore that has a large section devoted to this sort of thing. i also work at home and have ample opportunity to make it happen.
2. Tell my wife that i want to be submissive to her, and work with her over time to fuck me with a strapon, suck on the strapon, be dominated by her, etc. This would help with my urges, but it wouldn’t be quite the same and may leave me disappointed.
3. Divorce my wife and pursue a full time life as a sissy. I love my wife and really don’t want to do this, even though i’m becoming less and less sexually attracted to her.
4. Try to undo my programming and live a life as a regular male having sex with my wife. This would be *extremely* hard for me to do as i’ve already failed at it.

Do You have any suggestions for me? Are there other options i’m not thinking of? Would a custom recording help me sort things out? My lust for cock and cum is overwhelming, and it’s all i can think about. i keep hearing Your trigger phrases in my head, and i find myself going back to Your recordings over and over again. If i could do it all over again, i would live my life as a sissy and find a man to dominate me, make me his sex slave, swallow load after load of his cum, and feel the pleasure of having him cum deep inside me. i fantasize about being pimped out at sex parties to multiple men. i so desperately long to have a big, hard, sexy cock cum deep inside me, feeling the warmth penetrating my mind and body.

Thanks in advance for Your time and consideration.

Love,
Your sissy slut, lisa (mike)

 

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